So, I am a fat chick not the best looking in the world, however; beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. I like that quote even though I don't exactly follow it. I always seem to judge people before I meet them, even though I really shouldn't; but if you look at my point-of-view, some grown ass men that you meet SEEM to be nice and harmless, but really they are either a. a serial killer or b. a child molester. Another good example is when you marry your guy/girl of your dreams. You guys have been together for about ummm?....4 years and already have kids. All of a sudden he/she comes to you and tells you their gay....and explains on how much they had butt sex or sizzored each other. ANYWAY......
Im still in High School for the love of the fuck and the older I get the fun times seem to go faster and the hard times seem to travel by your side slow and keeping you that way. Fuck it. We are all supposed to experince the worst shit not all the time good. Life would be boring as hell. lol
I hate to party even though I would like to get drunk every now and then! I try my best to avoid any kind of party that has more than 10 people there. Not to sound like an emo bitch but I seem to be the one that is left out at parties or never invited. So yeah, fuck that I choose to be bored. Most of the time its my stupid ass that screws it up for me. Honestly, I can make myself look like a total asshole. Its not completely other peeps fault.
OH YEAH. Just to get this out of the way. I really hate that top 8 bullshit. If your gonna judge your friendship just because your "best-friend" didnt put you as number one, DOES NOT mean you should lose your fucking mind over that! I have seen that shit happen to much and seen friends hate each other after that. That is redicoulous! I have alot of friends on my list but I only put band and comedians on the top 8 list. No one else to avoid that certain situation.
I love being a loner half the time, even though its really depressing. lol And I will openly admit that I love it. I feel like some one free of trying to please someone else. Sometimes, I would love to have a good conversation w/ one of my buddies but they just end saying,"huh?" after wards. Some of the things I talk about are like a crack head understanding and explaining physics! Im a weird person and I like weird things and talk about weird things. No harm in that.=)
I still hear that question weather or not if Im a goth kid. Why do people still care about that? I really really hate that. I mean just because I wear all black all the time and do freaky shit does not mean im the "devil worshiping, bible bashing, crying son-of-a-bitch about everything that all believe "goth" kids are. We CAN be the most normal of them all. (then again...what is normal?)
