WHY THE HALF NAKED PICS....YOU ASK?? It's because I CAN ONLY BE ME....So, I need you to understand me, to embrace my imperfection and see my flaws!!! I need you not to harp on what is less than satisfactory about me, but praise what is emaculate about me... You see, in my 32 years of life, I have finally decided to accept me! I have always HATED everything that defined me as a black woman. I grew up in my own world of hurt and insecurity! I hated BEING NEJASHMEN....I HATED THE SKIN I WAS IN!! Nothing was good, My skin too DARK, my hair TOO Nappy, my eyes not light enough, my waist not small enough, my hips not thin enough! I've EXISTED on a path of DESTRUCTION over the yrs, looking for ACCEPTANCE AND LOVE, in all the wrong places....I looked for it in a FATHER who didn't want me, a STEP-FATHER who beat me down both physically and mentally, boyfriends who were abusive and even a MARRIAGE that was DOOMED from the day we married. I even considered SUICIDE at time or 2...nevertheless, GOD saw fit to keep me so that I could learn to LIVE life and not just struggle to SURVIVE in my pity and self-doubt!I was always covered...covered COMPLETELY(not in cloth) but... by a shield that made me come across as confrontational, bossy, arrogant, and inconsiderate.... the truth is, Nothing could be further from the truth!!! It was and often times is... MY SECURITY!!So when people ask, WHY THE PHOTOS OF ME HALF DRESSED..... it's because I refuse to HIDE myself EVER again...I am me and I will love Everything about me, from scars on my body to the soles of my size 10 feet....I need to LOVE what I see!! From the dark shade of my skin to the 230 pounds that the scale reads...IT's ME in all my GLORIOUS BEAUTY!!! Every imperfection is a TESTIMONY and makes me FABULOUS: From the scar over my left eye, to the scar on my left arm, which came at the hands of my husband, to the stretch marks from pregnancy,weight loss, and weight gain, to the dimples in my ass from it being to damn big, I will not be ashamed! Nothing about me is coincidence...I was created this way for a reason!!!If I was 110 pounds and in a bikini, no one would critize....So my question then becomes, why can't I like what I see and share it??The answer to that question is....I CAN!! As every woman should feel, I DO IT CAUSE I CAN, AND NOBODY... AND I DO MEAN NOBODY DOES IT QUITE LIKE ME!! I wish for every young woman who reads this LOVE...an eternal, EVERLASTING love for yourself, I wish for each and everyone of you to LEARN from my mistakes....DON'T ACCEPT LESS THAN WHAT YOU DESERVE and KNOW THAT YOU DESERVE REAL LOVE!!! And know that there is noone better than you! For ALL OF US THAT LOOK FOR ACCEPTANCE FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD....KNOW THAT IF YOU ACCEPT YOURSELF, EVERYONE ELSE HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO FALL IN LINE!! Even with all this being said, I know that I am NOW and FOREVER a "work in progress"! Trust I still have not grown strong enough to wear my natural hair and often I still have on contacts, but I have learned that I CAN ONLY BE ME AND THAT'S THE ONE THING THAT I AM CAPABLE OF DOING BEST!!! THERE IS NO MORE ROOM HERE FOR ANYTHING MORE THAN PEACE, SERENITY AND POSITIVITY...IT WAS NOT INTENDED FOR YOU TO LIVE IN CHAOS, CONFUSION, PITY AND SELF-DOUBT....BE BLESSED, I AM!!!CHECK THE YOUTUBE VIDEO BELOW...NOW YOU KNOW IT'S ME APRIL 08 DISCUSSING THE HATERS AND THAT OTHER NOTHING ASS BITCH. HERE I AM PROVING THAT I HAVE A 53 INCH DUNK! THIS IS MY LAST TIME PROVING MYSELF, I AM TIRED AND U CAN TELL N THE VIDEO~JUNE 08