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About Me

i'm still figuring this part out. which i'm sure i will be doing forever, because i'm that self-absorbed.
currently going through some changes and...wait, that's the norm. then again nothing is normal. except change.
this photo is 6 years old. i look exactly the same. on the outside.
whatever the hell this means:

Arena

(known to self and others)

extroverted , idealistic , intelligent , proud , silly , witty

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

able , adaptable , bold , brave , caring , cheerful , clever , complex , confident , dignified , energetic , happy , independent , ingenious , loving , powerful , reflective , searching , self-assertive , self-conscious , spontaneous , warm , wise

FaÃ§ade

(known only to self)

Unknown

(known to nobody)

accepting, calm, dependable, friendly, giving, helpful, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, logical, mature, modest, nervous, observant, organised, patient, quiet, relaxed, religious, responsive, sensible, sentimental, shy, sympathetic, tense, trustworthy

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My Interests

I be enthusiastic about people, my people, more people, and theories and plants and animals and arguments and adventures and dreaming and music and books and living and laughing and lovemaking

I'd like to meet:

Interviewers.

Music:

lay down and let the tunes in.

deeply, always.
Dead can dance, Regina Spector, Feist, Sufjan Stevens, Brandi Carlile, Joni Mitchell, Johnny Clegg & Savuka, Sade, Tori Amos, Portishead, Bjork, Delerium, Damien Rice, Jeff Buckley, Indigo Girls, Neil Young, Crosby, Stills, & Nash, Dylan, Stones, Ani Difranco, Carrie Newcomer, KD Lang, Ferron
Peter Tosh, The Killers, smashing pumpkins, The White Stripes, Mia and Jonah, Nina Simone, the Waifs, KT Tunstall, Cat Power
The Decemberists, Diamonds and Rust, Blue Man Group, Aimee Mann, Red Ghost, String Cheese Incident, Ben Harper, Jack Johnson, Tonic, Pat McGee Band, Van Morrison, Cat Stevens, 10,000 Maniacs, The Pretenders, Michelle Shocked, Ryan Adams, Beatles, Leonard Cohen, Rickie Lee Jones, Peter Gabriel, Sting, Jennie Devoe, Phil Collins, Carole King, Natalie Merchant, Tracy Chapman
Bowie, Marley, Clapton, Johnny A, Elvis Costello, Herbie Hancock, Janis Ian, Bright Eyes, Death Cab for Cutie, The Cure, Modest Mouse, Alicia Keys, Lucinda Williams, Angelique Kidjo, Madonna, Johnny Cash, Billie Holiday, Big Head Todd & the Monsters, Bob Seger, Live, Jeff Beck, The Yardbirds, U2, Paul Simon, Led Zeppelin, The Electric Prunes, Jethro Tull, Genesis, Moody Blues, Stevie Nicks, Edie Brickell, Jefferson Airplane, CCR, Annie Lennox, Foo Fighters, Audioslave, Lou Barlow, Richard Thompson...

classics, jazz, blues, reggae, acoustic singer-songwriters...

Movies:

films yes: see. laugh. cry. tell.

i keep picking up movies from the library...some of them surprise me.
recently: trying to get through "The Hours" (again)
next: "Savages"
current fascination with HBO dvd series such as "Big Love"

Television:

sometimes. my neighbor ran a cable line through my basement a couple months ago. i haven't watched it yet. upstairs i have bad reception but i watch dramatic stuff like Law and Order or funny stuff like The Office.

Books:

recently: The Lovely Bones, Moral Conflict

currently: Brave New World

next: The Developing Mind

Heroes:

My Blog

I may be a damn fool, but...

I think I am one of the lucky ones. One of the consciously lucky to be alive ones. One of the few who have a peaceful perspective on death. One who gets to thoroughly enjoy the moments of ...
Posted by Cortney on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 08:36:00 PST

"Home"

To answer the question I keep getting from people: No. I am not smoking. It has been 2 weeks. But I am losing my mind, I think. Not exactly sure what is going on half the time. I stayed in bed f...
Posted by Cortney on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 10:11:00 PST

the rain falls countdown

I have a problem. No. I have many problems. But one, in particular, consumes me now. And on this cold, rainy day, and without much sleep, I can expose myself to you. At some poin...
Posted by Cortney on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 10:46:00 PST

where? HERE. when? NOW. how? you tell me!

After years of appreciating the idea of living in the present moment, theorizing about principles of the eternal now, and half-heartedly trying to practice by re-routing my thinking patterns back to t...
Posted by Cortney on Tue, 05 Sep 2006 02:05:00 PST

go! people! grow!

I said I wouldn't do it...then again I say a lot of things. Such a fucking baby I am. Such a little baby you were. And this day I held your hand and walked you to school...carrying your ne...
Posted by Cortney on Thu, 17 Aug 2006 09:24:00 PST

i needed somewhere to hang my head, without your noose

What is the difference between action and reaction? Does action always have the intention of soliciting reaction? When we are reacting, is it fair to put responsibility on the ac...
Posted by Cortney on Mon, 31 Jul 2006 04:15:00 PST

Of all things sharp in their space

I have teeth to bite you And nails to scratch you My tongue is sharpest of all. The pin cushion of trust Pierced plucked pushed and pulled A production of fabric To be worn and torn and sold. Fingers ...
Posted by Cortney on Fri, 28 Jul 2006 08:33:00 PST

Status

No, I am not smoking. Barely alive...walking around like a zombie...but not smoking! Not answering emails either. Forgive me. And thank you to everyone who came out to celebrate my ...
Posted by Cortney on Tue, 25 Jul 2006 02:59:00 PST

the second day of the rest of my life

I feel like the world should stop spinning and wait while I battle my addiction. I feel like "they" want me to run to the gas station and buy a pack of chemicals rolled up in paper to keep me ca...
Posted by Cortney on Mon, 24 Jul 2006 08:03:00 PST

For You I Will (In Lust We Trust)

I was having a conversation at work today....a conversation that started out in an intriguing way...and then I had to feign interest....because I was thinking about you. Because I was having a c...
Posted by Cortney on Fri, 21 Jul 2006 04:21:00 PST