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Ella 2003-2006

This is my old space...2003-2006.

About Me


"Character is much easier kept than recovered."~Thomas Paine, INFJ
A recent in-depth study of my personality showed that I belong to an estimated 2% of the population - the rarest of all personality types. So as you go along my profile, don't think I'm weird. Hehehe. I'm just a rare breed...not like the one you see in your everyday existence. As an INFJ, I have the same personality as US President Jimmy Carter, Mother Teresa of Calcutta, Civil rights leader and martyr - Martin Luther King, Jr., one of the 20th century's most influential and admired women - Eleanor Roosevelt, former Soviet President Mikhail Gorbachev, South African civil rights leader Nelson Mandela, and philosopher/world-changer, Mohandas Gandhi. WOW right?! I'm so proud to be an INFJ! Like them, I may seem cold on outside but I am SOOOO warm and fuzzy on the inside. ;
I love with passion, I give with my soul and my spirit. I embrace the beauty of life, I appreciate life itself. I am independent yet forever trying to be God-dependent in all the dynamics of my life: emotionally, personally, professionally. I stand true on my beliefs and uphold them unashamedly. I live my own life. I love abundantly - my Lord, my daughter, my family, my true friends, myself. I welcome love. I am always trying hard to be pure in thought, giving of my heart and time.
I am a single mom of a beautiful child, everybody's counselor/mom...24/7...it's stressful sometimes, but I'm very thankful to be useful to the people around me and be able to make a huge difference in this world. I am joyously happy of who I am, of what I've achieved, indeed also, of whom I'm yet to become. I choose to avoid negativity, bitterness, resentment - all those poisonous addictions that destroy souls, spirits and mankind worldwide. Instead, I focus and practice the purest essence of love, of optimism, joy and hope. I recognize the spirit of each soul, the soul that radiates love, it, so graciously, purely, gravitates within. I am creative, artistic, unique, honouring. I radiate, I attract, I enhance the positive best from each soul. I have faults yet I accept and choose to love them if I cannot change them at all. I tend to intuitively read people very quickly, but I am always careful not to make assumptions. Im an observer. I get a feeling when people are interesting, and I watch from a distance. I have a few deep friendships. A friendship comes best when it is worked to develop that investment. I quickly pick up on sincerity and withdraw if the person is superficial or obviously doesnt care. I stand tall, I walk tall, of that I'm so proud, as indeed of the fact that I love limitlessly. I know and understand myself, respect myself, I love myself. I am simply a woman who loves her world, her life, her accomplishments, her universe, her spirit, her GOD. A woman who continues to believe, who trusts in herself and in the Lord, despite her stumbles and the falls. I believe in others, I choose to trust, I choose to love and spread that love blanketing all. I am a teacher and yet a life student. I am strong and yet I can crumble. I am fearless and still I fear God, I love and still I need more. I laugh and yet I cry, I stand as one and yet I stand for all. I am complicated and yet, I am so simple. Oh, the world of contradictions in a woman!
I hope that my achievements in life shall be these - that I will have fought for what was right and fair, that I will have risked for that which mattered, and that I will have given help to those who were in need that I will have left the earth a better place for what I've done and who I've been.~C. Hoppe
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I`m not shouting "I`m clean living."
I`m whispering "I was lost,"
Now I`m found and forgiven.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don`t speak of this with pride.
I`m confessing that I stumble
and need CHRIST to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I`m not trying to be strong.
I`m professing that I`m weak
and need HIS strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I`m not bragging of success.
I`m admittingI have failed
and need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I`m not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
but, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I`m not holier than thou,
I`m just a simple sinner
who received God`s good grace,somehow.
~Maya Angelou~

My Interests

The quest for more knowledge, the meaning of life, the philosophical questions—my mind is always occupied, and what’s exciting is when I get to follow through with an insight and do something. I am an abstract future thinker, looking at things from different perspectives. I embrace change, I love life, I treasure and welcome my life lessons for I recognize that the world teaches you what you need to learn. I’m about the relationships and possibilities and enjoy anything with deeper meaning that leaves me wondering, with more questions to ask and things to untangle. Connecting for me means being able to intuitively ask questions of people to get them to go deeper into the things they are talking about. Inspiring others, helping them find their purpose or meaning, being a different kind of leader from what’s traditional—that’s really gratifying. I just do that naturally. The challenge is opening up people’s minds to have their own original thoughts. I’m a listener and guide. I need a balance between people contact and working on my projects and I don't hesitate to break away from interactions when I get tired out. Thus, my regular sabbaticals.I love independent projects and reading (I have a home library like my grandma!) and writing (I am a writer!). I do my best thinking alone, being alone to go inside and center myself. I have always been drawn to the spiritual that's why I have a lot of spiritual supplements to keep me balanced. ;

Things I love: photography, bonding with my loved ones, scrapbooking, singing, performing onstage, blogging, crafts, personality tests and other self-improvement tools, quotes/quotations, cooking (my favorites are pasta and desserts!), baking, researching (Google-ing?!), pampering myself (spa/salon/home), magazines, detoxifying my life, dancing, beauty, fashion, blings, traveling, stargazing, concerts, great conversations, watching DVDs or movies, relaxing, Boracay, my cousin's beach house in Montemar, Singapore, HongKong, Miss Saigon Broadway Musicale...Piolo Pascual is my ultimate crush (oh well, who doesn't find him attractive?! Hehe)...I'm shifting to a simpler lifestyle right now...I just want my peace and quiet. I'm a sucker for CALAMANSI, I love tomato-based foodies, I love Meiji Macadamia Chocolate, Mountain Dew, Sprite Ice, Skyy Vanilla, Absolut Kurant, Pier One's Zombie, Embassy's Weng Weng and Hypnotique, Dunhill Red Perfume for Men, the theme color of Tiffany&Co., the smell of coffee in the morning, my unique tuna sandwiches, playing and cuddling with my daughter

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The only correct actions are those that demand no explanation and no apology.~Red Auerbach

I'd like to meet:

Now that I'm 30 and officially/legally single (not to mention more street smart, more discerning, and more assertive), I already know who I'd like to meet as my future partner. Now, this part will separate MEN from BOYS:

I would love someone with a stable head above his shoulders (read:mature) who can totally understand the complicatedly simple (or simply complicated) me! I'd love to have a man after God's own heart. A man of integrity, character and principles who can manage our relationship well. Lord, please give me someone with a PURE heart and PURE intentions! I just know that if I raise my standards (same for my self-standards), I will also be given a quality man who will go through God's strict screening process. Here's His plan for my lovelife (okay...at this point...men with impure intentions, back-off hehe!):

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God says to a Christian, "No, not until you are satisfied and fulfilled and content with living, loved by me alone, with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me alone. I love you, my child, and until you discover that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with me, exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings.

"I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you that most thrilling plan existing, one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the BEST! Please allow me to bring it to you. You just keep watching me, expecting that satisfaction, expecting the greatest things, and know that I Am. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must wait!

"Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have received. Don't look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away up to me, or you'll miss what I want to show you.

"And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you would ever imagine. You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready (I am working this very minute to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both satsifeid exclusively with me and the life I have planned and prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me...and this is perfect love.

"Dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with myself. Know that I love you utterly, I am God Almighty. Believe and be satisfied."

--Author Unknown

Music:

Gary V songs, Songs by Black Eyed Peas, After the Chase songs, Hed Kandi Music, Drop the Pressure, My Immortal, Please Don't Ask Me, Drop It Like It's Hot, The Day you Went Away, A Moment Like This, Songs by Moony, I'll Remember, On My Knees, Come as you are, God is the Strength, Shining, I will be here (my future wedding theme song!), Run, You are, I'm free, Everything that has breath, There is none like you, I could sing of your love forever, Be still, Calling us to Believe, and a whole lot of praise music!

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Movies:

Jerry Maguire, Indecent Proposal, Ever After, Dirty Dancing, Pretty Woman, Somewhere in Time, Bone Collector, The Cutting Edge, Bridges of Madison County, 'Till there was you (hahahaha promise!), HKSL (cheezy!), Only You, Untamed Heart, While you Were Sleeping, Forever Young, Bad Boys I&II, A Walk to Remember, Green Mile, If Only, The Passion of the Christ, Sleepless In Seattle,Green Card, Finding Nemo,Schindler's List, Hitch, How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days, The Italian Job,Ever After,The Bodyguard,The Silence of the Lambs, Ghost, Titanic, Saw, Panic Room, Zodiac K., Fatal Attraction

Television:

F.R.I.E.N.D.S. - keeps me laughing even in my darkest days, Oprah

Books:

MY BIBLE, A Woman After God's Own Heart, He's Just Not That Into You, When God Writes your Love Story, Heritage, Chicken Soup for the Mother's Soul, Quest for Character, It's not about me, 7 Habits, The Joy of Beauty, God...where is love?, What to do when you don't know what to do, I Kissed Dating Goodbye, Not even a hint, Heavenly Man, and all books by: John Maxwell, Greg Behrendt, Stephen Covey, Joshua Harris, Max Lucado, and our pastor, Ed Lapiz.

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Heroes:

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Mary Magdalene, Job, Solomon, Daniel, David, Gideon, my mentors which include my brother, Elliot

Jesus, lover of my soul
Jesus, I will never let You go
I love you, I need you
Though my world may fall
I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest Friend
I will worship you until the very end...

My Blog

This is MY moment...

To my dear relatives and friends, Today, something significant happened in my life.A great chance to start anew.A great chance to erase the past and move towards the future.Sometimes, we should leave...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Fri, 03 Feb 2006 05:43:00 PST

Bonding to the highest degree!

My cousins and I at Baguio: http://ciaogiannina.multiply.com/photos/album/22December 30, 2005 to January 1, 2006...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Tue, 31 Jan 2006 02:19:00 PST

Invisible war...

Invisible war, seems we're fighting an invisible warStrained manoeuvres, keeping silent scoreIn this invisible warEvery day I seem to lose you moreBoth wishing it was like beforeIn this invisible war ...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Thu, 26 Jan 2006 06:06:00 PST

It's not too late to...

Begin Again One of the best things we can do in our lives is this:Begin again.Begin to see yourself as you wereWhen you were the happiest and strongest you've ever been.Begin to remember what worked f...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Thu, 26 Jan 2006 05:49:00 PST

My mentor's guide to success...

Desiderata Max Ehrmann Go placidly amid the noise and haste,and remember what peace there may be in silence.As far as possible without surrenderbe on good terms with all persons.Speak your truth quie...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Wed, 25 Jan 2006 09:58:00 PST

I want to run, run, run...run!!!

by Nathan & Jenna Strong, 2003 GardenWatch PublishingI want to run deep into Your presenceUntil theres nothing left of me'Till my desires are all melted downAnd You are all I want to beI want to r...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Wed, 25 Jan 2006 08:48:00 PST

There's a rainbow always after the rain...

Fallin' out, fallin' in Nothings sure in this world, no no Breaking down, breaking in Never knowing what lies ahead We can really never tell it all, no no Say goodbye, say hello To a lover or friend ...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Wed, 25 Jan 2006 05:11:00 PST

TO MY EX...my IMMORTAL!!!

I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These woun...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Fri, 20 Jan 2006 06:53:00 PST

MASTER held INCOMMUNICADO!

After my Baguio trip, I shall be having my 30-day to 60-day sabbatical leave.  Depends on my progress actually.I will still work, of course, but life will be all about home, work/career, daughter...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Thu, 29 Dec 2005 08:22:00 PST

Lying low in MySpace...huhuhu...

Recently, my heart has been so grieved because at 30, I feel that I'm wasting my life over a lot of nonsense. A lot of people around me also do.  Instead of being producers, we are consumers. We...
Posted by Ella 2003-2006 on Thu, 29 Dec 2005 06:31:00 PST