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dolly demise

carve your name into my arm

About Me

i am your art school girlfriend staring blankly with wide eyes in the back of the classroom... i am your nightmare that wakes you up shaking in the middle of the night... i am your pristine porcelain doll sitting on your display shelf collecting dust... i am your fairy tale that has the unhappy ending... i am the lonely restlessly walking this earth in search of an answer... i am the tortured wrestling with the torment of an overactive mind... i am subhuman, the creature that has no place...i am one

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My Interests

computers, art ESPECIALLY POP ART!, painting, mixed-media, music, hello kitty, tattoos, piercings, billy corgan/smashing pumpkins, veganism/animal rights, cats, manga/anime, pop culture, news, dinosaurs, godzilla, organized crime, depression, poison, pharmacology, criminology, psychology, archeology, the dark side, blood, lust, cooking, sewing, michaelangelo di buonarroti, paul cezanne, andy warhol, marliyn monroe, pulp fashion and VEGAS BABY!
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I'd like to meet:

i want to meet an honest soul with integrity and consideration. i want to stare into the eyes of everafter and see through to the clear of tomorrow. i want to drink in the innocence of yesterday with the boldness of the future. i want to meet the beauty around me and kiss it on the forehead. i want to meet people who see life in the same sequence of unlikely events candy strung together by a fragile commonality. most of all, i want to touch the nurturing hand of the comforting hereafter.

Music:

music that soothes the savage beast - the bittersweet ballads of the sirens - the mesmorizing melodies that charm the soul - meaningful chaos - and sweet delicious harmonies.

Movies:

empire records, amelie, fight club, party monster, 16 candles, pretty in pink, breakfast club, hackers, how to make an american quilt, resvoir dogs, usual suspects, swingers, office space, 10 things to do in denver when you're dead, vegas vacation

Television:

PRISON BREAK!!! inked, american chopper, monster garage, monster house, king of the hill, degrassi:next, reality tv, crank yankers, emeril live, IRON CHEF, the news, the simpsons, family guy, robot chickie!!!, deadliest catch, family plots, dog the bounty hunter, las vegas:garden of love, oz, entourage, whose line is it anyway?

Books:

the mummy by anne rice, lost souls by poppy z. brite , art books

Heroes:

cleopatra, marilyn monroe, billy corgan, robert smith, morrissey, hello kitty, wonder woman, pablo picasso, paul cezanne, michelangelo, andy warhol and the Virgin Mary.

My Blog

i drag behind

you got A's on your algebra testI failed and they kept me behind...a curtain much like the mysteryof insanity...the great infinityan eternity of you and mea silent solaceof quiet inhibitionof uncontro...
Posted by dolly demise on Tue, 09 Oct 2007 12:47:00 PST

save me

sweet sanctityhow you cloak meand protect mefrom the outside worldyou look at mevery distantlywith complete empathyyet know not whyi sabotage meconstantlyquite candidlyin plain view of allyou cry for ...
Posted by dolly demise on Mon, 23 Jul 2007 07:28:00 PST

social castaway

city sailorlost at seasurroundedby the hostilityof sudden silencefrom a hurting mindin a sea of humanityi sail aloneskimming slightlyatop the waterto not get defiledby the unholinessof the surrounding...
Posted by dolly demise on Sun, 24 Jun 2007 01:27:00 PST

to be safe

reclaimedbut not by muchfighting off the demonsbut getting pulled under by themat the same timeit burns deeplyaffecting every aspect of liferandom memoriesdo more damage than goodwhen did it all ...
Posted by dolly demise on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 11:44:00 PST

the color of despair

translucent haze swallows me wholei can open my eyes only far enough to seethe betrayal and sadness all around medisillusioned only long enough to hurti curse fog inside my mind it traps me in this ap...
Posted by dolly demise on Fri, 08 Jun 2007 05:13:00 PST

monstra

you see me as innocenta vision of normalitybut you don't knowexamine my scars closely,my friends...count the ugliness i harbori hurtand that creates a need for bloodto hurt as i amand things get all j...
Posted by dolly demise on Tue, 15 May 2007 12:31:00 PST

the little voice

crying unheard in the nighttear-stained cheeksand puffy-eyedi look in half amazmentis the world deaf?why does my voicego unheard?i screami cryi yelland nothingjust a whisper in the winda gentle sugges...
Posted by dolly demise on Tue, 15 May 2007 12:10:00 PST

tell me how you'd imagine it to feel...

to be told that records are more important than you...to be told that it was wished you would have hung yourselfthat the site of you swinging there is the funniest thing ever seento be left to die on ...
Posted by dolly demise on Tue, 15 May 2007 06:29:00 PST

the end and new beginning

you never loved meyou never willand i finally accept itfinally after all this timeall this painyou have just used mecompletely for your own benefitand in my naivety thinking it was lovei believed in y...
Posted by dolly demise on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 11:47:00 PST

enjoy the silence

taking a minute to thinkto hear the air around youand sense of life to passto swallow a bite of timeand savor every morseluntil it eventually melts awaythe more you relish the momentthe more...
Posted by dolly demise on Sat, 21 Apr 2007 02:21:00 PST