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Adrienne

She's Illogical

About Me


I'm fraudulent, a thief at best, a coward who paints a bullshit canvas of things that never will happen to me.-Jenny Lewis...I go through bursts of extreme ambition followed by extreme self doubt and feelings of inferiority.I seem to always be in transit, always on a train, always on a bus, always walking down the street, never at my destination yet always on my way.I'm so complex, not even I have figured myself out yet.It's so nice to live in a city where I have no roots, where no one can claim to have known me way back when.I make up songs at the bus stop and while walking home, and always have a new one in my head.I love Brooklyn, every time I turn around I find a new neighborhood I have not yet discovered.I have lots of friends, but no one I'm close to.I spend most of my life in bars and coffee shops.I love music. I hate rock stars.I'm equal parts genius and total idiot.I'm addicted to the written word.I still haven't found myself, does anyone ever really?I'll find any excuse to dance.I'm terribly indescisive.I'm immune to crushes, and haven't had one since I was a teen.I'm anti-social one second, the life of the party the next.I think I was a man in a past life.
I love being "over educated."I have a guilty, secret addiction to pop culture.I read all the time, and people think of me as a bookworm, though secretly almost all of what I read was written after 1970. There are so many classics I should have read and never bothered to. In all honesty, I'd rather curl up with Mary Gaitskill than William Blake or Chaucer.I feel so old that my life is over and yet so young that it hasn't quite begun.I've never tried internet dating, but I imagine it to be a feeling similar to having serious dental work done.The two food groups I get most of my nutrients from are coffee and carbohydrates.I feel like I am always continually becoming a better person, I'm so much better of a human being than I was five years ago.My life in the city always seems to be one calamity after another, but amazingly I always land on my feet, and always have enough money for another latte.My friends are the most important people in my life, they're always there for me. Sometimes I am the happiest being entirely alone.I think New York is the perfect city to be entirely alone in, for you can be alone surrounded by people.I wonder if I will ever be any of the things I dream of being, or will my life always be in between one thing and another. Since moving to New York, I've completely ceased watching television. I guess it's the only city where you can go without it. I'm too much of an optimist, I'm too much of a pessimist.If you're someone from the past that's looked me up, be sure and say hello!
"How can we ever have what we truly want, if as soon as we have it we don't want it anymore?" -Eros the Bittersweet, Rachel Carson

My Interests

feminism, gender studies, gender theory, feminist literary theory, graphic novels, late nights spent alone in the city, reading, writing, dreaming, writing letters, old friends, staying up late, over analyzing, thinking, live music, mixed tapes, comic novels, zines, underground comics, blogs, 90's girl pop, traveling, french films, indie films, reading, novels, bars, art galleries, socializing, learning, bangles, the requisite materialism of New York, brunettes, seeing late night movies alone, sleeping late, never owning a car, vegetarianism, organic food, co-ops, kindness, good deeds, sarcasm, feminism, feminist sex shops, gender studies, human rights, asexuality, used bookstores, sleeping, drinking, perpetually going to school, studying, socializing, career planning, teaching, studying, coffee, herring, licorice, stars, eye glitter, mary janes, bracelets, literary readings, celebrity sightings, 80's night, the lower east side, boy who lives in the Tea Lounge, Park Slope, Williamsburg, dive bars, film festivals, late night conversations with friends, Stendahl Syndrome, the Angelika, the KGB Bar, Cake Shop, Dojo, SNice, Think Coffee, Bluestockings, Union Pool, 205..

Minneapolis Lyrics ..

I'd like to meet:

Those who are capable of holding up their end of a conversation.
"I can't tell you exactly what I'm looking for, but I'll know it when it happens. I want to be breathless and weak, crumpled by the entrance of another person inside my soul. I want to be violated by insight." -Aimee Bender, "Call My Name"

Music:


Jenny Lewis, Cat Power, Regina Spektor, Bat for Lashes, Scanners, The Sounds, Rilo Kiley, Joan Jett, Edith Piaf, Jolie Holland, The Gossip, Ladytron, Jenny Owen Youngs, Fiona Apple, Cut Copy, Digitalism, Kate Nash, The Sounds, Adele, Duffy, Kate Bush, CSS, Shiny Toy Guns, Goldfrapp, Nick Cave, Scanners, The Birthday Party, Leonard Cohen, Of Montreal, Sleater-Kinney, Rufus Wainwright, Martha Wainwright, Helium, Mary Timony, Annie Lennox, Azure Ray, Maria Taylor, Patti Smith, Bjork, Portishead, Leona Naess, Ivy, The Distillers, Glass Candy, Heavens to Betsy, Murmurs, New Order, Joy Division, Giant Drag, Pet Shop Boys, Catatonia, Bitch, Brazilian Girls, Juliana Hatfield, Patti Rothberg, Death by Chocolate, Neko Case, The Mood Swings, PJ Harvey, Bright Eyes, Mates of State, Goldfrapp, Raveonettes, The Kills, The Germs, Air, Spoon, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Ramones, T Rex, Jolie Holland, Geraldine Fibers, Dresden Dolls, Samantha Ronson, Mia Doi Todd, Pavement, Yo La Tengo, Abra Moore, Amanda Palmer, Feist, Pulp, Lush, Blur, Concrete Blonde, Aimee Mann, Tori Amos, L7, Babes in Toyland, Team Dresch, Tegan and Sara, New Order, Menstrual Tramps, Glass Candy, Amy Winehouse, Solex, Magnapop, Letters to Cleo, Kate Bush, Old Madonna, Angelfish, Garbage, Eve's Plum, The Pretenders, Depeche Mode, Cure, The Knife, Malajube.

Movies:


Me and You and Everyone We Know, Shortbus, Closer, Heavenly Creatures, Edward Scissorhands, Lovers of the Arctic Circle, Love Me if You Dare, Amelie, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Science of Sleep, Love and Human Remains, Fur, My Life As A Dog, Reality Bites, Beetle Juice, Bandits, The Doom Generation, FoxFire, High Art, Exotica, Little Children, Hedgwig, Love and a .45, Particles of Truth, Better than Chocolate, Party Girl.

Television:

Flight of the Conchords, The L Word, Weeds, Queer As Folk, Samantha Who, Private Practice, Ally McBeal, Brothers and Sisters, Quarterlife, My So Called Life, Sex and the City, Notes from the Underbelly,Entourage, Six Feet Under, 30 Rock, We Need Girlfriends.

Books:

Bad Behavior, Veronica, Suicide Blonde, Milk, Generation X, Willful Creatures, Mysteries of Pittsburgh, Rent Girl, Have You Seen Me, The Girl in the Flammable Skirt, Use Me, Middlesex, Forever, The Hanged Man, Cunt, Paint It Black, My Life As A Boy, People in Trouble, The Clitoral Truth, The Bell Jar, Bright Lights Big City, To the Light House, 3, FoxFire, Bad Girls, Going Down, The Ruby Fruit Jungle, High Maintenance, Nine Stories, We Don't Live Here Anymore, Dancing After Dark, Catcher in the Rye, Suicide Blonde, Swimming Sweet Arrow, Holy Skirts, The Fires, Blankets, Love and Rockets.
Lynda Barry,Aimee Bender, Elisa Schapell, Andre Dubus, Kelly Link, Janet Fitch, Alice Munro, Annie Ernaux, Grace Paley, Pagan Kennedy, Sylvia Plath, Adrienne Rich, Michael Chabon, Anne Sexton, Judy Blume, Flannery O'Connor, Jennifer Belle, Darcey Steinke, Francine Prose, Thomas Mann, Jonathan Lethem, Sarah Schulman, Tristram Stuart, Craig Thompson, Adrian Tomine.

Heroes:

Edie Sedgwick, Jenny Lewis, Kathleen Hanna, Simone DeBeauvoir, Zooey Deschanel, Cat Power, Lynda Barry, Adrienne Rich, Miranda July, Gloria Steinem, Francesca Lia Block, Aimee Bender, Guinevere Turner, Jean Luc Godard, Brian Kinney, Gale Harold, Kathleen Hanna, Alex James.

My Blog

From Twenty Fragments of a Ravenous Youth

"A wounded heart is nothing but the ashes of memories. But the body is everything. The body is blood and veins and cells and nerves.A wounded body is when, after leaving a man you've lived with for th...
Posted by Adrienne on Thu, 29 May 2008 12:57:00 PST

taking signs from dreams

I had a dream where this girl who is sometimes my friend and sometimes is not had gone behind my back and stolen all my friends from me, and was planning fabulous parties and telling all my friends to...
Posted by Adrienne on Thu, 13 Mar 2008 05:38:00 PST

My mother should have warned me about girls

As a child my mother warned me that men would break my heart. I told her I wouldn't let that happen. But she said there was nothing I could do, it would happen to me again and again, and there wa...
Posted by Adrienne on Mon, 25 Feb 2008 03:10:00 PST

So sick....

Been such a rough week. I felt a little weak and sneezy Tuesday evening and woke up Wednesday aching so much I couldn't walk. I'm too feverish to think clearly, so if I miss returning your phone call ...
Posted by Adrienne on Fri, 01 Feb 2008 07:28:00 PST

I am M.I.A. tonight.

I have major problems completing assignments for school lately, I cleared my calendar for all of today and last night and still am not done. I think my anxiety sort of messes with my brain and makes m...
Posted by Adrienne on Thu, 20 Dec 2007 07:28:00 PST

I am free from the chains of 9-5 this month

I am off from my main source of income this week due to Finals week and the holidays. So weird to be able to sleep in past 7am for once, not used to it! Makes me feel loserish. I'm going to devote my ...
Posted by Adrienne on Thu, 06 Dec 2007 07:47:00 PST

back in Minneapolis

Home in Minneapolis, overpacked and missed my flight, but all is well. Saw the Frida Kahlo exhibit at the Walker, drank too much beer, and had some vegan pizza. Realized I missed this place after all.
Posted by Adrienne on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 10:38:00 PST

I’m seeing Margot at the Wedding

I won tickets to a MoMA prescreening of Margot at the Wedding. I'm so excited, the director Noah Baumbach and Jennifer Jason Leigh will be there.   Now I won't have to wait to see this movie! &nb...
Posted by Adrienne on Fri, 09 Nov 2007 12:41:00 PST

for future reference

For future reference, please don't ever invite me to a party that involves a drinking game that forces girls to strip down to their bras. I mean, I didn't partake in that kind of stupidity in hig...
Posted by Adrienne on Mon, 05 Nov 2007 07:24:00 PST

I do the work of two Adriennes

I have this really terrible habit of trying to do more things than I am humanly capable of. I've been this way since high school. I can't say why I do this to myself, but I always do. I promised mysel...
Posted by Adrienne on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 10:58:00 PST