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Remi de Lino

i exist to bring Love to the raped masculine.

About Me


everything i do i do with grace.
there's much to say about me, but i must confess that i express myself best in bed. so if you want to get to know me from my great tap root, find us a bed, love. and i bet you think i mean that whore-ishly, and that's alright.
my name is remi de lino, as a whole. i carry fragments of other males within my being, so if you ever hear me refer to myself by a name other than remi, you'll undersand (maybe). at the forefront of these males is imer. imer is remi spelt backwards, obviously, but the more profound significance of this is that my purpose in this life is to retrieve something, to uncover a recovery. see, imer is the saint who became remi. remi is the memory loss, the effect. imer is the cause. so it is my place to reteach remi how to know and be imer.
my origins lie within the god-force, and therefore i am, as is everything in existence, a fragment of god. and in my viewpoint, god is an infinite energy that encompasses light, compassion, love, justice, forgiveness, non-judgment, sharing, openness, unity - you get the picture. i am made of these essenses, and since this massive force of light is my original form, this means that i am far older and more powerful than any negative bullshit this lost world may bring to me. i am a vessel of god, and it is my right and destiny to learn to manage both my light and my darkness. i will contain my fire. i WILL it.
i am a gnostic christian and a student of kabbalah. i am deeply inspired by the sacred prostitute, and i feel the sacred prostitute aspect within my being. a sacred prostitute is a being who holds the sacred (spirit) and the profane (flesh) in a balanced as a whole. this being's life's mission is to mend the sacred union between spirituality and sexuality that the church invaded and ultimately tore apart in the human psyche. it's about the revival of sensuality.
i am a homosensual. i detest the word 'homosexual' and rarely use it because misguided and uninformed individuals may not be able to transcend the sex aspect of the word.
i am a vulgarian, but i try (keyword: try) not to curse, and by curse i simply mean that i try not to use words, any words, against another human being.
i am a survivor of multiple incestual rapes, and child abuse.
say NO! to shame. boys, say FUCK NO! to shame!
i'm in the business of exchangin' information. in fact, there's gonna be trouble.
girls love me and boys think i'm weird, but that's alright, ya see, cause in MY hood it's bros before hoes. muthafucka.
TROSPER
don't you know my sister loves me?
i survived the heat in Trosper. don't think i'll let you forget what i survived in Trosper.
in a town called mission, in an aloe vera field, a twenty-minute bike ride from my house, he came at me with some rusted blades. spittle and burn, my initiator. you'll carry this with you until the sun sets the moist ground aflame.
is that my path you're opening in the form of a wound? you're not a scarecrow. the crows believe me, they love me. they'll eat your lungs for this.
you cut with style, i'll give you that, but you'll never cut deep enough. no, beneath this wound there is a light far older than this, and you.
don't you forget what you put me through on Trosper. don't you forget the prying of my pubescent thighs. don't you forget my shrieks plastered across your fingers. they didn't reach heaven in time. the angels turned their faces. they wouldn't dare betray you. but my shrieks are still on your fingers and i will have them back.
there's a thin pale sheet between us, and some god or another wraps it tightly around my body. this is the only safety christendom has to offer. pale sheets. my only wish is to be transparent, but this isn't safety at all. pale sheets or oak, the blood will always soak through, and show himself. whose god is in the blood? i am in love and lust with the light bearer.
those dolores bells don't ring here anymore. the church has crumbled, and in her place a scarlet terror stands erect. a priest is born! a priest is born! st imer, this boy dies here.
-remi de lino. feb. 2006.
if you need me, me and 'chele'll be hangin' out with the dream king. 'chele says Hi, by the way. i can't believe yer leavin' cause me and hitler love blonde, blue-eyed boys...
You scored as C.G. Jung. You are more of a spiritualist than would be immediately apparent. Some of your notions are questioned by the cynical, but deep down you know the human consciousness is more than the flesh and tissue can account for. You tend to take a scientific observationist look on matters the average person wouldn't even begin to analyze. You personally are responsible for most of the ideas that are floating around in modern psychologist's/psychic's paltry little skulls. On the down side, you tend to be associated with that asshole Freud.

C.G. Jung


92%

Dante Alighieri


67%

Jesus Christ


67%

Friedrich Nietzsche


67%

Sigmund Freud


50%

Elvis Presley


50%

O.J. Simpson


42%

Steven Morrissey


42%

Stephen Hawking


33%

Mother Teresa


25%

Miyamoto Musashi


25%

Adolf Hitler


17%

Hugh Hefner


17%

Charles Manson


0%
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My Interests



THE GNOSTIC SOCIETY LIBRARY; The Nag Hammadi Library

Androphile Gay History Project: The World History of Male Love

I HUNT in the name of self-examination:

and...

aid,
androgyny,
angel studies,
animal kingdom documentation,
ariel,
autobiography,
autonomy,
bearing fruit,
beingness,
bleeding in healing,
blonde boys,
brown may be sweeter,
cameras,
catholic imagery,
choirboys,
cock fights,
co-creation,
coffee,
collecting perspectives,
compassion,
dance art,
darkness,
death of bluebonnets,
depression,
digital fotography,
direct links between souls,
documentation,
dream interpretations,
earth,
elephant rage,
entrance to the honey planet,
erectus,
evolution,
exhibitionists,
exiled adam,
fatherhood,
fire manipulation,
fire,
fireflies,
fotography,
fragments,
frames,
gatekeepers,
gnostic gospels,
grief,
guardians,
hard dicks,
headflames,
healing,
history of christianity,
history of violence,
homosensuality,
honeystreams,
horses,
humor,
imagery,
integration,
interconnectedness,
interpretive dance,
kabbalah,
life-force,
light,
lioness,
love in action,
love set you going...,
lucifer,
masculine,
masturbation,
may love conquer all...,
medieval torture,
meditation,
minimizing judgment on insanity,
mirrors with gold frames,
motherhood,
music,
mutual masturbation,
nature is ancient,
non-judgment,
nudity always and in All Ways,
openness,
original sin-suality,
otherworlds,
pale-ness,
patience,
penetration,
perversion,
piano,
poeticism,
prophet(s) and prostitute(s), psyche. flesh. spook.,
rape studies,
raped boy regains consciousness,
rectal warmth,
religious studies,
removal of shame,
sacred feminine,
sadomasochism,
scarlet reaches,
scars,
self-examination,
self-portraiture,
sexual healing,
sexual rage,
sexual tenderness,
shadow studies,
spirit of rape,
spirit world,
spiritual boys that people like to call "nutjobs",
statue gardens,
stretchmarks,
suicidal boys are the sexiest,
tapestries,
tree of knowledge,
tree of life,
truth despite fear,
tulips,
unconditional love,
uncovering and protecting innocence,
unity,
universal law,
vanity,
veins,
wisdom in the all,
written word,
yoga,
zazen.

i bring Love to this thing that threatens my fires:

"Lest You Tell Father"

Your heart
It pounds on my face
Your skin
My skin - the earthquake

You put this in me

You gave me your plague
and it killed my memory
You'd love to forget about me

And your veins
they wrapped around my neck
and my face
and my wrists
and my legs
and I could not move
There was mother's heel on the floor
jammed into my ribs
and my hair
and my skull
and my brain
and I could not move

I reeked of sex as a child
and you were attracted to me
And you would touch me
and kiss me
and lick me
and suck me
and force me to do the same to you
Then you'd grind your dick into me
because I was a sexy child
Where is my sexiness now?
Where did it go?
You took it from me, didn't you, you Thief!?
You Thief like Shakespeare
using what doesn't belong to you

I WILL KILL YOU
I will steal your comfort
and your saftey
and I will burn your hiding place
You better pray to your God you die
before I get my hands on you
because wherever you're hiding I will find you
and I will kill you in the only way I know how to kill -
- the way that you killed me

And you killed me
and I went to heaven and I went to hell
and I became lovers with god and the devil and Hitler
and any savage murderer who could understand me
They have nurtured me
and they will help me kill you
and you never should have!

And I was afraid of me - the animal
the animal that you left behind when I died
I am no longer that
I am a god now and I have no name
See, this is why god never progessed
He has a name
Fucking Jehovah
But not me, my sweet intuition,
I don't have a name!

And you'd love to forget about me
but no, you faggot! I am coming soon
And it will all be clear
and you will remember every detail
all the details I have carried with me -
- every time you pierced me
and all of your blood cells will wail on account of me
You faggot, I am coming soon!

I never forgot you
I remember you, you Lion
When the Law came and you became a mouse
and you ran to hide with your truck
You ran!
And I was terrified for 21 years -
- afraid for my life
and you were the mouse
I should have killed you then
I was Eleven.
Rat, I will stamp on you so hard every womb will bleed
I will eat your guts
and your fur
and your bones
and your shit, too
And I will spit you into your mother's mouth
and push you down her throat -
that old, dying whore
Whore with her cancer
Whore with her AIDS
The poison of you will induce her death
And I will laugh and dance about
and sing HAPPY DAYS as she falls to the ground
Scrapping her neck and beating her chest
"OH HAPPY DAYS, WHEN JESUS CAME!"
I will scream it at the top of my lungs

Every night for a few hours
All my life
I had become you
As much as I hate you
and god knows how I hate you
this is true
And I will kill you
even if I have to kill myself, too
to remove all traces of you

Your heart
The way it used to pound on my face
Your heart - in Hell
will pound for escape
forever
and No - Never - No Escape

You should have never fucked me
My hole - my hole is the holiest, you see

-by Remi de Lino, September 9, 2004

I'd like to meet:



whoever finds this video funny...

"A Banana for Antha":

Music:



being the holy fag i am, i listen mostly to women that are both priestess and prostitute, including:
Madonna,
Tori Amos,
Sinead O'Connor,
P J Harvey,
Fiona Apple,
Regina Spektor,
Android Lust,
Courtney Love,
and Patti Smith.

Iggy Pop and Michael Stipe (R.E.M.) move me.

Movies:



the Land Before Time,
I'm Going To Tell You A Secret,
Borat,
Dogville,
the Princess And The Warrior,
the Magdalene Sisters,
the Da Vinci Code,
A Life Less Ordinary,
Dummy,
the Chronicles of Narnia,
Billy Elliot,
Moulin Rouge,
the Rose,
Sleepying Beauty,
A History of Violence,
Aeonflux,
the Passion of the Christ (altho i am currently banning all things mel gibson),
Crash,
Bad Education,
3-Iron,
Sin City
Batman Returns,
the Omen (6.6.06),
the New World,
Lady in the Water,
Village of the Damned,
Drop Dead Fred,
Evita,
the Last Unicorn

everything and anything Marilyn Monroe ever did.

Television:



National Geographic Channel documentaries.

I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4

Books:



i read, and i read a lot. i read mostly self-help, spirituality, and poetry books, and autobiographies written by people who are brave enough to tell their truths despite their fears.

and i HEART visual art books - namely photography.

Heroes:



my sister Cristabel is my savior because the fact of the matter is that without her existence i would not have survived my childhood.

madonna is my mother:

i exist in the name of healing:

My Blog

and now jenni wants me to return to her...

...a computer that she GAVE me.  and it was a broken hand me down that her brother gave her.  she already had a computer so she gave the one i am currently usin to me.  and i fuckin FIX...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 11:43:00 PST

H&M's ''M by Madonna'' press release.

from www.drownedmadonna.com: MADONNA JOINS WITH H&M TO CREATE FASHION LINE A modern twist on feminine classics The creative collaboration between Madonna and H&M continues with the arrival of the "M b...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 12:18:00 PST

apparently the truth is funny

30 secrets about yourself.1. Is your default your natural hair color?lol... tis a black and white image, but yea... my natural hair color is black... with some red ones spread thru-out.2. Where was yo...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 10:09:00 PST

oooo, daddy!

HIT ME!madonna, fotographed by steven klein, modelin her new clothin line called "M by Madonna" for H&M.(thanks to the lovely richie for postin this piccerooo.)-remmors....
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 01:56:00 PST

oooo, mamadonna!

mmm, daddy...i love elegance with a lil' kink.-remmors.
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 11:50:00 PST

this jerk off on tv compared anna nicole to...

...paris hilton. and said that they were both famous for "being famous."um... no. anna nicole actually WORKED to get where she was. whether you liked her methods or not is irrelevant. the FACT is that...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 03:45:00 PST

who's gonna make me laugh regardless of my mood now?

who's gonna let me know that it's ok to have a few lbs packed on and STILL be able to feel beautiful and enjoy life?who's gonna teach me how to be cute and sexy and love-able even tho my life is full ...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Fri, 09 Feb 2007 05:40:00 PST

myselves in the mirror. orgy.

1. When's the last time you ran?i aint been runnin in three months.2. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?yea.  some have holes in really strange places, which i hafta be careful ab...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 09:35:00 PST

o, yay! i LOVE carl jung...

...this result makes me SO happy... he's only one of my ultimate heroes.saucy!-remmors...ps: aw, but frued was just a bitter faggot. he needs compassion. You scored as C.G. Jung. You are more of a sp...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 11:00:00 PST

holy jesus! sebastien foucan...

...is most def. one of THE hottest dudes inhabitin our Mother Earth. i want one.profile on wikipediainterview on drownedmadonna.com ...
Posted by Bruno Neeko on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 04:39:00 PST