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carmen

do you want to embody truth or illusion?

About Me


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You can listen to some of my music under "Violet Orchestra" in my friends list....................................... im 24, born in montreal, raised in the suburbs , dad from Chile, mom from France, Switzerland and Austria.. I'm easily amused, easily angered and quick to cool down and forgive..I don't hold grudges cause i leave karma to do its job .IM very lazy, tired all the time, dont go out alot, think too much, stay up too late, ..I'm very boring to talk to, thats probably why i dont talk much.. Im trying to write a book but its so hard to stretch out a simple concept into an around 160 page book.. I like to write, make music, sing- im an awful singer,, dance- i can't dance, play guitar- i can't evan play the F chord... I like honesty in poeple, no beating around the bush, just get to the point.I love people and i love the process of self realization and reflecting god etc.. but im a still a work in progress so dont look up to me.. I'm always learning more and more, i just recently learned what destiny is and so im trying to align myself with that. You have to be willing to give up alot of control to do so, so i will see.. My biggest goal in life is to embody my beliefs and to be an example of how we can all truly BE,, if you know what i mean.. if you don't your maybe lucky cause i see how ignorance is bliss all the time, but once you cross a certain line you cannot lie to yourself and pretend you do not know where to go on that road.. When you know how to do better, you should.

My Interests

i like to make ambient instrumental musical pieces. Its therapeutic. i like to sing with my guitar, i have a fear of singing in public..

I'd like to meet:

honest people. Be forward, tell me whats exactly on your mind, evan if you think it sounds bad, i want to hear it.. I understand you better than you may think, i will not judge you or your mind, we are all on our own roads.. I have a hard time trusting people but i think its just cause the average person isnt truly honest.. I need honesty like i need oxygen. Im not easily hurt so that helps alot.

Music:

the velvet underground, pixies, patti smith,modest mouse, jesus and mary chain,elmore james, belle and sebastian,built to spill, holly golightly, 764 hero, destroyer, the dears, paul cargnello,god speed you black emporer,calla,bedhead,ugly casanova,interpol,the stills,shout out louds,frank black ,electrelane, the standard,sufjan stevens, arcade fire,marmoset/jorma whittaker,brother danielson,barmitzvah brothers,peter paul and mary,modern lovers, richard hell,dead city rebels, pere ubu,dolly,marlene dietrich,scout niblett, roy orbison,sonic youth, ted leo,elvis costello,steven malkmus,the beach boys, the walkmen,pedro the lion, the clean, the makeup,the minutemen,gang of four,television,wire,rainer maria,deerhoof,les georges leningrad, tv on the radio,elliot smith,frog eyes,the rapture,girls against boys,charley patton,brian lee,blonde redhead,les savy fav,le tigre,galaxy 500,air,my red cell,13 floor elevator,the smiths,local rabbits,starflyer59,,martha wainwright,ikebana,barcelona pavillion,the organ,bob wiseman,channels 3 and 4,the real kids,usa is a monster,the lowdown,the peter parkers,the conceiled banana project,julie doiron,the dirtmits,jay munley,flashing lights,cooper thompson,sparklehorse,the sniches,ramones,16 horsepower,the detatchment kit,slow reader,wispering bob,the venus in furs,weights and measures,the fireshow,paul simon,wilco,the cure, diver,

Movies:

being john malcovitch,adaptation, lost in translation,the life aquatic,royal tenenbaums,great expectations,i heart huckabees,fools rush in,crash,eternal sunshine of the spotless mind,signs, three colours red( that one was better than three colors white or blue) Lady in the water.

Television:

star gazer..prank patrol ,Heroes

Books:

breakthrough to creativity,the Ra material/law of one books,the reincarnation of edgar cayce,seth speaks,tales from the timeloop,the hidden messages in water,the world is as you dream it,the teachings of don juan,from elsewhere,a wanderers handbook

Heroes:

I think everyone should aspire to be they're own heres in life

My Blog

life is a lesson and test of faith

today i decided that i can percieve a world where i only recognize the problems with it or i can see a world where i try to find the light or happiness in it..I am choosing not to ignore the problems ...
Posted by carmen on Sun, 27 Jan 2008 12:17:00 PST

flow

so its 11 55 pm and i was feeling like a jem and then i thought who the hell i am, which makes no sense so why am i rhyming again? i am feeling like an artist, what is art ,i like dead things. my hear...
Posted by carmen on Fri, 25 Jan 2008 08:03:00 PST

second thoughts

I was about to write a blog concerning the some things i don't evan know how to begin to talk about but then i felt like i do not want to write anymore about how things are right now, i should be writ...
Posted by carmen on Thu, 24 Jan 2008 03:15:00 PST

child at heart

I assume we are child at heart, or feel like we are, maybe its just me... So a child is only a symbolic representation of an energy of innocence and wonder, joys, fears, etc..Children represent the po...
Posted by carmen on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 03:51:00 PST

extraterrestrial anscestors

I was wondering while on the toilet bowl about our origins as beings.. I f all races represent different extraterrestrial beings and these beings are all from the same system or universe then it is li...
Posted by carmen on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 03:41:00 PST

Sculpture

there is this great sculpture by Michealangelo, the one where there are these 4 aspects of self and 3 of them are holding his dying body in the middle. Around him one self is clinging to the body the ...
Posted by carmen on Thu, 06 Dec 2007 05:27:00 PST

interesting piece to read

i was just browsing and read this, wanted to share.. i think the spirit of archangel micheal is one that anyone can be one with like all great masters and people whom we know throughout history, its r...
Posted by carmen on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 11:23:00 PST

a dream

I wanted to write a blog today but i forgot what i was going to say.. i think it had to do with a dream i was in where i was in a world that was suffering except they didn't know they were suffering b...
Posted by carmen on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 11:16:00 PST

modest mouse song

this is one of my favorite modest mouse songs..."The Stars are Projectors": Well I'll tell you whyThey're gonna show you howHow they run this showSure, run it straight into the groundHow in the last s...
Posted by carmen on Mon, 03 Dec 2007 10:51:00 PST

In the beginning

I think if we want to understand where we are today and why the world is as it is we must look at one theme that is highly pronounced in the external world environment. For example the Fear element, i...
Posted by carmen on Sun, 02 Dec 2007 10:28:00 PST