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Angela

Does this roll of fat make me look fat?

About Me

I will probably frighten you when you read half of the things I write or hear half of the things I say. I just don't give a shit what the hell people think, I want to be comfortable with who I am. I'm trying to stop hiding, though it is what I actually have a talent for. I will be pretty damn straightforward and honest with you, you just have to ask the right questions and accept any answer I may give out.I love having an open mind :DMost people don't know me really, because they are with me for only short periods of time. In other words, I usually depict myself as someone other than myself...? :DMost of the things I do or say are purely out of sheer curiosity, not neccessarily out of what I am really feeling. I guess you could say I have my odd "techniques" of gathering information. If something seems "weird" about my general behavior, I'm probably just trying to figure you out in my own way. Though this is not always the case. I suppose in other words if I were a cat I would be dead? Have fun with that :DKeep in mind: Contrary to popular belief, I'm a lot more of a bitch than I sometimes let on :) And most of the time less of one than I already portray. Enjoy :)Random things about me:1.)I love food.
2.) I'm weird and I like it that way.
3.) I actually like using my brain and intelligence is definately a huge plus with people.
4.)The way to my heart is to have one of your own <3
5.)I am terribly random and forgetful. Deal with it.
I am a human being. I am capable of love. I am finally able to feel that I can be myself <3I don't have time for miserable bitches.P.S.-I don't like BOYS. But MEN are pretty fantastic. Yeah I just challenged your integrity. But I really don't think your going to do much about it are you?Class and intelligence are regarded highly in my life. Give me a little Renaissance :D"Being always overavid, I demand from those I love a love equal to mine, which, being balanced people, they cannot supply. "-Sylvia Ashton-Warner

My Interests

Music, movies, Jack the Ripper (other serial killers) {Because of the psychology that surrounds them}, Anthony Hopkins, Alfred Hitchcock, Edgar Allen Poe, psychology, vampires, monsters, sushi, photography, art, Vincent Price, sporks, ping pong, eyeliner, collecting knives, Eddie Izzard, hugs <333, egyptology <3, there's that peculiar something about...boxes, dreams, shiny metal objects, poking bruises, astrology, big words(even though I don't know what alot of them mean :D), hockey (it's a Czech sport :D), ravens & crows, hiding things, what is it about bread???, mysterious things, deep conversations, nightime, fire, beautiful clouds, rain, thinking, heartbeats, roses, orchids, the sound of breathing, watching people breathe, watching movement (especially involuntary), eyes, people watching is fun :D, black labs(Forget albino animals, I'm owning a zoo of all black animals) Black golden retrievers (yes, there is such a thing!)Salvador Dali and his beautiful artwork :D, vitamin water, Mr. Peanut, poetry, stickers!!!, old stuff (books, paintings, art, anything historical), George Carlin (funniest old man you'll ever see), Erte's artwork, M.C. Escher artwork (he's one of my favorite artists, probably right below Dali, check him out), mythology (I'm a bit Greek, comes along with the package), Saying : Peanut, peanut butter, squee. ZILCH BAGS! (HOT DAMN)!, SHOOTING THE MOON!, NIGHTCRAWLING!!! (it's an addiction I swear)!, cuddling <3, being apart of Z.E.T.A. ( Zombie Eratication Team of America), SALAD FINGERS FLASH TOON!!!, working at Wild Things!!!<333, saying Fa Mulan out loud in public places, dancing to my own beat, Agent M, Mila Jovovich, Uma Thurman, analyzing damn near everything, COOKIES COOKIES COOKIES!!!<333, Wombat's wrestling, Kinkajou yawns, Lion roars', Tiger Chuffs' and Elephant trumpets', OLD HORROR MOVIES!!!<333, Bela Lugosi, Lon Chaney and Boris Karloff = BAMF'S! Dreaming of a better place, people who are REAL, eating food (Like a plus-sized model except with complete self-control), loving my loves <333, OH OH! Elephant butts! <3, late-night waffles, pretending to be a robot with the boxes outside EB at Del Monte, the suprasternal notch, seeing old women in sports bars, Cautionary Tales of Swords 1 &2...etc.

I'd like to meet:

The cool kid from down the block.
Mr. Peanut has the moves <3I have ridiculously high standards. I know this and I don't expect everyone to meet them. Good luck :DI want to meet and spend time with more elephants. They have shaped my life like nothing else. I love them more than I do most people. I hope that one day I can contribute a great deal in making their future a better one, a safer one. I already lost one I loved dearly and she taught me how to "Believe". It's because of her that I have faith in myself for many things. Here's to you little girl, here's to the future <3

Music:

Misfits, AFI, H.I.M., Portishead, Bad Religion, The Darvon Complex, Led Zeppelin, The Doors, Pink Floyd, Nirvana, Los Dryheavers, Alkaline Trio, Uzi Suicide, Tiger Army, Danzig, A Perfect Circle, The Casualties, Blood and Orchids, Jack Off Jill, Horror Pops, Stray Cats, The Explosion, Nekromantix, Death Cab for Cutie, Collide, The Chop Tops, 12 Step Rebels, Blood Brothers, Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards, Calabrese, Tool, Dead Kennedy's, Muddy Waters, Tsunami Bomb, Kirana Gharana style music (Nina Virdee)...etc.

Movies:

The Nightmare Before Christmas, Donnie Darko, Dangerous Lives of Alter Boys, Road to Perdition, Office Space, The Birds, Psycho, Edward Scissorhands, From Hell, Fight Club, Goonies, Hearts in Atlantis, Silence of the Lambs(triology) The Crow(both), Monty Python, 28 Days Later, Requiem for a Dream, Dress to Kill (EI), Bowling for Columbine, Bang Bang Your Dead, Labryinth, Full Metal Jacket, Clockwork Orange, Rocky Horror Picture Show, The Raven, Evil Dead, Army of Darkness, SLC Punk, Boondock Saints,The Bad Seed, Kill Bill Volume 1 & 2, Magnolia, Theatre of Blood, Akira, Big Fish, Circle (EI), Dead Man, Castle Freak, Triplets from Belleville, Raising Cain, House of Frankenstein, Dracula, Farenheit 9/11, Cry-Baby, Anchorman, Napolean Dynamite, Hero, Nosferatu, Shaun of the Dead, Garden State, almost any and all old horror movies, Alice (by Jan Svankmajer [Czech cinematographer], Darkness Light Darkness (awesome short claymation also by Jan Svankmajer), The Company of Wolves, Mysterious Skin, Corpse Bride, Memoirs of a Geisha, High Tension, The Machinist, May, Trainspotting, Amelie, Ed Wood, Dracula (original), Hedwig and the Angry Inch...etc.

Television:

Home Movies, Family Guy, Futurama, almost all of Adult Swim, FLCL, Inuyasha, Cowboy Bebop, Hellsing, Invader Zim, Stuff on the Discovery and History channels, 3 South, South Park, Chappelle's Show, Reno 911, ANIMAL PLANET!!! <3...etc. (I've kinda abandoned T.V. for books right now).

Books:

Anything by Edgar Allen Poe, To Kill A Mockingbird, Lord of the Flies, Crimson, Angel Souls and Devil Hearts, JTHM, SQUEE, Petals on the Wind, Catalyst, Ethan Frome (the colors described and the end of the book were good), The Meloncholy Death of Oyster Boy and Other Stories, Stargirl, Lather and Nothing Else (short story), Big Fish, Cut, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass, Call of the Wild, Slaughter-House Five, Ordinary People, Fucked up + Photocopied, Adbusters, Where the Red Fern Grows (it's a good book and you know it)!, Perks of Being a Wallflower (Thanks Scott), Enders Game, Neverwhere, Stardust, (anything by Neil Gaiman), 1984, My Story by Alicia Jurman <3, Marley and Me, Night, Survival in Auschwitz, Reason For Hope, Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal Rising, Anansi Boys, Water for Elephants, Jumbo The Greatest Elephant in the world...etc.

Heroes:

My dad, Madi, Brian, my friends, NNY, Charlie (He's done so much for me) & the fellas at the ranch (it's like a second home there), Ghandi, Alicia Jurman <3, My late great Grammy <3, Josef, the greatest lion that ever lived <3...etc.

My Blog

Taking out the trash

I feel better. I've let go and am not going back. I followed my intuitions and am happy for it. Yet again my animals have prevailed where people have not. I'm done waiting for people, if they can't gi...
Posted by Angela on Tue, 07 Oct 2008 09:23:00 PST

Garbage

I'm so sick of dating "children" so many guys I meet upon that I have dated/considered dating all act like little boys. It's fucking pathetic. GROW THE FUCK UP! The fact that all of them are older tha...
Posted by Angela on Mon, 29 Sep 2008 10:13:00 PST

The Starfish Story

The Starfish StoryThere once was a man vacationing on the coast of Mexico. One evening he decided to take a midnight stroll down the deserted beach. There was a full moon and down the beach he could s...
Posted by Angela on Tue, 19 Aug 2008 11:24:00 PST

Better Chedders

I had a long talk with a good friend the other day and helped me figure stuff out and see things that I need to work on. I guess I just needed to know someone was there, though an unexpected person, w...
Posted by Angela on Fri, 15 Aug 2008 08:00:00 PST

I am really messed up...

I'm sick. I am seriously sick. I have been for so long and I've been hiding and denying it.I'm so fucking scared.What am I going to do?Am I really going to lose it all one day and just finish what my ...
Posted by Angela on Mon, 11 Aug 2008 09:20:00 PST

Karma or Intuition?

Things are good. Accepting things about myself and learning about other people, which in turn I learn more about me :D Meeting some new people and catching up with old ones. Just trying to have fun an...
Posted by Angela on Tue, 03 Jun 2008 10:50:00 PST

What my problem is.

I WON'T say it, because they DON'T get it.But, here's something that at least I can read...I feel myself CHANGING.Almost as if I am morphing into another person.Because I am feeling so outside myself....
Posted by Angela on Wed, 23 Apr 2008 10:18:00 PST

A Dream Realized.

So today started out not so fantastic, but it was really a blessing in disguise. Had to get up early for a meeting in Monterey then went straight to the ranch to help prepare for and help with a speci...
Posted by Angela on Mon, 14 Apr 2008 08:12:00 PST

Maybe this eye twitch is telling me something...

I am emotionally unstable right now and have been for quite sometime. Though I cannot "Feel" truly, feel with passion, that actually forms a physical manifestation as it does when I really do "feel". ...
Posted by Angela on Mon, 03 Mar 2008 11:08:00 PST

Caution?

It takes so much time and work for me not to want or care and in two minutes, someone can take that away. It's not neccessarily a bad thing, but damn, it makes me lose sleep at night thinking about it...
Posted by Angela on Sat, 29 Dec 2007 10:47:00 PST