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yourcodenameis:renstar

this isn't a show, this is my fucking life . . . .

About Me

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A little about me: me?pron (first person sing.) used as the object of a verb or preposition or after ..than.., ..as.., or the verb ..to be.., to refer to the speaker himself or herself. ORIGIN - Old English.

♠i am andrew renny blackman
♥i am 21 24 years of age.
♣i live in portsmouth.
♦i am a homosexual
♠i am a graduate in psychology.
♥i am going to be a graduate in law with business.
♣i am intelligent so do not mock me.
♦i like people and want to meet more.
♠i can read people like books
♥i'm a very good judge of character.
♣i know who all my friends are, i just wish somtimes they would realise im not a doormat.
♦you will love me, i promise.
♠i get by on textbook charm and over exaggerated milligram measurements.
♥im exceedingly indecisive yet get annoyed by those who are the same!
♣i have high expectatations of myself though not of others, that way im only disappointed by myself and not others.
♦i wear my skin like its not a problem but is it s problem for you?
♠im a mess. . . .
this is what he does to me and he knows it.

I LIKE . . . .
men
having a boyfriend (loads)
my friends
gigs
conversation
alcohol
sex
my mohican
music
myspace
appreciation
marthas
laughing til cry
my cd collection
my laptop

I DISLIKE . . . .
arrogance
ignorance
coffee
internet not working
coursework
being afraid
not having confidence
being ill
being far away from people

this song and video makes me wet! CSS - ALALA!

My Interests


I'd like to meet:

avess
tomity

Music:

LAST 10 SONGS LISTENED TO



these are the people who i love, admire and pretty much spend my whole life listening to. here i list their albums and my top 3 tracks from each album.

alanis morissette

JAGGED LITTLE PILL : ironic, head over feet, not the doctor SUPPOSED FORMER INFACTUATION JUNKIE : joining you, one, would not come UNDER RUG SWEPT : precious illusions, 21 things, narcissus SO-CALLED CHAOS : 8 easy steps, spineless, so-called chaos

avril lavigne

LET GO : losing grip, mobile, unwanted. UNDER MY SKIN : forgotten, together, nobodys home

bif naked

BIF NAKED : daddys getting married, my whole life, everything. I BIFICUS : sophia, spaceman, only the girl. PURGE : leader, tango shoes, i love myself today. SUPERBEAUTIFULMONSTER : abandonment, the world is over, henry

britney spears

...BABY ONE MORE TIME : crazy, ...baby one more time, email my heart. ...OOPS I DID IT AGAIN : dont go knockin on my door, i cant get no satisfaction, stronger BRITNEY : im a slave for you, overprotected, boys. IN THE ZONE : me against the music, outrageous, early mornin'

christina aguilera

CHRISTINA AGUILERA : genie in a bottle, come on over, what a girl wants. STRIPPED : walk away, make over, soar.

fiona apple

TIDAL : sleep to dream, sullen girl, criminal. WHEN THE PAWN : fast as you can, limp, on the bound. EXTRAORDINARY MACHINE : get him back, window, parting gift.

garbage

GARBAGE : milk, queer, happy when it rains. VERSION 2.0 : temptation waits, i think im paranoid, dumb. BEAUTIFULGARBAGE : cup of coffee, til the day i die, cherry lips. BLEED LIKE ME : bad boyfriend, metal heart, sex is not the enemy.

girls aloud

SOUND OF THE UNDERGROUND : sound of the underground, some kind of miracle, life got cold WHAT WILL THE NEIGHBOURS SAY : the show, graffiti my soul, wake me up. CHEMISTRY : swinging london town, biology, whole lotta history.

incubus

S.C.I.E.C.E : certain shade of green, nebula, summer romance. MAKE YOURSELF : make yourself, consequence, privilege. MORNING VIEW : nice to know you, under my umbrella, 11am. A CROW LEFT OF THE MURDER : megalomaniac, pistola, southern girl.

kelly clarkson

THANKFUL : miis independent, just missed the train, you thought wrong. BREAKAWAY : since u been gone, addicted, i hate myself for losing you

kittie

SPIT : brackish, charlotte, do ya think im a whore? ORACLE : what i always wanted, no name, in winter. UNTIL THE END : career suicide, pussy sugar, red flag.

madonna

THE IMMACULATE COLLECTION : justify my love, like a prayer, into the groove. RAY OF LIGHT : drowned world/substitute for love, swim, candy perfume girl. MUSIC : impressive instant, i deserve it, don't tell me. GHV2 : beautiful stranger, erotica, human nature. AMERICAN LIFE : hollywood, love profusion, x-static process. CONFESSIONS ON A DANCEFLOOR : hung up, i love new york, push.

marilyn manson

PORTRAIT OF AN AMERICAN FAMILY : lunchbox, cake and sodomy, get your gunn. SMELLS LIKE CHILDREN : sweet dreams, rock n roll nigger, kiddy grinder. ANTICHRIST SUPERSTAR : beautiful people, angel with the scabbed wings, deformography. MECHANICAL ANIMALS : great big white world, new model no.15, i dont like the drugs. HOLYWOOD : target audience, the love song, coma black. THE GOLDEN AGE OF GROTESQUE : use your fist and not your mouth, ka-boom ka-boom, better of two evils.

natalie imbruglia

LEFT OF THE MIDDLE : big mistake, don't you think, intuition. WHITE LILLIES ISLAND : do you love?, wrong impression, beauty on the fire. COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS : shiver, sanctuary, satisfied.

nine inch nails

THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL : mr. self-destruct, closer, march of the pigs. THE FRAGILE : starfuckers inc, into the void, the way out is through. WITH TEETH : everyday is exactly the same, you know what you are?, all the love in the world.

otep

SEVAS TRA : t.r.i.c., blood pigs, filthee. HOUSE OF SECRETS : nein, house of secrets, warhead.

peaches

THE TEACHES OF PEACHES : fuck the pain away, set it off, diddle my skittle. FATHERFUCKER : shake your dix, operate, im the kinda. IMPEACH MY BUSH : tent in your pants, downtown, slippery dick

pink

CAN'T TAKE ME HOME : some girls, there you go , you make me sick. MISSUNDAZTOOD : 18 wheeler, just like a pill, lonely girl. TRY THIS : trouble, oh my god, god is a dj. IM NOT DEAD : long way to happy, who knew, fingers.

placebo

PLACEBO : nancy boy, bruise pristine, teenage angst. WITHOUT YOU IM NOTHING : pure morning, my sweet prince, scared of girls. BLACK MARKET MUSIC : taste in men, slave to the wage, haemoglobin. SLEEPING WITH GHOSTS : plasticine, the bitter end, protect me from what i want. MEDS : broken promise, infra-red, one of a kind.

princess superstar

PRINCESS SUPERSTAR IS... : bad babysitter, wet wet wet. MY MACHINE : my machine, on top bubble, sex drugs and drugs.

queen adreena

TAXIDERMY : cold fish, i adore, pretty polly. DRINK ME : pretty like drugs, kitty collar tight, siamese almeida, a bed of roses. THE BUTCHER AND THE BUTTERFLY : ascending stars, join the dots, pull me under.

skunk anansie

PARANOID AND SUNBURNT : intellectualise my blackness, weak, selling jesus. STOOSH : all i want, shes my heroine, we love your apathy. POST ORGASMIC CHILL : on my hotel t.v., charlie big potato, tracy's flaw.

slipknot

SLIPKNOT : (sic), eyeless, spit it out. IOWA : people = shit, the heretic anthem, the shape. VOL 3 : THE SUBLIMINAL VERSES : duality, opium of the people, circle.

snake river conspiracy

SONIC JIHAD : vulcan, love song, strangled.

sugababes

ONE TOUCH : overload, run for cover, one touch. ANGELS WITH DIRTY FACES : stronger, just dont need this, freak like me. THREE : hole in the head, too lost in you, nasty ghetto. TALLER IN MORE WAYS : gotta be you, follow me home, joy division.

system of a down

SYSTEM OF A DOWN : sugar, war?, spiders. TOXCITY : needles, shimmy, psycho. MEZMERIZE : lost in hollywood, this cocaine makes me feel like im on this song, violent pornography. HYPNOTIZE : attack, shes like heroin, tentative.

yeah yeah yeahs

FEVER TO TELL : maps, yeah new york, y control. SHOW YOUR BONES : gold lion, honeybear, deja vu

i LOVE the band kittie.

Movies:

top 5 action films

kill bill duology


this film, in my opinion, is tarintino best film ever. everything about it is just brilliant and also has gogo in it which the best film character. she is insane and thats what i love about her. i wish she was my bodyguard.

unleashed


i love jet li, his films are great and this is one of his best. the fight scenes are amazing.

mr and mrs smith


what can i say? it has brad pitt in it. for an old man he is well hot. and with the added bonus of angelina jolie, what more can a film ask for? i think she could turn me straight. the film is pretty cool too, hehe.

battle royale


this film is completely screwed up and whoever though this up is a complete nutjob. then again, it is a japanese film. although it is screwed up, it does make fantastic viewing, even if it is subtitled. it also stars the actress who plays gogo in kill bill which makes it even better.

a clockwork orange


ultra-violence at its best. this film is absolutely amazing. everything is so believeable. i still find it very shocking.

top 5 horror films

saw


what a twisted, fucked up film. although at the same time it is a very clever film. fucking love it.

devils rejects


sheri moon zombie who plays baby is quality. she is such a good character. and captain spaulding is the scariest fucking clown ever.

28 days later


braindead


this film isnt necessarily scary, its just so over the top that its funny but its got a shit load of blood, guts and everything. its hilarious to watch. i just find it hard to belive that peter jackson directed this.

scream trilogy


i can remember when the first scream came out and it was hyped up so badly that i just had to watch. i watched it on my own and remember it being one the very first horror films to actually scare the shit out of me.

top 5 disney films

sword in the stone


this film is actually amazing. i mean, who wouldnt want to be a fish, squirrel and bird for the day? and the battle between merlin and mad maddam mim is quality.

the rescuers


come on, bernard and bianca are soooooo cute. madame medusa is the perfect villain too. she used to scare the shit out of me.

alice in wonderland


this film is so much darker than its intended to be i think. or maybe its intentional? i dunno. but it is quality. i mean, everything is fucked up and crazy. alice bloody eats mushrooms for christ sake and the caterpillar is blatantly smoking naughty substances. love it.

the little mermaid


how great is this film? ursula is one scary motherfucker and the fact that the priest at the end gets a boner is just hilarious.

the emporers new groove


i dont really like the newer disney films but this one is just fucking hilarious. i watch it all the time coz im really sad.

top 5 comedy films

mrs.doubtfire


this is my favourite film of all time. its just so funny. i used to watch it every single day. i even know the script im that sad. the deleted scenes are the funniest though, have no idea why they left them out.

chucky


what isnt there to like about chucky? its a doll that kills people. quality. i prefer bride of chucky though as it has jenniffer tilly in it. she is well good.

serial mom


kathleen turner is one of my favourite actresses. the murders in this films are hilarious especially when she smacks the old biddy about with a led of lamb. brilliant.

the sweetest thing


christina applegate, cameron diaz and selma blair together is just hilarious. this film is actually a lot more dirty than i thought it was gonna be. dirty fucking bitches.

mean girls


everything about this film is just funny. and to think this probably actually does happen in american highschools. i love love lohan.

and yeah, thats it. i do like loads more films but i just cant be arsed to write them all down.

Heroes:

JESS

this is my best friend jess, she is the best thing since sliced bread and quite frankly i could not live without her.
x x x x x

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