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christian

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About Me

i dont even know Current mood: jealouswell its been a while since ive written, and for good reason, i suppose. i havent really been in a sound state of mind for the past 3 months, in fact, its been quite a veritable rollercoaster of emotion. From the highest peaks of elation, to the lowest pits of despair, i have ridden, only to return to once again an introspective stagnation, leaving me perhaps a few moments of clarity before i slip into a numb complacent gaze once again. not so much depression, but as afore mentioned, an indescribable sense of complacency has ailed me as of late, and im finding it hard to break. one night of freedom, and i find myself once more, only to return to the same establishment at dawns break, the one who owns my soul, and suddenly nothing makes sense anymore. Being in this town feels like looking through a glass window, and on the other side is an indescribable hedonist haven. Those days are over. A hedonist was laid to rest when i signed that dotted line, yet at the same time, i find myself surrounded by them, going about their way, smiling their bright smiles, kissing their beautiful loved ones, and im suffering at their expense. this looking glass is impenetrable. sometimes i feel like breaking it, but in bloody ruins, like with any broken glass, i shall return to the other side, questionably with unhealable wounds, following me, like a shadow of something i tried to ignore, but couldnt shake. theres got to be a better wayon july 30th, 2005 my best friends mother, Linda Felten tragically passed away. she was like a mother to me, and so many of my friends. i cannot truly express the pain that im feeling, but i would like to say i love you linda, im sorry i didnt get to say goodbye, but if you're watching over, ill do my best to make you proud, and make sure josh and Danielle stay on the right path. i love you so much and we're all going to miss you. you are such an inspiration to so many people, always carrying a smile on your face, always the first to try and cheer me up after a rough day, always so bright and vibrant. we all love you linda, its going to be tough without you, but i know if im having a tough time, i can always think of your infectious laugh, and know i have to keep on with my chin up. goodbye Linda, Rest In Peace.

My Interests

as i said i love to think im a comedian, so making people laugh is up there on the list. i also love to write, i've always been able to write fairly naturally so eventually id like to share my gift with the world in the form of a novel or screenplay. im actually 30 pages into my first book, and making slow progress. i love to skateboard, surf, skim, wakeboard, fish, skurf pretty much anything having to do with water or the beach, since im a pretty big beach bum. hmm what else? i absolutely love music, and going to shows. ive always loved seeing live music, it gives me quite a rush. if you're from the area and want to have your socks rocked off, go to a weaksauce show, they're like dub/rock/reggae/ska, but they're some of my best friends so check them out at www.myspace.com/weaksauce. anywho i guess that sums up my interests.

I'd like to meet:

anyone who's personality isn't as dry as a saltine cracker. jesus christ perhaps, not because im a devout christian, but ive always wanted to have a pool party, and be like jesus, walk on water, and amaze all the drunks. that would be pretty sweet. id love to meet harry and lloyd from dumb and dumber, but they're movie characters so i guess that wont be happening

Music:

hmm im pretty versatile when it comes to my taste in music. anything from oldies: CCR, Steppenwolf, led zeppelin, lynryd skynyrd, .38 special, the mamas and the papas, the beatles, boston, the eagles, jimi hendrix, pink floyd, the who, crosby stills and nash, janis joplin, bob dylan, simon and garfunkle. i could go on and on. i also love 80's music like the clash, the cure, billy idol, echo and the bunnymen, flock of seagulls, synth pop stuff like that, but im obsessed with 80's hair metal: motley crue, twisted sister, quiet riot, ratt, cinderella, ranger, whitesnake, and possibly one of my favorite bands of all times; GNR baby, GUNS N ROSES are rock legends, and i absolutely idolize them. so that brings us up to modern times i suppose. ive been to a lot of new school punk shows over the years, so i guess im a bit of a punk rocker: pennywise, nofx, rancid, all, face to face, guttermouth, strungout, lagwagon, no use for a name, rise against, bad religion, propagandhi, anti- flag, strike anywhere, (mad caddies, voodoo glow skulls, less than jake)- ska, could make a list a mile long, you get the point, those are only some of the bands ive seen. i also like 90's mainstream rock- pearl jam, alice in chains, sound garden, rage against the machine, nirvana, all that good stuff. but most recently ive been listening to a lot of metal, bands like avenged sevenfold, all that remains, trivium, chimaira, bleeding through, killswitch engage, the confession, caliban, through the eyes of the dead !long live metal. i also dabble in rap, lil jon, yingyang twins, cash money, all that stuff. i guess that was pretty thorough huh Video code provided by HotCodez.com

Movies:

DUMB AND DUMBER my absolute favorite movie of all times, just works on so many levels. apocalypse now, resevoir dogs, fargo, dead presidents, full metal jacket, fisher kings, rushmore, election, SPUN, edward scissorhands, fight club, donnie darko, kingpin, the big lebowski, super troopers, club dread, fear and loathing in las vegas, big wednsday, dogtown z boys, friday the 13th, nightmare on elm street, night of the living dead, all the cheech and chong movies, ernest goes to camp, ernest scared stupid, ernest saves christmas, ernest goes to jail, anything involving ernest. RIP Ernest, you were a comedic genious, i will forever love your work. pretty much any movie other than the mindless bullshit coming from hollywood write now, what a joke. how many stupid ass remakes will they make? honestly, come up with something original, you're given millions of dollars to make a movie, and you give us something we've already seen with modern actors, bravo hollywood, bra-fucking-vo.

Television:

FAMILY GUY- words cannot describe what this show means to me. of course the simpsons, which i grew up watching. most recently dog- bounty hunter, i cant get over how white trash that family is. reno 911, south park, shark week on discovery channel, 3 south was one of my favorite shows which aired briefly on mtv, and was the funniest thing ive ever seen RIP 3 south. chappelles show. get the point? i enjoy laughter.

Books:

i must admit, ive only read the classics, i dont really read for pleasure only because im trying to write a book and i dont want to subconciously absorb things from the books i read, and copy the ideas into my own work. but some of my favorites that ive read, War of the Worlds by H.G. Wells, Animal Farm, and 1984 by George Orwell, the Old Man and The Sea, by Ernest Hemingway, Farenheit 451, by Ray Bradbury, Night, by Elie Wiesel, anything by Steinbeck

Heroes:

Axl Rose (leading man of Guns N Roses), Jim Carey, Robin Williams, mahatma gandhi, Jesus Christ, Buddha, Mother Teresa, anyone who dedicates their life to spreading a message of peace and love, thats very admirable. Tommy Lee of Motley Crue, John Bonham (RIP) of Led Zeppelin, Keith Moon (RIP) of the who, thanks guys for bringing drummers from the back of the stage into the spotlight. (ive been playing drums for 7 years) Bob Marley (RIP), Bradley Nowell (RIP) of sublime, a real inspiration. and last but certainly not least, my brother Jesse, I love you dude if you're reading this, my mom, my dad, grandparents, all great people who've done absolutely anything to assure that ive been safe and happy throughout life. thank you

My Blog

for ava

in vain, or truly fulfilled, our dreams as children will come to pass. in materials we rose poor but in the inconcrete realm of all things sacred we were nurtured with the utmost vision of virtue. for...
Posted by christian on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 06:59:00 PST

viva las vegas

so i sit here,  bored after a long day of fighting terrorism, and keeping an ever-so watchful eye on the sweet land of liberty that i oh so love so all of you teeming masses can sleep one more ni...
Posted by christian on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 07:18:00 PST

blurbbbb

this place is getting desolate, i feel im getting old, the bitter end is just ahead, or so it seems im told. no time for repentance now, those days are far behind.do what you can, help your fellow man...
Posted by christian on Sun, 17 Sep 2006 11:55:00 PST

i dont even know

well its been a while since ive written, and for good reason, i suppose. i havent really been in a sound state of mind for the past 3 months, in fact, its been quite a veritable rollercoaster of emoti...
Posted by christian on Thu, 07 Sep 2006 05:57:00 PST

ALL YOU CLOWN HATERS

mmmmk. let me clear my throat here, because im about to go off on one of my famous tangents. k. ready. not sure where to start here, but theres definitely something thats been afflicting me lately, an...
Posted by christian on Tue, 14 Feb 2006 03:59:00 PST

more poetry, care to read?

although seemingly certain, clarity shant be acheived through lack of obstruction. observance of clouded skies and the endless storm yields an end of self destruction. come with me to a better pl...
Posted by christian on Mon, 19 Dec 2005 11:49:00 PST

what really pisses me off!!!!

ok so here it goes... for all of those who know me, you know that im not angered very easily, but there is one thing as of late that has me awake into the wee hours of morning, tossing and turning in ...
Posted by christian on Thu, 08 Dec 2005 02:03:00 PST

thoughts

though shrouded in darkness, while loathing outward, your admiration was all but obvious beneath your veil. insurmountable pain has dire consenquences, but through tragedy you shall always p...
Posted by christian on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

poetry, bitches

he came in a dream, a silouhette in darkness, a man clad in all black, son you are about to embark in a journey in which you can never go back. he said there is a defined beginning, and an uncertai...
Posted by christian on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST