observing people's absolute naivete towards others complete transparency. (I wrote this years ago, and it just keeps ringing true)"happy or sad, if you don't feel like you're in the movies, walk away, its a waste of time." -CRK
More LlamasOr the person who is going to buy me this
Let's forget I was pretending, let's pretend you knew it all along, Got a call from a good friend, who was saying things were not that good at all////You know this world is eating him alive, but you just can’t find the metaphor to describe. Bottle, pills and the emptiness in this soft light. ///// They try to kick and their feet fall asleep. I want to be wrong but no one here wants to fight me like you do//// We like them boys up top from the BK, know how to put their money three ways, always riding big on the freeway, with that east coast slang that us country girls we like//// But if I make the pearly gates, I’ll do my best to make a drawing of god and lucifer, a boy and girl, an angel kissing on a sinner, a monkey and a man, a marching band, all around a frightened trapeze swinger.//// Rainy sundays drunk at 2, you’’ll whisper sweet lies to me, and one of them will be true/// I counted all the lights, they don’t shine as bright, they don’t pierce the night, like you do./// If you want to see and be seen then be seen, your dress is dark red and your opening eyes are bright green, make a scene. But don’t lie on the bed and lay down like your dead because, honey, your murdering me.////Sometimes its like someone took a knife, baby, edgy and dull and cut a six inch valley through the middle of my skull, at night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet and freight train running through the middle of my head./// and don’t expect too much okay? cause the best and the worst might have passed anyway and like the lighthouse we watched it spun round and around they’re just some things, they aren’t meant to touch the ground/// I leapt across three or four beds into your arms where I had hidden myself somewhere in your charms, our golden handshake has been smashed into this shape, it’s taken magic to a primitive new place, watch em’ run//// I’m fraudulent, a thief at best, a coward who paints a bullshit canvas of things that will never happen to me, and at arm’s length it’s Tim who said,I’m good at it, I’ve mastered it, avoiding, avoiding everything. But you are what you love, and not what loves you back, and I’m in love with illusions so saw me in half, I’m in love with tricks so pull another rabbit out your hat///// Mama listen, Senorita, I feel for you, you deal with things that you don’t have to.////You said you would be my dream that I could have you every night and if by morning I’d forgotten you, well no big deal that’d be all right, cause your the reoccurring kind, you are the reoccurring kind, you never really leave my mind///// I remember when the days were long and the nights when the living room was on the lawn, constant quarreling and childish fits and our clothes in a pile on the ottoman/// Listen lady put your phone down, cancel all operations, tell your friends to cool it, your cover’s blown, I need to see you alone, cancel all operations tell your friends to cool it.//// Half of the time we’re gone but we don’t know where and we don’t know where/// There were times that I could have murdered her, but you know, I would hate anything to happen to her. No I don’t want to see her, do you really think she’ll pull through?//// Attention starved, you tried too hard just to get someone to look, now your the wolf in second hand clothing, I’m a sheep in a pleaded skirt. It’s an awkward form of payback but if it works for you it works, is that I recognize your off white lies, still I lie beside you and that’s what really hurts////Did I say something true, oops I didn’t know I couldn’t talk about sex, Did I have a point of view? Oops I didn’t know I couldn’t talk about you//// Skinny boy, some love, some prostitution, some denial, some doubt, some dance////All my girls gettin’ down on the floor, back to back drop it down real low, I’m such a lady but I’m dancing like a Ho, cause you know what? I don’t give a fuck so here we go////Your not too cool and not so funny, spreading your seed all over the town, getting too greedy and messin’ around, Oh my gosh you must be joking me, If you think that you’ll be pokin’ me/// Because the truth is that gossip’s as good as gospel in this town,you can save face but you will never save your soul///I wish you would, come pick me up, fuck me up, steal all my records, screw all my friends behind my back, with a smile on your face, and then do it again. I wish you would, I wish you’d make up my bed, so I could make up my mind, try it for sleeping instead, maybe you’ll rest sometime, I wish I could.//// Sometimes I sleep, sometimes it’s not for days, and the people I meet, they just go their separate ways, sometimes you tell the day by the bottle that you drink, sometimes when your alone all you do is think, But I’m a cowboy//// Your lover who has just walked through that door, has taken all his blankets from your floor, Look out babe, the cup is flowing over you, and its all over now baby blue//// I want to take you far from the cynics in this town and kiss you on the mouth, we’ll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene start a brand new colony, where everything will change, we’ll give ourselves new names. Identities erased.////You can hold her hand and show here how you cry, explain to her your weakness so she understands and then roll over and die. you can brave decisions before you crumble up inside, spend your time asking everyone else’s permission, then run away and hide.//// a song for someone who needs somewhere to long for, homesick, cause I no longer know, where home is//// Called to see if your back was still aligned and your sheets are growing grass all out the corners of your bed, you’ve got too much to wear on your sleeve, there’s too much to do with me, and secretly I want to bury you in the yard, The gray remains of a friendship scarred./////Levon sells cartoon balloons in town, his family business thrives, jesus blows up balloons all day, sits on the porch swing watching them fly, and Jesus he wants to go to venus, leave Levon far behind, take a balloon and go sailing, while Levon, Levon slowly dies./// When we were kids we hated things our parents did. We listened low to Casey Casem’s radio show. That’s when friends were nice to think of them just makes you feel nice. The smell of grass in spring and october leaves cover everything///// I like em real wild B-boy style by the miles, smooth black skin with a smile bright as the sun, I wanna have some fun, come and give me some of that yum-yum chocolate chip, honey dip, can I get a scoop? Baby take a ride in my coupe, you make me wanna shoop///Another headache,another heartbreak, I’m so much older than I can take./////I go back and forth forever, all my thoughts they come in pairs,I will, I won’t, I’d die , I don’t, I’m not surprised but I never feel quite prepared/// Wake up, who cares about a little boy that talked too much, I’ve seen it all go down, the game of love was all rained out, so come on baby, come on over, let me be the one to hold you////Maybe I’m just too demanding, maybe I’m just like my father, too bold, Maybe your just like my mother, she’s never satisfied///Give me a reason that I can believe in and I will believe in you. Tell me a reason why I should believe cause I want to, I want to. tell me a story or tell me a secret, It don’t have to be nothing new. Just hold on to me while we walk through the leaves, if you want to, If you want to./////What a curious life we have found here tonight, there is music that sounds from the street. There are lights in the clouds and is ghosts all around, hear a voice while its rolling and ringing through me, soft and sweet, how the notes all bend and reach above the trees/// all of the ways, our heartstrings are played, all this creates, and the trash goes out on Tuesday
Grey's Anatomy, Top Model, Project Runway, heroes, and absolutely anything on the History Channel and Discovery Channel.
"Papa" and "daughter"