NÖRL

On Alpha:
Alpha is a state of mind, being and acceptance within yourself. To the degree you have it "more" than others, they will call you Alpha by comparison.
I see Alpha as like the Indian chief. Sure there may be more physically fit warriors, but they come to him for guidance, for understanding and for the path. The ultimate scenario is to have the Alpha pack. We all walk together. We all are complete individually, that then come together, combining our specialties to one focus. If one Alpha stumbles, there's no shame. We all will stumble! At that point WE are the Alpha. I take alpha past that of what man claims to observe in a common timberwolf pack, so seek not to belabor my eardrums with your ignorance.
It's how you handle situations, how you handle yourself, what you get done, how you do it. It's really a natural condition. Some just won't reach that stage for what you have to go through, and that's perfectly fine. To the Omega, the Beta can be seen as Alpha as well.
Ultimately, we're ALL part of the one real Alpha. To what degree you show that, they may call you Alpha here, but it's really the source that matters.
Personally, I wouldn't like to be called an Alpha by anyone but another Alpha and even then, why bother. I require no title. I'd rather lift that one that thinks they are less, to me.
STAND when you speak to me! Don't bow your head to ME. Take your place by my side if you are able! Accept nothing less in yourself!
If I ever may bow to you, my eyes will not be looking at the floor, and it should not be taken as any subservient gesture, simply respect for what I see in you.
Alpha is THE way. It has many names. Recognize it in all its forms.
Recent History:
2005 was the year I found a lot of things in me that will not change. It was the end of a period of time that I denied my instincts. Now I have a better understanding.
2006 was a year of strong growth in the beginning, turning into the abyss of loss again, so I withdrew. A few other adventures proved, once again, that I do not truly belong here, but here I remain. I searched for purpose and meaning, and fabricated both for a while.
2007 is the year of action. Like I have learned before: do nothing, lose nothing, but gain nothing. I look into my own future, and see things I want. Not material. Neither riches nor prestige motivate me. I go looking for that fire once again. That burn in my chest. A rageful pride for honor itself, so that when I leave this world and look back, I'll smile and maybe sign up again. I seek the company of those who are willing to fight for what they believe in, whether the belief is evil or divine, truth or fantasy. Those that stand up for nothing, earn nothing and to me, ARE nothing.