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JRudy

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About Me

.....beneath my quiet exterior something within me screams relentlessly...and it says...there's got to be more.
"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear,our presence automatically liberates others."
I'm a guy who is not so sure what the future holds for him. I can and want to do so much, but often feel trapped by a world that would have me do and excel at only one thing. At moment I am taking a break from school to pay back all of those loan things that I took out for 3 semesters at a private college . But when I go back I will most likely be a music performance major. In a nutshell I am: intelligent, perceptive, independent, strong-willed, creative, logical, skeptic, cynical, unorthodox, and altogether a mystery...but most of all I am and strive to always be real.

My Interests

camping, music, physics, chemistry, biology, poetry, philosophy, studying different modes of thought, psychology, culinary things =-D, bartending, and a good pint of lager...mmm mmm!

I'd like to meet:

People who see the world the way I do.

Music:

Pretty much everything...Music is freedom to me...my escape from reality.

My Blog

On New Beginnings

These walls tell a story neverending of hidden pain,All of the smoke and mirrors is the beautiful diversion.Designed and practiced to perfection to divert your eyes,From who I am, imprisoned within th...
Posted by JRudy on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 08:19:00 PST

Walls

Some people put up walls not to protect themselves or hide,But to see who cares enough to take time breaking them down.I am the refugee constant, always on the move trying to escape,The calamity that ...
Posted by JRudy on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 11:42:00 PST

Hidden

Deep introspection reveals no new news, all things inconclusive,Again I find myself hiding away, hidden so deep even I cannot find me.And I as I lose myself in thought I am saddened once more,And I kn...
Posted by JRudy on Fri, 14 Dec 2007 01:32:00 PST

Beneath the surface...

Just a precursor...this writing isn't going to be so neat and tidy like most of the others, because for once I'm going to probe beneath my neat and well-kempt exterior which is to say the least nothin...
Posted by JRudy on Sun, 19 Aug 2007 07:59:00 PST

Rawr...there be new bloggings

Yay for crappy poems I write when exhausted after 12 weeks of camp >. I am so very tired of bearing this weight within my heart,Trying incessantly to let it go and move on with my life.But the weight ...
Posted by JRudy on Thu, 02 Aug 2007 07:53:00 PST

In the Name of God

"In the Name of God" by Dream TheaterHow can this be? Why is he the chosen one? Saint gone astray With a scepter and a gun Learn to believe In the mighty and the strong Come bleed the beast ...
Posted by JRudy on Fri, 18 May 2007 12:55:00 PST

Lost Cause

All hope abandon ye who enter here, embrace depravity,Let the darkness envelop you completely, all is lost.Abandon hope or have it stripped away, you are but life's plaything,A mere spec of  dust...
Posted by JRudy on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 09:46:00 PST

Warrior

Here I find myself, crippled, without meaning or a purpose,Wandering lost in this empty and meaningless life again.Heart full of fury and passion, eyes burning with endless fire,So much to give but no...
Posted by JRudy on Sat, 21 Apr 2007 03:10:00 PST

...Veritas...

Veritas...the lofty goal which incessantly evades my grasp, The answer to so many of my questions, the cure to my plague of doubt.God, others, and even myself have all been placed upon the scales of m...
Posted by JRudy on Mon, 13 Nov 2006 12:03:00 PST

Behold...all that is cheesy.

Just to forewarn...I pretty much suck at writing when the subject matter is positive since it is my outlet for negative stuff...but here goes anyway lol.My head is still spinning from the collision of...
Posted by JRudy on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 11:57:00 PST