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About Me

whats there to know? well, if you dont know already, i live in ewing (aka, hell) where NOTHING ever happens beyond the normal post teenage drama crap bullshit that people in their early 20's put themselves through everyday. only in ewing, its 10x worse. theres not much to do here besides getting drunk and high, and although not actually counted as sports, stealing boyfriends and becomming slut faced hoe bags are among the most cherished past times. the only way to make it here without having your soul ripped from your body, or your heart broken to pieces, is to build an immunity to the emotion known as love, and to pretend it doesnt exist. thats the only way you will survive this town.i love music, especially music i myself can relate to, and i hope to start a band one day. i also love the arts, and poetry, and i tend to have a lot to write about, so ask me if you want to read my stuff sometime.i guess you could say im gay, but id rather not define my sexuality anymore. or rather, lack there of. love changes who you are, and it makes you do stupid things. i no longer believe in love, so if your interested, im not.things that grind my gears: most straight men. most gay men. the majority of men in general. people who fuck with your head. people who talk behind your back. dishonesty. cowardly people. people who are afraid to admit who they are. closeted gays. liars. sexaholics. crackheads. britney spears' constant media attention. closed minded people. religious fanatics. and whores.

My Interests

Music, Art, Mascara, Makeup, Mirrors, Lipstick and Lip-gloss, Color, Androdgeny, MAC cosmetics, Ciggarettes, Penises, Forks, Poetry, Tampons, Razor blades, Money, Liquid eyeliner, Whispers, Spanxx.You have a sexual IQ of 134

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I'd like to meet:

roseanne barr, shirley manson, jackie beat, gerard way, ann & nancy wilson, marilyn monroe, Cass elliot, gwen stefani, sonny moore, brody dale, davey havok, milla jovovich, and keira knightley, so i can shove a hamburger down her throat.

Music:

my chemical romance, the distillers, atreyu, sublime, rancid, led zeppelin, alexisonfire, afi, black eyed peas, green day, pennywise, the specials, marilyn manson, the vandals, the go-gos, the mamas and the papas, alanis morrisette, christina aguilera, coheed and cambria, garbage, blink 182, evanessance, linkin park, stratovarious, sugarcult, alicia keys, Fleetwood mac, jewel, the fugees, heart, moby, shakira, fischerspooner, the madness, oasis, dance hall crashers, blondie, gwen stefani, no doubt, nofx, the offspring, fall out boy, paramore, hawthorne heights, rx bandits, stevie nicks, cobra starship, joan jett, lynard skynard, cass elliot, the stones, many more. cant remember them all

Movies:

the little mermaid, Pirates of the carribbean; all three, clerks and clerks 2, the wizard of oz, mommie dearest, donnie darko, brokeback mountain, whatever happend to baby jane, slc punk, the first wives club, death becomes her, resident evil; all three, the fifth element, star wars 4-6, interveiw with the vampire, queen of the damned, not another gay movie, pretty woman, mermaids, to wong foo: thanks for everything... julie newmar, and... jay and silent bob strike back. there are more, just cant think of them

Television:

tv fuckin sucks

Books:

wizards first rule, blood of the fold, stone of tears, every nine seconds, the magical encyclopedia, fine things, malice, she said yes, cujo, it, misery, the da vinci code, kissing door knobs, harry potter, anything fantasy

Heroes:

your cock is my hero

My Blog

Getting Older

that time of year is upon me yet again. soon i will be celebrating my 22nd birthday. the last year has been... quite interesting. its funny how people drop in and out of your life. but its a joy, and ...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Wed, 02 Apr 2008 09:34:00 PST

untitled

im going to be me.no matter what you say.me is all i have.im going to be menothing else i can depend uponnothing else that matters.im going to be me.im going to love me.im going to forget about you.im...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 09:34:00 PST

hell

well..... yeah. i honestly dont kno what the fuck is wrong with me. i got home tonight and alllll i could do was cry. over what....hmmm, thats a tough one. take a pick. i just feel very alone right no...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Tue, 25 Dec 2007 12:06:00 PST

whatever.

i feel like screaming. seriously... hard core fucking madly insane SCREAMING. im sick of people and their 'issues'. im also sick of being treated like im expendable, as if i dont have feelings. im tir...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Sat, 15 Dec 2007 12:09:00 PST

the hardest part...

the hardest partof letting gois knowing you'll be gonetaken by the windflowing on the breezeas the free spirit that you areill fall to my kneesat the pain of realizationwhen it finally sets ini was al...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Fri, 07 Dec 2007 09:39:00 PST

My Reflection

so afraid to look in the mirrorafraid to see whats looking backreality is only a miragecovering truth underneathunder the lies and the painunder a sky with no sunliving in fear of every dayim naked wi...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Tue, 13 Nov 2007 09:13:00 PST

GOD!!

fucking shoot me. im tired and sick.... ugh...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Mon, 12 Nov 2007 07:30:00 PST

back to work... and some rambling

so now i get to go back to work... omg, im so going to miss my vacation... getting drunk... getting high... it was a blast. its so weird going back now too. everything that happened, its almost like i...
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Mon, 05 Nov 2007 10:28:00 PST

I Need To Get Out

im sooooooo fucking bored right now. shoot me.
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Mon, 20 Aug 2007 09:01:00 PST

im bored

im really fucking bored.
Posted by })({Vanity})({Past})({Tense})({ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST