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Courtney

it's the song that's making me cry. and all i knew is moving away from me.

About Me


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had a long interesting journey here thus far. have lost some people that i love, and love a lot of people i am lost to. i dance alone in my living room almost every day, somewhere between balet and emotional release. nature and live music makes me cry at how much beauty i see. my daughters minds are my canvas on most days... but i paint also. i am an upcoming drag king named Ethan.the GENDERMYN'S first show will be at club 1415 on February 23rd!!!! intensely protective of my friends and lovers. i guard myself with a fire and sometimes a rage. tho age has muted that anger a bit. i don't have enough sympathy for ignorance, but i can pretend i do. i write, i speak, i do energy work, an artist and a seamstress... i am a mother. i am a lover. i am a feminist woman-loving mom. my ex-husband will always one of my best friends. going thru life trying to make a change. produced and hosted a radio show for three years on KPFT. my blog where all my writing and poetry resides is Here

My Interests

gender bending, queer culture and attempting to document it, live radio, independant journalism, leftist crazy in your face peace ideas, intelligence, music, my children, women's rights, the beauty of the world, relationships in all their lessons and trials

I'd like to meet:

this part confuses me. i would like to meet the world , if at all possible... to apologize for all they mayhem. to hold her and comfort her... and then ask her to do the same. i'd like to meet the obvious ones, like Gloria Steinam, Madonna, Ani, Cynthia McKinney... surely i've forgotten some. I have gotten to interview Julia "Butterfly" Hill, Peggy O'mara, Helen Caldicott, been on the radio with Bill Cosby (tho maybe i shouldn't be proud of that), and many other important women (and some men) making good changes in this society

Music:

.. width="425" height="350" ....i am not good at dropping names, i do love micheal franti, joanna newsom, regina spektor, ANI DIFRANCO, and Peaches when i need a break from real thought

Movies:

i watch them. i guess. old time favorite St. Elmo's Fire. cant watch anything with people hurting other people. i just cry.

Television:

turn that shit off. it's not REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Books:

love em. don't finish a lot because i get distracted by the next one. i read a lot of essays and informational, archealogical, spiritual books

Heroes:

my grandmother, Helen Caldicott, Julia "Butterfly" Hill, women who have their babies at home without medical doctors, the midwives who help those women,

My Blog

invisible skirt

"this is definitely your ass i'm touching. not an invisible skirt" "i'm telling you it's my invisible skirt. the material is very thin. i could see how you might think it was my ass" "no... no... it...
Posted by Courtney on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 09:18:00 PST

she was here

there are no pictures here i don't have any left-overs no scraps on the floor no stills capturing a look, a glance just the sweet smell in my bedsheets and the dishes that she washedthere are no phys...
Posted by Courtney on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 12:35:00 PST

she was here

there are no pictures here i don't have any left-overs no scraps on the floor no stills capturing a look, a glance just the sweet smell in my bedsheets and the dishes that she washedthere are no phys...
Posted by Courtney on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 12:37:00 PST

chopped up thoughts

i keep typing lyrics through my ears and none of them are right they're not mine and my tune isn't that tune. it was nine years and i looked in your eyes last night and said "it hurts so bad that yo...
Posted by Courtney on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 08:54:00 PST

woman down

tears well up and trip over the edge of the skin around my eye "and all that we built and all that we breathed and all that we spilt or pullled up like weeds is piled up in back and it burns irrevoca...
Posted by Courtney on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 07:34:00 PST

HPV on grief

push pull push pull waking up my body i pulled it away from her i said no her tongue searched me forcefully i writhed putting my hands over my sex blocking her she pushed them away "it's ok" she cooe...
Posted by Courtney on Sat, 30 Dec 2006 01:38:00 PST

matthew

your forgiveness is all i ask. it is a tall tall order,i know.i am sorry for the lies to myself.maybe not lies. maybe just blindness. i am sorry for the blindness that has so deeply effected us. but i...
Posted by Courtney on Thu, 28 Dec 2006 11:39:00 PST

on death and broken hearts

i have cooked a good lunchfor people who lost their daughteri have hugged their weepy bodieswith the knowledge that their child was deadand that i reminded them ofher spirita friend of mine from high ...
Posted by Courtney on Thu, 28 Dec 2006 10:41:00 PST

question and answer

so i have been asked by a few people today, "what is the point of trying to figure out if you are lesbian?" if i were them, i would be asking the very same question. why bother? who wants a box? who w...
Posted by Courtney on Wed, 27 Dec 2006 02:13:00 PST

question and answer

so i have been asked by a few people today, "what is the point of trying to figure out if you are lesbian?" if i were them, i would be asking the very same question. why bother? who wants a box? who w...
Posted by Courtney on Wed, 27 Dec 2006 02:14:00 PST