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UPDATE: I FINALLY GOT OUR FIRST LP COVER DONE, FRONT AND BACK. CHECK IT OUT! ---------------------------------------THE OUTBREDS:(front cover)(back cover) Cover Produced By: Matt Brain (that's me)Background Art By: Alexander LyamkinHere are some promo posters and redone posters for old shows we've played:Here are all our EP covers (or "singles"):Our first LP demo (incase you couldn't read it above): The Outbreds- "Anesthesia" 1.loose parts (matt) 2.detox lullaby (matt) 3.railin' it (matt & john) 4.skunk (matt) 5.lady smack (matt) 6.rockin in the free world (neil young) 7.methadone (matt) 8.fuck you, you fuck (matt) 9.anesthesia (matt) 10.addict (matt) 11.opinions (kurt cobain/nirvana) 12.old ways (matt) 13.clean sifting (matt) 14.wayfaring stranger (anonymous/old folk song) "i...will be...your...matador &you...can be...my...filthy whore" -if anyone wants a sample or copy of our demo, email me. Our shit isn't online, obviously. We don't have anything copyrighted yet and we are independent, so i will not post any of our shit on myspace.. A certain person who used to be involved w/ us may decide he's entitled to play our shit.Here's pics of the band.. From left to right, top to bottom: John K (stand in), John N, Matt B (me) The solid members of the outbreds are john (bass) and myself (vocals, guitars). John is the tech behind everything, our producer of sorts. And i'm the main creative influence in the band, although we all put an effort forth in music writing. John Katzbach is our stand in drummer for now, b/c we had to move on from our past drummer due to personal differences, commitment issues, etc. Hopefully we can steal John K though, he's pretty fuckin good! ---------------------------------------QUOTES:Personal loyality can not be attained at any cost, then it becomes an indulgence, and it compromises your values.Ralph NadarOur political system is a fraud, a corporate fraud.Pat Buchanan, former white house aide to Ronald Reagan and Richard Nixon.---------------------------------------RIP Jake.. i love you man Jacob was the only one who was there for me through out all the bullshit i put myself through. i love very much jake and i miss you so much.---------------------------------------IM:gorothegimp, hashbreak, fnatasf what i'm reading...
"cosmic landscape: string theory and the illusion of intelligent design" Leonarde Susskind Ph.D. NOVELS are for women...what i'm doing/what i'm into:... I'm a recovering heroin and fentanyl addict so i go to NA religiously; i also play softball, i play guitar in "the outbreds" (see below), i lift, i don't do any drugs (been there, done that, did it ALL), and i closely follow current events and politics. I just got back into school since i've gotten my life straightened out finally.. i'm an undergrad in psychology at OSU. I plan to go to gradschool for neuro-psychology. I'm also usually always reading on pharmacology, neuropsychology, history, politics, and theoritical physics be it online or in hard back. And umm, well, when i watch tv i stick to mostly history&science&military channel stuff.. documentaries. The band has been sorta lagging behind b/c John N (our bassist) has been gettin his new house done; but we'll get back in it soon enough. More Shit About Me:*~-4 months and 25 days of sobriety-~* *~-Since june '06 i HAVEN'T used either of my drugs of choice, heroin or fentanyl-~*religion: i like to say my religion is science. but my beliefs and philosophy can be classified as agnostic existentialism. i think that religion is the opiate of the masses. it is a disease. Religious faith isn't anything but following blindly in my opinion. Religion is nothing more than a collective set of opinions on philosophy that a group of people adhere to w/o questioning, philosophizing, or doubting. I don't believe anything i can't prove; thats why my religion is science. My opinions on the unprovable are my own; not anyone else's opinion, that is why i don't believe in relgion. The only true way to believe in any sort of unprovable is through your own logic and philosophy, not someone else's.

My Interests


Greed: Low
Gluttony: Low
Wrath: Very High
Sloth: Low
Envy: Very Low
Lust: Very High
Pride: High
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Dating Strengths Dating Weaknesses
1. Appearance - 87.5%
2. Intelligence - 85.7%
3. Confidence - 77.8%
4. Open-Mindedness - 72.7%
5. Independence - 71.4%
1. Vanity - 83.3%
2. Financial Issues - 63.6%
3. Negative Reputation - 55.6%
4. Temper - 50%
5. Arrogance - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Appearance - Despite what some will say, appearance matters in dating. You get high marks on appearance. Just make sure you balance it out with other qualities.
Intelligence - Your sharp intellect is a valuable asset. Use your intelligence wisely; avoid condescension. Quiet, confident intelligence is very attractive.
Confidence - You are sure of yourself and confident of your abilities. Displays of confidence go a long way when attracting a date.
Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available girls.
Independence - Your strong sense of independence comes in handy while dating. You are not held back or tied down; you are free to pursue your interests.

Dating Weaknesses Explained
Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial.
Financial Issues - Your financial situation is not in good shape, and this does not bode well for you on the dating scene. Try to get on top of your financial difficulties.
Negative Reputation - Your reputation may be working against you. Sometimes this is impossible to control, but try to counter-act it by presenting yourself in positive ways.
Temper - You need to work on controlling your temper. Don't let your anger get the best of you. A calm and rational persona is important when dating.
Arrogance - You are a bit full of yourself. You need to practice a little humility now and then, as arrogance can be a turn-off.

Take the Dating Strengths and Weaknesses QuizSome major interests of mine are: guitars/writing for the band, guns, shooting guns (at the range of course), history & war, astronomy/ cosmology, pharmacology, political science, psychology, philosophy, calculus, physics, biology, neurology & neuropharmacology.. I also enjoy and am quite good at any and most sports: football, baseball, bowling, basketball, frisbee, anything athletic and physical! physics: (particle physics, superstring theory/M-theory, theoritical physics, astrophysics) politcal science (social libertarianism, social anarchasim, anarcho-capitalism, marxism)--------------I am a recovering heroin addict.. some people can use drugs recreationally, i fuckin can't however. when i do drugs, i'll do 'em to DEATH, literally.
Your Brain is 20% Female, 80% Male
You've got the brain of a manly man
Feelings, schmeelings... tears aren't for you.
You could break both legs and not get misty eyed.
A great problem solver, nothing ever phases you. What Gender Is Your Brain?

I'd like to meet:

political views: cultural, social liberalist --- internationalism, cultural libertarianist; economic conservative, green party has some good idea's goin too.pet peeves: traffic lights/red lights, commercials, bus stops, anything that involves waiting. racism/supremacism, overly religious people who try to push their beliefs onto me, Sloppy eating (slurping, chewing w/ mouth open, etc) like darrel's fag ass, EMO music, SCREAMO music, songs w/o solo's in them. Clammy hands, like darrel's fag ass. Too many cocks in porn flicks, breast implants, mosquito's, ticks, gnats, flies. Childishness, people who are pretentious, People w/ a 'holy-ier than thou' attitude. people who do drugs to be cool. people who flaunt their drug use (to be cool). people who have a romanticized view on heroin addiction. people who attempt suicide for attention, and people who just act out in general for attention.
Your Personality Is Like Heroin
You're capable of the highest highs and the lowest lows.
Addicted to feeling good, you're strong and capable, but guarded, cool and collective
You are very addictive, people always seek you out! What Drug Is Your Personality Like?
Other Random Information:
Birthdate: March 5, 1985 Height: 6'0 Weight: 170 lbs Eyes: hazel Ethnicity: nearly 100% german. my grandpa faught on the russian front for the germans in WWII. And i have a lot of cousins who were in the waffen SS. i'm the first generation born in america and i speak a bit of german.. favorite type of beer: bock beer, i don't drink anymore though favorite brand of beer: warschteiner & shiner bock. favorite type of liquor: bourbon and whiskey. tequilla is a close second.. favorite brand of liquor: old grand dad, again, i don't drink anymore. favorite drug: well, unfortunately i'll always love heroin. but now i have a CHOICE to never use it again. and i wont. favorite type of women: dark skinned, preferably persian or spanish.. italian's are cute too. I'm fine w/ white girls though too, but usually brunnettes. favorite food: spatzle.. german cheese noodles.. political party affiliation: democratic reform party, green party. political philosophy: internationalist, social, economic liberalist. cultural libertarian. religious philosophy: i encorporate philosophy from all types of religions into my own beliefs. From buddhism, to christianity, to satanism. view on american foreign policy: its a disaster. we have given up political reasoning for warfare and nation building. Guns and bombs don't kill ideals, we have to fight terrorism by first fighting illiteracy, malnutrition/starvation, and poverty. These nations are so poor and undereducated, their only means of defense is through terrorism. If we take away that poverty and illiteracy, the terrorism and hatred for the west will slowly diminish. view on gun control: people need a means to defend theirselves. I personally believe that guns should not be so widespread and readily available. Their sale should be socialized, so that more regulation can be implimented on them. But w/ that said, i don't believe this should occur in the U.S. b/c it is explicitly written in the constitution that every man has the right defend himself, and has the right to bear arms. view on the war on drugs: drug minimzation! socialized production, manufacture, and sale of drugs. decriminalize the recreational user and addict. view on the middle east: we have to stop blindly supporting israel and build better relations with the arab world. We need to first and foremost do this by giving more economic aid and even military support to Palestine.

Music:

grunge/punk: nirvana & alice in chains are my two favorite, the jesus lizard, queens of the stonage, toadies, mudhoney, meat puppets, neil young, the wipers/greg sage, fang, tiger bear wolf, anti-flag, soundgarden & audioslave, stone temple pilots & SOME velvet revolver, sex pistols, ramones, PEARL JAM SUCKS except for a FEW songs...
classic rock/hard rock: older tool (opiate,undertow, & AEnima days... laterus and after SUCKED) black sabbath, zeppelin, hendrix, neil young...

Movies:

'lock, stock, and two smoking barrels' 'romper stomper' (no its not a porn, nazi's in aussie-land) 'american history X' 'pulp fiction' 'resivoir dogs' 'jackie brown' 'being john malcovich' godfather saga's, 'good fellas' ehhhhhhhh can't think of anymore

Television:

military channel, espn, espn2, espn news, science channel, history channel, discovery channel, discovery times... only 8 channels i watch. unless there's porn on... I watch seinfeld religiously, but the only other fictional/ entertainment TV i watch is futurama, family guy, and dog the bounty hunter--Everything else... documentaries..

Books:

Books: 'a brief history of time' stephen hawking. 'plan of attack' bob woodward. 'the stranger' albert camus. 'cosmic landscape: string theory and the illusion of intelligent design' leonard susskind. 'my life' bill clinton. 'cannabis in medical practice' mary lynn mathre, ed. 'mechanisms of tolerance and dependence' nida 54. 'opioid peptides: molecular pharmacology, biosynthesis, and analysis' nida 70. NOVELS ARE GAY i hate fiction... give me a good text book any day..

Heroes:

US servicemen
Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking
You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal.
You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk.

You should major in:

Philosophy
Music
Theology
Art
History
Math Sciences/Calculus What Should You Major In?

My Blog

New song, the outbreds-

UPDATE: OKAY, like most shit i do in the band... this song was dissolved into two different songs and the lyrics went to another one.  Wish i was such a perfectionist in other parts of life ...
Posted by umm, i'm an addict stupid! on Fri, 02 Feb 2007 06:49:00 PST