Cheese Wheels

i like the rain, i like driving in the rain at night while listening to explosions in the sky. i like it when adults cry but hate it when children do. i like being alone and the silence it brings but i like having friends and listening to their conversations. i like hassle and problems in my life, nothing is worse than everything being 'ok'. i like extremes, i either want to be fucking great or completely shit, nothing is worse than myself being 'ok'. i like being an elitist but like to fade in to the background and i enjoy my independence but cant stand responsibility. i have a problem with authority but never want to be a leader, i want to change the world for the better but the world has conformed me for the worse.i hate love and love hate, i also hate hate and love love, i like to simplify things but refuse to believe things are simple. i dont care what people think of me but i still want to hear their opinions of me. i like sitting alone in my room at night with dim lights listenin to prog rock, i like sitting in beer gardens in the sun with friends listenin to punk rock. i love gigs but hate crowds and im very opinionated about my standings but very guarded about my views. im happy when miserable and miserable when happy, im also miserable when miserable and happy when happy. i believe depression helps u figure out alot about the world, i believe depression stops you from doing anything about it. i believe heartbreak helps you figure out alot about yourself, i believe heartbreak stop you from doing anything about it.i dont have any secrets, but thats why there secrets, i like to sit and think about alot of stuff but i never think before i act and i think it will never happen to me, but it wont. im optimistic about cynicism but cynical about optimism, im an atheist who doesnt want to go to hell. i dont like capitalism but am at university for a better paid career, i dont like facism but voted in the last election purely by what i was told by each political party leader. im a realist who doesnt believe in false hope, yet im not willing to end my life right now because the future might get better.i love doing art at university but cant draw and im the only carnivorous vegitarian i know. i cant stand people who contradict themselves constantly and i think all hypocritical people should die. loneliness is the biggest killer of hope, hope is the biggest cause of loneliness, i chose the latter. but it was never my choice. i like the rain ..