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About Me

It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me... and I'm feeling good.Life is everchanging.
Some things I was sure about turned out to be untrue. And I'm so grateful for it. I'd much rather be Happy than Right. And Happy, I am. I have two great Loves in my Life. One has been with me forever, and I've just recently found it again. The other has been with me only since the Fall of '05 and won't be lost. No, Life isn't Perfect. But Perfect is Boring. My life definitely is Not Boring. It's a Good Life, a New Life, and I'm feeling good.
But back to the description...
I'm an artist that looks like a professional wrestler. I'm a geek and a freak. I'm a lover AND a fighter... a very well-trained pacifist. I'm a romantic AND a realist. I'm very spiritual, but not religious. I'm a Taoist, or damn near close. I'm a polyamorist, or damn near close. I'm entirely too honest and too good of a liar. I'm the top and bottom of the food chain. And I think chaos and order might just be the same thing. I am not a walking contradiction, I am both sides of the coin. Not a collection of opposites, but a collection of halves making a whole. I am everything that I am.
Want more? Decipher this: Aquarius, Wood Tiger, Yang Ming Earth/Shao Yin Water (60/40ish), ENTP, Sexual Zeta
I'm floating somewhere between being straight and being bi. Like Jeannine once said of me: "If it feels good, go with it." And EVERYTHING is a matter of perspective.
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My Interests

Love, sex, sexuality, sensuality, spirituality, long hugs, soft kisses, pleasure, energy, fire, chi gong, qi kung, reiki, tao, theology, philosophy, psychology, sociology, comedy, music, movies, video games, poetry, art, nature, martial arts, MMA, NHB, volleyball, extreme sports, suicide girls , and a host of other things that words just can't do justice to. Need adult DVDs, Toys, etc? Big Daddy's gonna take GOOD care of you.

I'd like to meet:

I want to meet anyone and everyone, so long as they're good and real and true. Intolerance will not be tolerated. I want to meet other artists, no matter what their medium. Writers, singers, and dancers as well as visual artists. Anything is an art if approached as such. Anyone who creates what they do with creativity and and the passion of an artist qualifies. Anything is possible with the right person.

The operative word in all this is "meet". I'm not into collecting a MyFriends list, so if we don't know each other IRL and you have no intention of ever actually meeting, don't be offended if you don't make the list. It takes a special kind of connection to have a solely internet bond. If you think there's one there, try me.

Music:

DMB, Pink Floyd, Led Zep, Incubus, Ozzy, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Pearl Jam, P-Funk, Sublime, No Doubt, Blue Man Group, Queen, Dzihan & Kamien, Emily's ToyBox, Fighting Gravity, 40ft. Ringo, Mary Prankster, Sex Crimes Against Nature

Movies:

anything Kevin Smith, most of Adam Sandler, The Matrix changed my life, Enter the Dragon, Fight Club, Fear & Loathing, Holy Grail, Moulin Rouge, Memento, Romeo & Juliet, Half Baked, Princess Bride, Snatch, Swingers, Amercian Psycho, Se7en, Usual Suspects, The Exorcist, The Blair Witch Project, The Ring, Rocky Horror (but only live, of course), Super Troopers, PCU, Rat Race, Young Frankenstein, Zoolander, Animal House, Blues Brothers, Stripes,

Television:

The Simpsons, Family Guy, WWE Raw, Smallville, Crank Yankers, The Dave Chapelle Show, South Park, Def Poetry Jam, The Sopranos, Oz, Six Feet Under, WWE Smack Down, Action (anyone remember that?),

Books:

The Vampire Chronicles, Daniel Quinn, James Redfield, Stephen King, Shel Siverstein, Dr. Suess, Chuck Palahniuk, Christopher Moore, "A Conferderacy of Dunces", "Tao of Jeet Kun Do", "Tao of Pooh" , "Digital Diaries"

Heroes:

That's a tough one. Most of our heroes are killed before they even have a chance to become heroes. The rest are usually killed right after they become heroes. So sad.

In my life, my heroes are just people. People who overcome the pain of living to be truly alive again. People who Love despite all the hurt Loving has brought them. People who create in ways that inspire and touch others. People who still hope against hope. People who BELIEVE.

My Blog

Married! Again! With "Children"!

As some would say, I didn't learn the first time. So I went back for more. Two weeks ago, I got married. It was 6 months of hellish stress that took its toll on both of us. But... united we stand. And...
Posted by Shawn on Fri, 14 Sep 2007 09:33:00 PST

10K train? Really? Are you serious?

As if accepting every friend request that crosses your screen wasn't enough... as if sending requests to every hot chick or guy that pops up in your search wasn't doing it for you... as if quoting you...
Posted by Shawn on Fri, 24 Mar 2006 03:36:00 PST

Birthdays and the bestest girl

I'm not a big fan of my own birthday. Haven't been for a while. There are only a handful of birthday celebrations I remember: - getting the River Raid game cartridge for the Atari 2600, buried at the ...
Posted by Shawn on Wed, 08 Feb 2006 02:21:00 PST

Before I even opened my eyes...

...I was crying. My dreams were wild after a wild night. A night of playing dressup, of drinking, of dancing... of flirting and playing, and kissing. But maybe there is more to this than dreams and dr...
Posted by Shawn on Mon, 17 Oct 2005 12:03:00 PST

What is Real?

My ex-wife asked me that Question not too long ago. "What is real?" And it really made me Think. I responded with something along the lines of... If after you're in that Moment, holding on tightly wi...
Posted by Shawn on Wed, 31 Aug 2005 06:14:00 PST

"Congratulations, you're now officially divorced."

That's how I was informed my divorce was final. "Congratulations, you're now officially divorced." The words spoken by one of my best friends with my wife next to her. Then, there was something said...
Posted by Shawn on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

I will not be afraid

I will not be afraid. I will not be afraid to live my life without the one person I thought would always be by my side. I will Love her always, and miss her company, support, and guidance. But her ch...
Posted by Shawn on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

when is it it time to stop being nice?

"be nice, until it's time to NOT be nice." good advice from a bad movie. so i ask, when is it time to stop being nice? my wife informed me that she was leaving and there was nothing I could d...
Posted by Shawn on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

What do I deserve?

If she deserves someone who works as hard as she does, don't I deserve someone who Loves as deep as I do? I'm not the hardest worker. Especially when I've lost the Love for what I do. But I'm willi...
Posted by Shawn on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

I wish I could see me through my wife's eyes.

Love is not blind. Nor does Love make you blind. Love does not clear away the flaws and faults of the Loved. Love does not make them perfect. If Love is God expressed Then Love lets us see our L...
Posted by Shawn on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST