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Rachel"
Ok, I know what you are thinking. Another my space page of some blonde airhead with big boobs, right? Wrong. My name is Rachel Gunn and I suffer from Ugly Duckling Syndrome. Ugly Duckling Syndrome is when someone grows up unattractive and then blossoms as they mature. I could never call myself pretty. I think being humble is a good quailty to have. I was not considered attractive growing up. I was overweight, had acne, wore glasses, crooked teeth, etc. I was not popular or part of the in-crowd. I was not a cheerleader, homecoming queen, or class president. I was teased and made fun of. Even my own best friends told me no boys would ever like me, thunderthighs, that I was ugly. Guys yelled out of their car "Jenny Craig's that way!" There were many days I ran home crying. As I've matured I am perhaps considered attractive by society and its stereotypes but I'll always feel like that homely little girl inside. Since I wasn't attractive growing up I had to develop a good heart, personality, and soul as a substitute for looks.
I'd say life has been a struggle but I use every hard thing in my life to build myself up bigger and better than before. There were times I didn't know where our next meal was coming from. I've lost houses and cars. I've been dumped, abused, and abandoned. There are going to be times when you are not treated nice. They'll say mean things to you, treat you like crap, not respect you, put you down. At the time you'll want nothing more than to quit, give it all up, but you can't let those people get to you. It's those downfalls in life that are the stumbling blocks to climb to achieve great things. It doesn't matter what people think of you, only how you feel about yourself. There are always going to be people that rain on your dreams but they have no right. Without dreams we perish. One of the sayings I live by is "When you are going through hell, keep on going." When things seem so bad that you can't go on you have to keep on going to get to the other side-the good side. Always make sure people treat you with respect. If someone talks down to you then tell them that's not right. It took me a long time to learn to speak up for myself but I always do. That's the part of me that has changed that I'm proudest of, not my looks. Looks vanish, your soul doesn't , and when I am an old woman looking in the mirror through all those wrinkles and those thick bifocal glasses I'm still going to have my strength and my soul, and that's what really matters in life. I am very old school in respect to the fact that I feel a girl should always act like a lady. I don't believe in acting trashy. A girl should always conduct herself with class. I have two daughters, Madeline, age 13, and Ivy, age 9. They are my two little angels. All I ask for them is that they are healthy and happy. I would die for them. One of the things that has helped me is modeling. I was in the 2007 Maxim Hometown Hotties Contest, the March 2007 Unrated Rock Vixen for Unrated Rock Magazine, a Cosmic Cutie for the Cosmic Tribune, and Miss My Space September 2007, Babe of the Week for BNRX.FM, April's Ride Free Girl on www.Ridefreeus.com, Toy Box Fox of the Week for the band Toy Box Heroes, and Model of the Month for www. chasing74.com. My latest accompishments are winning the Motion Picture Model Search and I am the new face/horror scream queen for the website Hack/Slash/Dead.
Photographers I have shot with are Ken Mierzwa, Jesse Gater, Tom Kruse, Sheila Cronin, Sarah Cayson, Mark Schwigen, Gabor Mayer, Aloha, Michael Draga, EDP Images, Ron Barlow, Scott Harrison, David Fish, Seth from Studio_G, Brian from Eyeworks, Sal Cincotta, and CLC Photo. I also enjoy writing. I won first place in a poetry contest for TnJ Poetry.com.
I also have written a book entitled "Over on the East Side" which has just been published by Chipmunka Publishing.
