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shannon

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Myspace Layouts & Graphics @ JellyMuffin.com Get Falling Objects @ JellyMuffin.com I am gonna keep this short and sweet as I begin to write somthing that some of you are aware and some of you aren't but you will be today! Please keep an open Mind! I have been sober since October 17 1998 and it has been a very long long long road for me struggling to overcome my addictions somedays easier than others!!! Tomorrow I will be celebrating my 8 years of recovery as I shall call it a stepping stone to just another day, as I do live ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!!! Empty As I look upon the empty shelf, where your picture used to be, I often wonder if you have stopped for a moment to think of me.My heart is full of the sadness, my eyes full of tears wondering if I will see you again.This slow suicide, thie ever lasting lonliness, the addictions you have chosen over me.shannon Feb 27/01Degrassi [Hello]
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Add to My Profile | More Videos Surviving everyday trying to overcome my fears and starting a new beginning in the new year 2007,With every new year they say to start with new beginnings out with the old and in with the new. I have been going through a very looooooooooong divorce process but with any doubt it should be over and done with this new year so you all can celebrate with me I will keep you all updated and believe me you will all know when that day has arrived!!!!!!! It's just along process and dam if I would have know how much money it would have cost to divorce him well I don't think......and I will keep that comment to myself hehehehe!..

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.. I do not know what I have done, I do not know what I have said. Everytime I speak my words are a blur and it is as if no one hears anything. I try to speak but you do not hear but of course your mind is on gettin that high. Hello I am here right in front of you, but it is to late your are already walking out the door. You are frustrated today so I will stand out of your way. So maybe someday God will guide you show you recovery so you can walk my way.shannonI wake up every morning watching the sun begin to rise, I think of all the years that have went by, and how I have become more wise. All my life I have searched for happiness, and a little bit of success. But with the drugs and alcohol it turned into quite the mess. The months have went by, the days feels like years, As I began a month of treatment, full of laughter anger and tears. Such emotions ran through my body, As I walked into this strange place, I knew it was than it was my addiction I would have to face. shannon?
| View Show | Please don't leave me now, I feel your love move within me, I want you to stay for all the world to see, Little one, please stay within my womb so I can give you the strength that you need, and do not that god take you away from me. Grasp on to mommy tight and everything will be alright it isn't time for you to go now it is time for you to stay, Someday you will finally meet your daddy, I do not know when or what he will have to say. But you were to little not strong enough to fight, and I know that someday daddy and I will hold your hand when we meet you upon that special light. So stay strong my beautiful child, for it won't be for awhile, and remember for always your mommy and daddy only want to see you smile. So when we meet upon that golden gate, it wasn't your parents that made any mistakes, God intrusted himself and took your soul, and made your fate. But until we meet again only time will tell, please reach your tiny hand to us, and show us your tiny little smile, because for everyday we think of you our dear sweet child. shannon 2007 "http://apps.rockyou.com/rockyou.swf?instanceid=56529396& ;ver=102906" height="338" width="450"
| View Show | Create Your Own I have many interest's in life but my main interest is my girls in giving them a lifetime full of happiness and a stable and secure home. For years of being married I to a man I never really knew I guess you could say and sucked the life right out of me, I never thought today I would find someone who ment the world to me. That I have my bestfriend of 10 years has become my life and treats my girls as his own there is no doubt there. In any relationship you have your ups and downs but when you are able to focus and get through those challenges together the interest in that is pretty overwhelming. Myself my main interest is learning to love again in a respectful manor and knowing that my past is my past and not to relive it and drag myself down. My divorce well that is still on going dam wish it was over but after the storm comes the rainbow, and it is yours for the taking if you chose to live in the past or go forward and I today am going towards living in today and looking foward to a beautiful future. CHEERS

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Imbeded in the snow The snow begins to fall again, as I feel such coldness over whelm me,Thinking of how things used to be, and as a child I was never set freeThe visions of white reflect upon my soul,leaving my mind a blur and my heart so cold. I have looked out my window a million times, to see if your foot prints are imbeded in the snow. I still havn't havn't accepted it was time for you to go! shannon /a .. mspmb allowScriptAccess="never" allowNetworking="internal" enableJSURL="false" enableHREF="false" saveEmbedTags="true"

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Quickly rushin to find away out, Clearing my mind without any doubt. Loading trucks leaving what was your and taking the rest. You see my dear friend me leaving with my girls was not a test. They say sometimes life is never as it seems, But I have to much to lose and I want to fullfill my girls dreams. Never wanted to say good-bye, But all that comes out of you is a lie. Don't question my life, look upon your own. Because by the Grace of God there go I. I have seen many people die or endup with an addiction they can not beat, finding Themselves with nothing running from place to place or just sell themselves on the street. Role up your sleeves tell me what you see, Could you really tell me that is what you wanna be. This addiction has taken over your soul, Now you have nothing left "What is your goal". You lost your wife and children over a very selfish addiction, Do you even know what happened do you have any recollection. Love dys with the lys of an addiction that takes over your whole been. I never gave up on you my friend you just couldn't stay sober when all I wanted was for you to be free and clean. It didn't mean you loved me and the girls any less, But your addiciton turned into a horrible mess. It is time to say good-bye we have been seperated for year, I can not cry anymore this body had not one tear to cry. You are now everything you wished you would be, Free of me, I am no longer there to pretend a perfect life, that never existed. I used to walk around with my eyes closed tight. But I am done now I am my own person and I will never surrender the fight. As long as my girls are protected I will sleep tonight, Kiss them and hug them assuring them there safe as I turn out the light!shannon
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HAVING GOD WATCH OVER MY GIRLS AND PROTECTING US ON OUR LONG JOURNEY OF LIFE AND FULLFILLING THOSE GOALS AND BEING THE BEST MOTHER I CAN BE XOXOXOX avril lavigne-nobodys home
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Add to My Profile | More Videos WHERE HAVE YOU GONEWhere have you gone You walked away upon the rising of the sun.Where are you now, I never wanted to let you down, I need to try and fix you some how.Morning is waiting for you to return, All that you need is to find you way back from your mistake just learn.Forgive me if don't have the right words to say, When everytime you leave it is not only for one day.Forgive me if I am tired of awaiting for you to come back to me one day, As I watch it all slip away.It won't be long until you open your eyes, just stop for a minute God will help you find your way.shannon

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Add to My Profile | More Videos As I sit here reflecting on upon my past, I begin to realize if I sit here and dwell all of the hurt will last. It is all up to me to go forward and move on, To let go of the pain stop being the victim,this day shall be gone. The tears of Yesturday have faded away, The anger of today had faded within the sun, the dreams of tomorrow are forever within my heart to stay. by:shannonThis was written by a young girl who was in jail for drug charges, And was addicted to meth. She wrote this while in jail. As you will soon read, she fully grasped the horrors of the drug, as she tells in this simple, yet Profound poem. She was released from jail, but, true to her story, the drug owned her. They found her dead not long after, with the needle still in her arm. Please keep praying. This thing is worse than any of us realize...My Name Is MethI destroy homes, I tear families apart, I take your children, and that's just the start. I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold, The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold. If you need me, remember I'm easily found, I live all around you - in schools and in town I live with the rich, I live with the poor, I live down the street, and maybe next door. I'm made in a lab, but not like you think, I can be made under the kitchen sink. In your child's closet, and even in the woods, If this scares you to death, well it certainly should. I have many names, but there's one you know best, I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth. My power is awesome, try me you'll see, But if you do, you may never break free. Just try me once and I might let you go, But try me twice, and I'll own your soul. When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie, You do what you have to -- just to get high. The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms. You'll lie to your mother, you'll steal from your dad, When you see their tears, you should feel sad. But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised, I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways. I take kids from parents, and parents from kids, I turn people from God, and separate friends. I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride, I'll be with you always -- right by your side. You'll give up everything - your family, your home, Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone. I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give, When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live. If you try me be warned - this is no game, If given the chance, I'll drive you insane. I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind, I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine. The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed, The voices you'll hear, from inside your head. The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see, I want you to know, these are all gifts from me. But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart, That you are mine, and we shall not part. You'll regret that you tried me, they always do, But you came to me, not I to you. You knew this would happen, many times you were told, But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold. You could have said no, and just walked away, If you could live that day over, now what would you say? I'll be your master, you will be my slave, I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave. Now that you have met me, what will you do? Will you try me or not? It's all up to you. I can bring you more misery than words can tell, Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.

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| View Show | Create Your Own GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE PEOPLE I CAN NOT CHANGE, THE COURGAGE TO ACCEPT THE ONES I CAN, AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THAT THAT PERSON IS ME.
color="Purple" I Planted a seed in hopes it would grow tall, Knowing it would wilt and die come fall. I attempted to change my life in hope for better days, But strange enough as the seasons change, I am finding it harder in many different way's. Somtimes I feel so sad and alone, that I force this fake smile upon my face,hoping that when I reopen my eyes I am in a better place.Shannon"http://www.photocasket.com"
Sometimes I wonder where I would be now reflect upon a past I would rather not look at, or take blame for,Today I know what I had done then, at that time I just want to turn back time and reopen that door.In life I have learnt there are only two garantee's life and death and one is never turning back time,When I reflect upon the past I feel many feelings sadness, happiness, regret and many other emotions, I wish I could go back and fix time.There is no greater hurt than losing someone you love so deep within your heart,But no matter what, there is never an explanation nor a chance to say good-bye, the hurt comes down to the LETTING GO part.Is there such exsistance of letting go, to someone you love with all of your soul, when you feel his hand slipping away so fast.Never searching for tomorrow, or thinking of yesturday, when holding on to that one moment that could be your last.Sharing laughter, goodtimes and bad, looking into his eyes knowing how much he loved me,Remembering the voice that always cheered you up when things never seemed right to me,Having him hold me when I would cry, showing me a greater life, and telling me of a heart of sadness, that life was greater to live than die.I wish upon that year over and over again within my head, just wanting to hold you once more and say good-bye.But all I could do is sit there and cry, with the thought of you began to tare me up inside, I just lived within a lie.I am strong when you are near, I am proud to say that you loved me, and no matter where you are today your love will always belong only not for the world to see.The medication just eases the pain, the thoughts of you make me feel so much that my strength I can not regain.Could you please come back to me, just for one moment even if it is in my dreams, so this sadness will no longer remain.I close my eyes as I see you smile back at me, but it is not the same, I wanted more time but it all came to an end so fast.I keep pretending to myself that I have completely let you go, I feel today as if I let you down.Replaced you with a life of make belief, making you see what I only wanted you and others to see,When really all I have done is sit within my home alone full of grief.If I could wish upon a star, and it could come true, My only wish would be to hold you once again and tell you how much I truly loved you.shannon

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Posted by shannon on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 07:46:00 PST

I wrote a song

Sometimes I awake to the silence of the night, Looking out my window at the star lite sky starring upon a start that shines so bright. OOOOH and I ask myself could it be you, sending a message from on...
Posted by shannon on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 05:39:00 PST

my dear child

Please don't leave me now, I feel your love move within me, I want you to stay for all the world to see, Little one, please stay within my womb so I can give you the strength that you need, and do no...
Posted by shannon on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 07:36:00 PST

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Posted by shannon on Wed, 29 Nov 2006 07:27:00 PST

What are you doing now

Where are you now, are you laying alone, thinking of me, sitting by the phone thinking about how it used to be. Do you wait up all night and hold your pillow tight, Do you cry in your sleep wishing yo...
Posted by shannon on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 08:46:00 PST

When I awake

I wake up in the middle of the night, Tears in my eyes gripping my pillow tight. THe pain that cuts right through my heart, Leaves me to tremble all alone in the dark. I call your name but nobody...
Posted by shannon on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 08:37:00 PST

Made my mind up

Quickly rushin to find away out, Clearing my mind without any doubt. Loading trucks leaving what was your and taking the rest. You see my dear friend me leaving with my girls was not a test. They say ...
Posted by shannon on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 08:29:00 PST

Celebrating MY L IFE

I am gonna keep this short and sweet as I begin to write somthing that some of you are aware and some of you aren't but you will be today! Please keep an open Mind! I have been sober since October 17 ...
Posted by shannon on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 04:13:00 PST

I'm Leaving

As I sit in this big house alone, Awaiting so patiently by the phone, I wonder what it is I've done wrong, And what it is that is taking you so long. As I watch the clock from dust till dawn, I start ...
Posted by shannon on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 09:11:00 PST

Put it in the past

Why do I feel this way I honestly do not know. But there comes a time when all good things come to an end, that's when it is time to go. Move forward in life remove yourself from the ones that are cau...
Posted by shannon on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 08:37:00 PST