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*Nicole*

I got soul but I'm not a soldier

About Me

Life is a series of experiences. Good, grand, spectacular, boring, bland, familiar, amazing, sentimental, rigid, on-going, bold, couragous, beautiful, ugly, detrimental, tragic, unexplained, henious, wired, lucid, mistaken, animalistic, provoking..... and it can either leave you feeling empty and bewildered, or fulfilled and euphoric. Most of the time it's one after the other. I have come to an ambiguous understanding that life has it's purpose... a purpose that is differentiated by those who choose to pay attention. I currently pay fierce attention. I love caving into my impulses as they are a true reflection of what really makes me tick. I also adore picturing my future- so here lies the conflict *jump on the impulse, or use my brain to play it smart....* Quite often I say screw the smart. While I do not have substancial answers towards all questions or scenarios swarming around me, especially those directed towards me, I understand the unique emotions involved in the ridiculous motion we all call life. I also understand that I don't have a grasp on my emotions, which is also by choice. I could care less what others think of me, and I could care less if people find that I don't approach life the same way most do. I get why I think the way that I do. I get why I feel the things I feel, and really, that's all to be expected. Run along side me or get lost. I'll miss you, but that's just the way it goes. I don't expect others to buy into 'my way' but I do expect others to respect who I am, and I will do the same, and we shall have a grand ol' time... *promise*. The meaning of life is always meant to be discovered at the end of your life, right? So I will stagger through the emotions... the bland, the boring, the detrimental, the provocative, the unexplained, the simple, the sober and drunk enigmas of life ... until I am 80 and either saturated or diluted enough to smile at "LIFE" and think aloud, "who the fuck cares" :) Message is plain and cliche'... I'm only here once. I intend to break the limitations if you will. Confused yet?

My Interests

Uhm... everything? There's a bunch of stuff I can't stand -some things I wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole... but for the most part I'm open-minded to any experiences out there. I grove on experiencing new places, people, things, moments.... I crave what I have yet to know.

I'd like to meet:

The real life equivalent of Steven Hyde from That 70's Show~ I'd make babies with him in a heartbeat for so many effing reasons. On a mor realistic and serious note- People who think outside the box. More importantly, outside themselves. People who know they're missing out on something, and care to explore and discover as much as I do. People who aren't afraid to let life swoop them up and take them where it pleases. People who don't resist emotional currents. People who fight against those who challenge them to be anything other than who they wish to be. People who know they have a kind heart. Those who have a passion for something **ANYTHING** even if they aren't quite ready to let it bust through the seams. People who feel aLIVE.... or need to begin feeling alive... Oh and duh'~My one and only someone. -Even if ya don't wanna chat, I wanna know who and what your favorite artists, musicians, books are. Send a 'quickie message':)THANKS!:) OK Go - "Here It Goes Again" Buy OK Go - Oh No at iTunes.

Music:

I couldn't imagine waking up one day without a beat in my feet/fingers driving down the road.. or a hum*sweet song playing in my mind walking into work.. or a heartdive emotionally driven flow from my throat. If I couldn't sing, I'd lose my utmost form of release and expression. Not sure how my personality would turn out.. I have more fun with my music, even hunnier moments with my voice than I do with most people.Sarah McLachlan is a goddess. Ani Difranco is inspiring.Jason Mraz pampers my spirit.Poe makes me push myself.. in the most delicate way. That bitch. I'll leave that as the tip of my singer/songwriter passionlist. I have noticed I adore a whole lot of goofy stuff. I attempted tuning into mainstream music, and realized as always, it strangles my mind. I appreciate artists who have powerful messages to convey, especially when the lyrics are potent and simple. There's a flip-side to my passion for music... hoppy, jumpy, flashy, goofy, loud, almost annoying, hyper, sun-shiny makes you wanna :) FUCKING SMILE :) and dance in circles with no concern for what you look like are also must-haves in my life. Under my friends list are piles of such artists, check em' out.

Movies:

Anything with Johnny Depp, the man knows what he's doing. Finding Neverland, Garden State, Breaking the Waves, Dancer in the Dark, Party Monster, Flushed Away, Chicago, Sweet November, What about BoB?, Zoolander, Dodgeball, Anchorman "I'm in a glass case of EMOTION!!", Earth Girls are Easy, A lot like love, Clue, Me You and Everyone We Know, Ocean's Eleven, Shawn of the Dead, Kill Bill volumes 1&2, Chocolat, Memiors of a Geisha, The Departed... Oh gosh~ all war movies, dumb and brainless comedies, zombie movies, football movies, all animated films and those that force conversations in a parked car, in some random parking lot, til' 3 am ;) Can someone please gimme her.. .?

Television:

I'm currently digging through That 70's show and The Office. I need a new drama or mystery of some kind to mix it up, any suggestions? Buffy the vamp. slayer, Angel and Alias are the fave shows completed thus far. Still working on 3rd Rock from the Sun. Otherwise I don't watch what currently plays on t.v. cause I'm never around to catch eps.

Books:

My absolute favorite page-turner "White Oleander" by Janet Finch (*PS, book way freakin' better than the movie*). "Running with Scissors" was excellent! Definitly a bizarre read that deserves a better movie. The movie was great, and they got the Finch house down pat- but they lightened up the psychotic behavior just a bit. What else.. "False Memory" by Dean Koontz (aside from the murders, the condition the female has in this book is a look into my mind). Others by him as well. "The Guided Tours of Hell" was an excellent look into all the malarky people think about but barely seem to notice, let alone vocalize. I'm working on "Lisey's Story" by Stephen King and "The Black Dahlia" and "Party Monster" by James St. James (whacky fucking book so far). There are other randoms but hey, who on eeerth* reads this part anyway?

Heroes:

When I see "Heroes" I think "You're my HERO!" like in the movies y'know. Still, no one Hero can save the world. That's why there's laughter to make up for all the tears being shed. I deeply admire anyone who delights in making others laugh. That being said.. Jeff Dunham and his fabulous friends.. Mr. Bean.Eddie Izzard.
Get this video and more at MySpace.comJim Carrey.Robin Williams.Vince Vaughn.Pauly Shore.Brendan Fraser.Will Ferrell. Oh, and these guys... These dudes never let me down.