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About Me

I am a good guy for the most part. I could be the best but mostly I'm the worst.

My Interests

nyquil. sleeping. drinking. not eating for days at a time. placebos. games of cosmic pretend. the possibility of lucid dreams. staring at people. walking. riding the bus. wasting time. blasphemy. complaining. not working. giving bad advice. being blatently honest as a form of humor. tea. halvah. hare krishnas. wanting to break dance. records. hatin' on people. downloading audio cds in hopes of having a long road trip in which to listen to them. planning things that will never happen. day dreaming. vanilla soy milk/banana drink called banilla.

I'd like to meet:

I like meeting people but more than that I like keeping old friends. that shit is rough.

Music:

you name it and I either love it or I hate it or I don't really care either way. evan dando. the shins. pg.99. left for dead. buffalo springfield. schubert. knife hand chop. biggie. mustaphamond. cap n' jazz. saetia. the ramones. converge. cum slut trio. ice cream bloody murder. charlie brown brown. john frusciante. vincent gallo. brian jonestown massacre. kind of like spitting. joy division. elliot smith. aphex twin. dj tron. delta 9. the pharcyde. nAs. ink&Dagger. CCR. the unicorns. xiu xiu. someone still loves you boris yeltsin, DESCENDENTS, evergreen,

Movies:

shit, I see a lot of movies. brazil. beau jest. everything by the cohen brothers. tommy boy. fight club. harvey. boondock saints. the goonies. the 25th hour. the lost boys. john hughes movies. thirteen conversations about one thing. happiness. love liza. pretty much anything with philip seymour hoffman or william h. macy. documentaries. charlie kaufman. the legend of 1900. the believer. V for vendeatta. 8 and 1/2.

Television:

wonder showzen, simpsons, family guy, mr. show, bbc world news, sports center, countdown with kieth olberman, politically incorrect, anything is better than thinking.

Books:

I have recently begun to read quicker than I had ever previously thought personally possible. however I have a tendancy to stop reading books that suck before I finsih reading them. therefore almost every boook I read I consider to be one of "my favorites"
the age of reason. nausea. the stranger. the fall. the plague. a happy death. the myth of sysyphus. on the road. dharma bums. the vice guide to sex drugs and rock n' roll. thus spake zarathustra. how to overcome your fear of death. fear and loathing in las vegas. love. the ethics of ambiguity. the truth with jokes. big lies. Ismael. Junky. Queer.

Heroes:

nope

My Blog

maybe its a matter of time

This can't be what my life has become, the fool thinks to himself. He repeats the scenario over and over in his head of when his accidental genius is finally unveiled. He is really great at something,...
Posted by Nyosh on Tue, 11 Mar 2008 01:52:00 PST

please let me forgive myself

I've lived so many lives, been so many different people. Some days I can't wait to see what I will become next. Some days I am scared of what I might become or what I feel I have already lost. I can't...
Posted by Nyosh on Sun, 07 Oct 2007 02:07:00 PST

you can all get fucked

someday I will wake up with a smile on my face and shower and shave silently. I will walk out the door and never be inside again. I will drive my car an undisclosed distance and terminate my life with...
Posted by Nyosh on Wed, 21 Dec 2005 10:45:00 PST

wishing by numbers

life really sucks. I dunno what I'm doing. I feel a real sense of apathy. I have given up on everything. I used to get myself all worked up over anything I could think of. try to justify my existance ...
Posted by Nyosh on Sun, 11 Jun 2006 02:14:00 PST

I live in a dream world

I have been so tired and felt so shitty lately. But I have had some decent dreams. Sometimes I day dream so much I will look back on a whole day and all I can remember is what I did with the money I w...
Posted by Nyosh on Thu, 01 Dec 2005 07:35:00 PST

I feel stupid for being alive

the more I think about it the less sense it makes. why do people live at all. the worst is to see people who are in situations similar to situations youve been in and acting like you did. it takes all...
Posted by Nyosh on Fri, 04 Nov 2005 01:29:00 PST

what a perfect way to put myself back in my place

I moved back into the house I grew up in. its all brand new and filled with boxes full of crap. I have never moved anywhere except Portland and it seemed pretty temporary from the get go. it is pretty...
Posted by Nyosh on Tue, 27 Sep 2005 03:03:00 PST

hey earl, put your dick away. theres cops up ahead.

it sucks to be back here. stuck here in fact. there's nothing to do. I wish I could leave but I have no where I want to go. If I never had to stay in the same place for more than two days for the rest...
Posted by Nyosh on Sun, 28 Aug 2005 02:09:00 PST

if thats the way you want it, well thats the way I want it more

there is only one way to win, and that is not to care. I care. I care more than most about things I shouldn't. but I won't let it show like I have in the past. I've learned to take it well. or at leas...
Posted by Nyosh on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

life is unfair. kill yourself or get over it.

I don't want to sound like my usual bitch self but here it goes. Life is fucking shitty right now. I come down here with the idea in my head that its gonna be all shit and giggles. I still have yet to...
Posted by Nyosh on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST