R.I.P. Donald Andrew Bartlett
I Love you Daddy...
I will forever whipser on the wind to you"Look deeper into the weed blossoms as you pick the wildflowers, there is a bouqet hiding in the overshadowed too."Be Poor. Its Cheaper."Techno kills the accoustic star.""I Dont hesitate to steal bread from the mouths of decadence.""Does this shirt make me look fat? No VISION makes you look fat."And so, as one smart bear once said..."If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you." - Winnie the Pooh.L.C. and I furthering our bond....my chubby monster kitty.
..Rainbow shadows in the earth,
plural messages giving birth.
Receive the message, don't yet fear.
Your life awaits a single Tear.Mysterious, powerful-
tricksters or gods,
pixies and mixies,
and fauns and elves;
kings and queens of marvelous means?
Nature spirits or fallen angels, legend or fact?
My head spins enternal to find fairy-fact!
Brownies and gnomes, banshees and goblins,
my eyeballs revolve in my own little noggin!Tis I... Who am I? well, not much space for break down my life, but I'll try for boredoms sake. I'm 21 years old, I'm married to one of the best husbands in the world! He is a constant source of companionship, laughter, and support. I count myself so lucky to have found the one person in the world able to put up with my bitter anger, my clumsy grace, my flashing sadness, all those scars from inner shadows, my passionate affection, and my joyous laughter. All of it he accepts as a part of me, and has a special place in his life for me in all of my various moods. He is currently serving in the Air force, training, as I type this, to become a dedicated crew cheif (mechanic right behind the pilot) and an instructor for F-15 eagle model airplanes. He is out achieving his dream, not only for himself, but for me as his wife. I am so very proud of him, and the fact that it took him years to obtain that from me makes it all the more of import and note. I know now he will be the prefect husband, and one day father, once out of the military.I have a beautiful god daughter who it turning out so beautifully if, reality makes me admit, a rather spazz-tastic stand-up attitude thanks to her mom (haha Ashley!). I feel blessed to have her in my life, even if shes not my own, I love watching her grow into her own person.I was going to Houston community college, getting my basics out of the way, aspiring to transfer to a full time university to have two majors, one in Greek mythology, the other in English literature, both to help me become a writer, my own dream.I am currently living on Base in Panama City Florida, having been deployed here only four days after our Hasndfasting/wedding on March 4th. Its nice to be able to breath air with no smog/cancer/asbestos in it like houston, and go to the beach and not be afraid of oil spillage, aids infested needles, and moan-wars like galveston beach. Its gorgeous here, and the sun does do my soul some good.I have what few happy memories I have of my past to take with me to a new life. I get to go to japan, Italy, but most likly england in one year to live for 2 years or less.I've recently had the honor of being asked into an Internship program at Bear Creek Feline Sanctuary. For those of you that know a whit about me, this is the closest thing to my highest dream (other than being a writer), of owning my own wildlife sanctuary one day. I cannot begind to explain with any justifiably eloquence my feelings toward being allowed work with these amazing animals, and amazing people. The owner has taken me under his wing like a surrogate father, and has soothed my soul in ways he will never know. I currently am graced with being the human companion to one very special, and very chubby, African Serval named LC. As with most of our cats, he is a rescue. Born and raised his entire life in one dark basement, such social seregation had left his socially unsteady and unhappy. He was at Bear Creek for about two yers before I got there, and no one had taken him under them due to his personality and standoffish ways. It was love at first site. He is so very like a more chubby and fluffier me, so very misunderstood and alone so often before. I met this handsome male upon a tour at the facility, and before I knew I would ever be working there I knew upon site he needed me, and that gave me the strengh and resolve to go up to the owner and ask to become and Intern. I will never forget that gift to me. He will never be a loving sit in your lap cat, and thats ok, if I can spend the rest of his life making him more comfortable, enriched and happy, I have done more good than I could have ever hoped. I love him so, and Bear Creek has given him, like me, a brighter outlook on life that can only get better. I also work with a male siberian lynx, who was a sad recue form a pelt farm, who, like so many others, life has changed around due to the wonderful things Jim (the owner) has done. One of the top things we belive in at Bear Creek is everyone deserves a second chance, and these amazing animals are no exception. For a sneekpeak into the lives of the other felines who have so touched mine, please look into the photo album here called "My Internship at Bear Creek."I have been dedicated into the Black Forest tradition, Clan Raven of the Black rose, Coven of the Golden Dolphin, to promise to study for a year and a day all things that are Wicca. I am proud to honor lineage directly from Silver Ravenwolf, a prestigious writer known to almost all who read up on metaphysical subjects, especially Wicca. She was my teachers teacher, so its not far removed. I have meet and joined in rites some of the kindest, wise and compassionate people I have ever meet. Wicca has given me such peace of mind in enabling me to know that I Can take control of my life's energies, and help the earth while I'm at it. I wouldn't trade all the hard work I'm now into as a seeker for anything.I have two cats (Darien, the "love of my life", and Serena), Donny the bunny, Cody the turtle, Alfirg (old norse for drawf guys!) the hampster, Mano (the hawaiaan shark-god!) the fish, The Sailor Scout Sea Monkeys, my darling baby Suga- the sugar glider, and my new puppy Goblin. I got to take them all with me to Florida :P.I'm happy with my lot.I love Photography, it has helped me find beauty in this turbulent world of ours. Anything can be a snap shot, the lighting on the wall from the window in the morning, a rock cluster with the moons shadows, your husband sleeping, all hold a beauty that the beholder has only to realize, and enjoy as a gift of life. Nothing has made me more motivated to find the smallest budding beauty of life, than the tragic death of my father as of August 16th, 2007. After fighting a failing liver due to hep c for three plus years, and even though he was fighting or a liver transplant till the day he died, his bosy, his liver, then kidneys, then heart just gave up, they stopped pumping life, and his soul passed the rainbow bridge before he was ready. And all because of various doctors unwilling to treat him because treatments are expensive and we were poor. Its hell to be poor, and eventually it lead to killing him in the waiting game. He couldnt afford a liver, and he got put to the back of the line. Yet, he would want smiles with my tears, and I have tried to acheive his wish, and look toward the moon more, wispering on the wind to him, and tell him of the small joys I find in my life.That's about it, if you want to know more, your just gonna have to ask. To paraphrase (here you go monkey!), Im in love with a 360 flip masta, I love walking in the rain till im dripping waterfalls, henna, skin art, tat.'s, Marbles, playing marbles, collecting marbles, purple, caramel frappichinos, carmel candies, brownies with M and M's in then, hippos, anything thats fuzzy (except tummys, backs and ass's'), 'psghettie, the smell of new cut grass, a new rain storm. I love yelling till I cant yell anymore, I can make the best candy apple youve stuffed into your face, I have a husband I just cant stop saying I love you too, fudge making, rennissance festival, corsets, medival culture, greek mythology, greek architecture, betty boop, swimming with dolphins, recycling, taking care of our mother earth, wicca, paganism, celtic myth, living energies, The Great Mysteries, Ritualisitc meditative practices, The Great Lord and Lady, Brigit, The Morrigan, shamanism, anything vintage...ever, England, vespas, mopeds, scooters, super bee, mavericks, Classic ('50-'81)chev trucks (the only truck worth having) classic cars, antiques, paganism, the goddess, blinkies, sand dollors, pudding skins, fainting goats, cleanliness, classical guitars, accoustic/electrical guitar, ocarinas, water falls, thunder storms, those crooken walking sticks, the awsomness that is piper, my bike nad the charmed sister, having a dish washer anddddddddd I lOvE metal, death metal, grunge metal, black metal, metal core, finland metal, heavy metal, syberian metal, metal opera, classsical metal, FINLAND METAL (...seriously...the best metal comes from finland no shit...) What can I saw, Im a Metal child...ehhh...rocks okay...some punk, fuck a emo bitch, and lifes a fucking pile of shit, its when you climb to the top that your really ontop of the world...MY NEW BABY!Her Names Clara! '07 baby!And of course, my darling vespa... Piper!CURRENT MOON lunar phaseOne of those spiffy myspace surveys to fart the time away:ARE YOU:1. A Cuddler? yes
2. A morning person? no
3. Are you a perfectionist? no
4. An only child? yes
5. Catholic? AAAHHHHHH. No.
6. In your pajamas? Do panties count as pj's? YESH!
7. Currently suffering from a broken heart? Yes.
8. Okay styling other people's hair? no0o0o0o0o
9. Left handed? no
10. Addicted to MySpace? hah, lets ask the people!
11. Shy around the opposite gender? not at allDO YOU:12. Bite your nails? no
13. Get paranoid at times? sometimes
14. Currently regret something that you have said?yes
15. Curse frequently when you get mad? fuk yesh
16. Enjoy country music? ::twitches:: No.
17. Enjoy jazz music? Yup
18. Enjoy smoothies? SMOTHIE KING IS MY SQUISHY LOVER!
19. Enjoy talking on the phone? Lots...I think to much. To anyone, heh.
20. Have a lot to learn? yea
21. Have a pet? LMFAO. I'm waiting for a comment for this one...i have a veritable zoo...a sugar glider, 2 cats (thinking of another (ahhh dont hurt me!), turtle, fish tank, sea monkeys, bunny, bird, hampster.
22. Have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" person? ....
23. Have all your grandparents? no
24. Have at least one sibling? not by blood
25. Have been told that you are smart? A smart ass, and intelligent both.
26. Have a broken bone? yup
27. Have Caller I.D. on your phone? yesHAVE YOU:28. Have you changed a diaper? yea
29. Changed a lot over the past year? Gods yes
30. Have friends seen your natural hair color? yea...unfortuntly
31. Had surgery? no
32. Killed another person? in my dreams, hah....ask me.
33. Had your hair cut within the last week? ahhhh, NEVER!
34. Had the cops called on you? HAH...PDA, public obsenities, trasspassing, reckless driving, destruction of public property ( whatever, this one was for adding TUBS of bubble bath to a huge fountian in a rich neighborhood whos lawn gnome was worth more than my entire lifes earnings)LAST PERSON WHO1. Slept in your bed besides you? nobody. Cody
2. Saw you cry? Cody
3. Went to the movies with you? Kate-a-ma-tot, elisha, tall dark and sexy, and allegra
4. You went to the mall with? Kate-a-ma-tot, Mexican jumping bean and the joe-a-nator
5. You went to dinner with? Allegra
6. You talked on the phone? The wedding consultant
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it? Cody
8. Broke your heart? hmmmmm...superman and cody actually, but, live and let live, eh?
9. Made you laugh? KATEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!WOULD YOU RATHER?1. Pierce your nose or tongue? Nose
2. Be serious or be funny? funny, but 3 years before i meet cody I would have had said serious
3. Drink whole or skim milk? whole...mmmmm...
4. Die in a fire or drown? fire, im afraid of drowning
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? enemiesARE YOU..1. Simple or complicated? I can be both.
2. Gay? Straight, but sometimes i wish i could be gay bc it girls are so simplier in relationships
3. Hardcore? YEA MOTHA FUKKADO YOU PREFER. .1. Flowers or candy? Flowers AND candy
2. Gray or black? pppfftt...purple
3. Color or Black and white photos? black and white.
4. Lust or love? Love.
5. Sunrise or sunset? sunset
6. Staying up late or waking up early? staying up lateANSWER TRUTHFULLY !!1. Do you like anyone? No...I love someone...my hubby
2. Do they know it? They better!!DO YOU PREFER...1. Sun or moon? Moon
2. Winter or Fall? Winter
3. Left or right? Right
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? 2 best friends
5. Sun or rain? Rain
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate
7. Vodka or Jack? VodkaABOUT YOU!1. What time is it? 7:10 pm
2. Name? Erin
3. Nickname(s): Bean and Erin-a-tor
4. Where were you born? Houston, Tx
5. What is your birthdate? 05/22/1986
6. What do you want? The person I cant have right now.
7. Where do you want to live? ENGLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!
8. How many kids do you want? One
9. What would you want to name a girl? Serenity
10. What would you want to name a boy? Max (this is codys choice, NOT MINE!)
11. You want to get married? I am in a few monthsUNIQUE!1. Nervous Habits: twitching my fingers
2. Are you double jointed? no
3. Can you roll your tongue? no
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? yea
5. Can you cross your eyes? no, to my complete agravation
6. Do you make your bed daily? no
7. Which shoe goes on first? right
9. Ever thrown one at someone?pppfffttt...1542412325 times
10. On the average, how much money do you carry with you? Credit/Debit card, like 5.00 if im lucky
11. What jewelry do you wear? Bracelets, neckalces, and earings if im not riding muh vespa2. Have you ever eaten Spam? no, that is the meat of satan
3. Favorite ice cream? mint chocolate chip
4. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet? 8...no joke :)
5. What's your favorite beverage? MY iced tea
7. Do you cook? yup yupIN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU? (YES OR NO)1. Had a b/f or g/f? A husband
2. Bought something you didn't need? no, but I wish I could!!!
4. Sang in front of people: YES...in my wicca class
5. Been kissed: yes
6. Been hugged: yes, I hug lots of people
7. Felt stupid: Yes
8. Missed someone: yes
9. Got drunk: no
10. Got high: no
11. Danced Crazy: no
12. Gotten your hair cut: NO
13. Cried: yes
14. Lied: yea Save The World - One Click At A Time!
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.. Create Your OwnI AM A SAILOR SENSHI!Name: Sailor Elara
Title: The Shadowed Dreamer
Element of Influence: Shadows
Birthday: May 22
Age: 21
Blood Type: Unknown
Favorite Color: indigo and Silver
Favorite Food: Strawberries
Least Favorite Food: Seafood
Favorite Subject: English
Least Favorite Subject: Math
Likes: Attention from my soul mate, hippos, fuzzy kawai things
Dislikes: Ignorance, being ignored, filth
Dreams: To fullfill my dreams in Her likeness
Attacks: "Velvet Darkness Bloom"
Guardian Animal: Lynx (bobcat)
Transformation: "Shadows Submerge"Don't grieve, the Sailor Eyes
This is about you, the Sailor Wind
This song knows the path of the star
I will not lose! Towards tomorrow, with a Sailor Yell
Without doubt! We will find you! The Sailor Star
Flying upon angel's wings-Sailor Star Song-Fighting evil by moonlight,
Winning love by daylight,
Never running from a real fight,
She is the one named Sailor Moon.She will never turn her back on a friends,
She is always there to defend,
She is the one on whom we can depend,
She is the one named Sailor...Sailor Venus!
Sailor Mercury!
Sailor Mars!
Sailor Jupiter!With secret powers all so new to her,
She is the one named Sailor Moon.Fighting evil by moonlight,
Winning love by daylight,
With her Sailor Scouts to help fight,
She is the one named Sailor Moon,
She is the one named Sailor Moon
She is the one
Sailor MoonKeep in mind that my tradtion holds many people who have risen beyond "this is this" and "that is that". It is possible for a jewish women to practice the craft and Judiasm. It is possible for that Catholic gentlemen to practice the Craft and Catholism. It is possible when you let go of the idea that one group is right and the other is wrong. It is possible when you transcend the idea that Divnity belongs to olny one group of individuals. It is possible when you understand that Divinity manifests in a variety of ways within the human mind, and without it. The human, thank goddess, is not the known center of the Universe.I will serve the Great Goddess
And give reverence to the Great God
I am a Pagan
A stone in the ancient circle
Standing firmly
Balanced on the earth
Yet open to the winds of heaven
And enduring through time
May the old gods witness my words
Blessed Be.So you say you love God
and everyday you read His book
but have you ever taken a second
to take a good look?At the people around you
who believe in the same,
but they live it; not read it
so you think they are strange.I've read your book
I've heard your preachers scream
and I can tell you my dear
you live in a dream.You listen to man
and not to your heart
your faith based on words
will soon be torn apart.Don't look at me strange
when I say I'm a Witch
because if you knew what I knew
you're beliefs just might switch.You cling to Jesus
for he died for your sins;
he died for mine too
but that's just where it beginsI don't rule out
that God has come to earth
I don't rule out
that he came by his birth.But perhaps this God
about whom the stories are told
is the same God
to which my beliefs hold.You call a woman named Mary
the Mother of God.
I call his mother the Goddess
now is that so odd?My beliefs and yours
are not quite far apart;
we just have different names
for the faith in our heart.There truly is not
wrong or right
I know the great One hears me
when I pray at night.Whether he or she
Whether he or she
whether one or three
I know my creator
truly loves me.I have not judged you
so do not judge me
in time my dear
perhaps you shall see......that its not important
the faith you choose to be.
It's important you have faith
In the God that there be.~~~~Source Unknown
