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Pelagic

T minus 2 days till Santa Fe!

About Me

Dedication
The fact that I
am writing to you
in English
already falsifies what I
wanted to tell you.
My subject:
how to explain to you
that I don't belong to English
though I belong nowhere else,
if not here
in English.
:: Gustavo Pérez Firmat ::


I live in my head and come out to play each day. I believe that the dictionary is the best bathroom book ever. If you have other suggestions, I'll appreciate your indulging me, but I doubt I'll change my mind. I like swimming against the current. I prefer complications to oversimplifications. I don't follow directions well until I make sense of them for myself. I like to do my own thing without being apologetic about it (I have many "things"). I'm legally an "alien": I have made my choices, and they have never been easy from the start. "Home" is hard to define, and most of the time, I like it this way. James Baldwin is my solace when it gets hard. I have intense envy of alternate paths. I fall in love with people's life stories all the time. I need quiet times as much as I need loud, gregarious times, and there is no formula to when I need which. I value alone time, both for me and for others; I also like crowds in certain settings...like Stern Grove. Perhaps to compensate for a too-focused childhood (and a nerdy adulthood), I collect toys. I used to play rugby and I still play rough. I pay the extra money to eat tomatoes that taste red and smell like dirt. I am in love with water. I love -more than anything or anyone I could ever love- swimming sirenlike in an unenclosed body of water, knowing I am connected to places I have never been. I lie to myself about this a lot, but I do miss my family. I have destined myself to be curious what my life would have been like had I stayed in the motherland, and I have come to appreciate the beauty in the unknown.

The seas (not oceans, seas) swum in to date (as far as I can remember, anyway):
The Aegean Sea
The Mediterrenean Sea
The Black Sea
The Dead Sea
The Adriatic Sea
The Tyrrhenian Sea
The Caribbean Sea
The Irish Sea (& The Celtic Sea?)

:: tbc ::

My Interests

The Stendhal Syndrome, hanging out at The Red Poppy Art House , murals in unlikely places in the Mission and the likely artists that painted them, belt buckles, scuba diving, synchronicity, talking to strangers, relentless spontaneity, traveling abroad by myself, theater, The Oregon Shakespeare Festival, diversifying private schools (as much as they can be diversified given the tuition), consuming boats load of sushi, sarcasm: people who can take it and have smartass comebacks, brutal honesty at all costs, being called on my BS, people who create and support the arts,simple pleasures: pebbles smoothed by the water, carrying a banana in hand on my commute and watching the thoughts flow across curious faces, the area right above the hip bone, lemon trees, garden tomatoes, taking the subway to nowhere in particular in New York City, shiny new -silver- trumpets, worn out second hand trumpets that bear their owners' fingerprints, grabbing a friend and going about the city taking Polaroids, spending hours in a museum with a notebook in my hand, live jazz performances as theater, swimming sirenlike in The Aegean, words, words, words, etymology, writing that can make me cry, a whisper when I am not looking, the tension in the possibility of reaching across, paying attention between the wanting and the having.

I'd like to meet:

WhoM I'd like to meet:

Readers of Baldwin, Beckett, and Borges, who spend time thinking about the writer's words for days afterwards.

Sea-lovers.
World travelers.
Train-riders.
Letter and postcard writers.
English majors.
Doodlers.

People who find joy in everyday absurdism & notice the haiku moments in life.

Irreverent jumpstarters. Spontaneous people who can surprise me (and do). "Pack a bag for an overnight stay. We're going to ______NOW!" kind of people.

People who can watch me swim far far away and know that I will eventually come back. Literally. [Unsolicited Hint: Someone who can let a woman do her thing is a person worth knowing.]

People with whom I can have a conversation, laugh, dance, be spontaneous, travel.Partners in Legos, scuba diving, Polaroid adventures.

People who say what they mean and mean what they say.

Folks who are familiar with the Barbapapas.

Anyone who can offer me a ride on an elephant.
Someone who can teach me how to pick a lock.

MLK. James Baldwin (I would have loved hanging out with him at a Bosphorus bar in Istanbul while he lived there). Nikki S. Lee -- I have so many questions for all of you...

Who'd like to meet me:
Stand-up comedians, actors, jazz musicians, poets, visual artists. Trust me.

Music:

Jazzjazzjazz (Chet Baker, John Coltrane, Miles Davis, Dizzy Gillespie, Billie Holiday, Ahmad Jamal, Sonny Rollins, Nina Simone, The Supplicants, Marcus Shelby, folks with The Jazz Mafia, AfroCuban jazz...), Aretha Franklin, Air, Andrea Bocelli, Beck, Cibo Matto, Counting Crows' August and Everything After, Dwele, Floetry (thanks Tearon), Jurassic 5, Mos Def & Talib Kweli, Keb 'Mo, Luna, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Life Aquatic Soundtrack, ?uestlove (fine, The Roots), classical music, opera when I am in the mood, David Byrne, Talking Heads, Portishead, Radiohead, the music in my head, the sound of water, waves... 

Movies:

The Professional (Leon), LIFE AQUATIC WITH STEVE ZISSOU, Il Postino, Cinema Paradiso, Amelie, Double Indemnity, Istanbul Kanatlarimin Altinda (Istanbul Beneath My Wings), Casablanca, Shawshank Redemption, Naked Lunch, Until the End of the World, Barton Fink, The Hudsucker Proxy, Kenneth Branagh's Hamlet, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead, The Usual Suspects, L.A. Confidential, Bullets Over Broadway, American History X, Bamboozled, Rashomon, Baraka, Wing Chun, The Business of Fancydancing, Smoke Signals (though -as usual- the book is much better), Whale Rider, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind...

Television:

I don't have a tv.
But when I did, I watched:
* 24, religiously (now, I watch it on tape borrowed from friends or at work).
* The Daily Show, The Simpsons, late night KQED documentaries, no longer, since I am now sans tv.
* Buffy, Jacques Cousteau, The Barbapapas, nostalgically.
* Bad Boys Bail Bonds commercials, strangely.

Books:

*The Fire Next Time, Another Country, Giovanni's Room, and pretty much anything by James Baldwin
*Invisible Man (Ellison),
*Jazz (Morrison),
*Kiss of the Spider Woman (Puig),
* Invisible Cities (Calvino),
*"Hamlet," and "Othello" among others (Mr. Shakespeare)
*Nikki S. Lee - Projects
*The Alchemist (Coelho),
*Ulysses, Dubliners, and A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man by James Joyce,
*The Oxford English Dictionary,
*The Professor and the Madman,
*Art Spiegelman's MAUS,
*Nelson Algren's Never Come Morning,
*Geek Love (Dunn),
* Baudrillard's Simulations ,
*Faulkner's The Sound and the Fury
*The History of the World in 10 1/2 Chapters and Love, Etc. (Julian Barnes),
*the Griffin and Sabine books (Bantock),
*White Noise (DeLillo),
*The Crying of Lot 49 (Pynchon),
*Martha Nussbaum's For Love of Country?,
*Anais Nin, Fitzgerald, Hermann Hesse, Milan Kundera, Sherman Alexie, Samuel Beckett, Pinter, Albee, Kafka, Sartre, Camus, Mamet, Athol Fugard, Walt Whitman, Edward Said, Bukowski, Borges...I'm an English teacher for godssakes.

Heroes:

I want to be my own heroine.
Heroic parts of me in others: teachers, people who talk to strangers, people who notice the haiku moments in life, people who do something for social equity and justice, people who can consistently say what they mean and mean what they say;
Not (yet) me: artists, writers, sirens with a conscience, Sidney Poitier, MLK, James Baldwin, Melba Beals, and anyone else whose written words and life stories have moved me to tears.

My Blog

Got a phone, but no numbers...

If you don't read bulletins, but do read this:Stolen bag. No wallet.No keys.No phone. (UPDATE: I now have a phone again, but no numbers.)Blahblahblah.In short: please send me your contact info.tk...
Posted by Pelagic on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 12:01:00 PST

Some questions for whoever reads this...

Do you ever find yourself hanging out with someone and while hanging out realize that you miss that person even though s/he is right there? What's that about?Here's a harder one: do you ever miss you?...
Posted by Pelagic on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 05:45:00 PST

A challenge for all jazz musicians.

A few months ago, I listened to the frustrations of the girls in the student club I run, "Students for Women's Equality and Rights" (SWEAR), who are also in the school's jazz band. They were upset, di...
Posted by Pelagic on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 08:00:00 PST

Thoughts at the Sangati Center...

I wrote what is below listening to inspired and inspiring music at the Sangati Center...***There is so much beauty and complexity in the world that I do not understand. Fortunately, neither the beauty...
Posted by Pelagic on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 08:36:00 PST

From MLK to Spike Lee: When the Levees Broke.

It's hell week at work. Still, I decided that instead of grading and writing my interim reports like a good teacher (by some definition of good), I'd volunteer to stay at work this evening and watch t...
Posted by Pelagic on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 09:02:00 PST

On desegregating my moral concerns.

Re: I have fought too hard and long to end segregated public accommodations to segregate my own moral concerns. It is my deep conviction that justice is indivisible, that injustice anywhere is a threa...
Posted by Pelagic on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 07:31:00 PST

note to self

I have fought too hard and long to end segregated public accommodations to segregate my own moral concerns. It is my deep conviction that justice is indivisible, that injustice anywhere is a threat to...
Posted by Pelagic on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 08:35:00 PST

The second wave.

Thinking about all the stories I have written about here re: the INS BS, I look at it all from an outsider's perspective, and I realize you (dear anonymous reader) have been reading the same story ove...
Posted by Pelagic on Sun, 14 Jan 2007 03:22:00 PST

Current mood: angryjealoussadconfusedhappy

Yesterday was my best friend's birthday. I call her my best friend even though I haven't seen her in years and we no longer know much about each other's lives. She moved to the US four years after I d...
Posted by Pelagic on Sun, 14 Jan 2007 10:26:00 PST

I feel good today!

I was at work until 9:30 pm last night, trying to pull together a presentation I was asked to deliver before the entire faculty on our professional development day focusing on "Reaching Every Student....
Posted by Pelagic on Sat, 13 Jan 2007 05:44:00 PST