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cursed by reality

I hold death in my arms,everything,all the world in my arms

About Me

Hello everyone I lived in arizon for a time, there i got a few different jobs and lerned as much as i could before i move out of my perents place at 17. i moved back to california whare i spent most of my child hood. I kicked it there for a year or so, saved up and then went off to colorado. I had lots of fun there didnt get arrested as much as i did in az. but had way more fun. Until things started to go down hill,"for lots of reasons". Well anyway i went back to cali. for about another year.Then i move up to the north seattle. I love music and my family with out those two things i would totally be alone. i 've been to lots of places, Az: mesa, phoenix, kingman,tombstone, bullhead, Ca: l.a. chino, ontero, san deigo, hunnington, venic beach, newport beach, san luis abisbo, ataskadero, barsto, needles, merced, portiville, ect, damn near every town in ca san fan, oklan... nv: las vagas, serchlight, lake taho, reno, battleground, west to east north to south of nv, Ut: salt lake, east to west of ut, ect, west to east of Wyoming, Co: fort collins, longmont, bolder, denver, Colorado springs, ect. Id: boise, weser, snake river the whole south side of ideho ect,. Wa: seattle everett,portland,or. newport,or ect. I've been in just about every town of washington north to south east to west and i do mean every town spokane ect, Or: portland, to eugene, north to south, and the whole west coast of Or, and Ca, and Wa., But anyway thats about it. for one i just want to say i 've learned alot within my life time and have more life exp. than most my age. Ecpt. in love i have never known true love, and dont think i ever will. oh yeah and music is a big part of my life if you haven't noticed by now!!!!

My Interests



Whats your deadly sin?

Luxuria ( Lust )
Lust is your sin... there is nothing wrong with looking but theres more to life than sex...
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Take this test! | Tests from Testriffic Most of all fun!! then music, "listening and playing", art, looking and creating my own. i have lots of hobbies which includes computers, artwork in pen, pencil, paint, oils, and airbrush, pastels. Art has been apart of my life for as long as i can remember. My earliest memories are about 3 or 4 yrs old drawing on colored paper. Auto mechanics is also a big part of my life i started learning at a young age. I started watching my father whenever he worked on his or my moms cars. That sparked my interests so when i got into high school i took auto shop for all 4 years and wood shop, then i worked at a ford dealership for awhile then got to be an apprentice for a time after in az. I 've been learning more and more as time goes by.I've sort of rebuilt both my cars a 1971 ford f 250 pickup truck thats been in my family scence it was bought brand new by my great grandfather and after many years itmade it to me. Its the only thing i have left from him a dayly reminder of a great man that was in my life for only a sort time. I ve been working on it scence i got it at 16. If i was rich not born poor i would have it done by now," but its not cheep" but im almost finish and have kept it running good for all these years and all those miles, 438 thousand sofar, and it still needs alot of work. I have a 1977 datsun 280 z, "not a zx". that i bought for 350$ 2 and a half years ago and about 5 to 6 thousand dollars later have a nice classic car that looks and drives great. to end this one with a good quot. the paths you choose in life if the right one's will shine brightly and forever in death, for the memorie of you will live on in your loved ones...

I'd like to meet:

I would like to say the perfect woman for me but, I have barely any coffadince when it comes to talking or starting a conversation with girls. I 'm a very shy male at first esp. when i like your looks after all its the way you look at first. I tend to leen twords brunettes, dark brown hair two jet black, also red heads get me going, then blonds. The eyes and the face are very important. I like sleek cat like eyes although most girls have that feature, nice full lips , and good skin complexion. But dont get me wrong not to high maintenance, I like both tom boy girls and elagent girls. She's gotta like to look good and sexy but not really care what others think about her and not really be into style, which by the way is a non existent thing. But to get back on the subject oh yah butts there nice too but not too big i like girls to have a smaller wast than me, I have a 32 inch waist, oh and not to be to much taller than me im 5' 10" short is cool too. BUTT!! above all that i am looking for that one in a million gal that is on the same wave length as i am you know you have the same thoughts and attitude, personality type, and lots of the same interests, in music, art, life, entertainment, and whats really important in life, thoughts, morals, leaving a good path in your wake of life always trying to do the right thing. And always having good intentions. I'm a good guy with a bad boy image, i like to get in trouble and I want a girl that wants to have fun and is looking for trouble her self, not just getting me in trouble. last and probably the most important i would like to think that i have a chance in my life to find the one that loves me just as much as i do her, and would do anything for each other.

Music:

metal, punk and all things rock baby!!!! I could list off a hundred or more different band but I'm not going to. Lets just say I like most all rock from the start of it around the1920's onto the start of mtv which i don't really like at all. In the 1980's i like the rock and metal that wasn't on mtv until the real headbangers ball it was the only good show on that station and still is, and until metallica, megadeth, and anthrax got to finally get played on the station but mostlly underground Sh** that not many new about when they where playing like misfits, sex pistols, samhain, danzig, subhumans, crass, deadkennedys, black flag, scocial d, bad religion, type o negative, carnivor, black death and so on. i also like old country that had a good rock and roll rythym and blues back bone, the outlaws, hank willams and jr , the man in black the one the only johnny cash, ect. Some reggae mostly just bob marly. and some swing and ska. And i really like rockabilly the revrend horton heat, the big dad vodoo dadys, cherry pop n an... Also some rap not real gangster rap though i like it to have a message that has meaning not just the same old crap " I got lots of money and hot outrageous cars, lots of chicks a big house lots of gold and "bling bling" lol I 'm better than you cuz i got lots of stuff you don't" crap. thats not what life's about you know. I like all music that you can relate to with lyrics that are about real life and situations and trials, thoughts and other views of reality. Music you can feel in your soul and hart that moves you. Music that the artist puts all they 've got into it, and believes in it cause they 've bared there hart, mind, and soul to whom ever chooses to hear it for that momentary connection.

Movies:

horror movies are my favorites then scifi, action, mysteries, suspense, historical, nonfiction, artistic against the norm movies that make you think, and that could probably change the world if viewed a certain way. and then comedies, then "chick flix's" aka love stories. Although i liked garden state very much and is to my knowledge the only love story movie that i thought was awesome.eh hum back to the mainly movies now some of my favs include but are not limited to ... sin city, pink floyd the wall, Ray, grease, the lord of the ring tril, the star wars saga, troy, Alexander, gladiator, jason and the argonauts, the post man, saw. walking tall,and the really weird ones like a clock work orange, donnie darko, fear and loathing, pulp fiction, reservoir dogs, natural born killers, and so on so on ect. I could name hundreds off the top of my head but most of us don't really read all of this stuff anyways especially when the person just lists thousands of bands or movies they like a person tends to get bored reading. Profit of Doom
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Television:

i don't watch much t.v. but i like deadwood,the history channel, the learning channel, the discovery channel, and adult swimm, along with the scifi channel,comedy,spike t.v., amc, fox, fx, bravo,tnt,and only some shows on those channels.

Books:

I haven't read many books im my life i haven't had too much time to , but i have read som the diary of the family dracul trillage, the complete book of swords, christene, the gentleman vampire,the harper encyclopedia of science, the Indian in the cubbord,some of the bible, and a few comics.

Heroes:

i don't have any heroes well if i did it would be the ones the the real world history remembers as men who changed or saved or ruled the world in ancient history. Other than that i just admire those that live there dream or end up doing that one thing that they know that they want to be doing for the rest of there life and enjoy and love doing. And make there dreams come true, the one that know exactly what they want, and that can keep their lives as happy as possible their whole lives and had as much fun as they wanted the whole time they lived.

My Blog

out of the blue

..> hear is a bulliten from me, i dont do them often so read it. 1. Honestly, how many people do you have feelings for?oh about 12 to 16 different girls2. Honestly, what color is your underwearrig...
Posted by cursed by reality on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 09:53:00 PST

A7X new vid on my page!

watch it you now you want to!!!  its on my page threw u tube  its going to be on untill they take it off so watch it.
Posted by cursed by reality on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 08:31:00 PST

i dont blog very often if at all.

so i want to say that the blogs that have been going out the past few days where not from me and that i was hacked for some stupid resone and for a really stupid thing what a wast of time and space!!!...
Posted by cursed by reality on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 08:55:00 PST

rotating skulls removed for your better vid viewing

i removed my rotating skulls by reqeust to help my vids on my page to play better because the skulls and the vids along with many other elements on my page are flash based. It helps the vids play and ...
Posted by cursed by reality on Wed, 24 Jan 2007 09:23:00 PST

my back ground is a pic i drew me no one esle

as such it is my property and is published and copy writed to me and only me , and is not to be used by or an anyway by way of profit without my expressed permision!!!!!! and any other artwork i ...
Posted by cursed by reality on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 04:24:00 PST

my page is best seen in firefox or opera

my page best seen in firefox or opera just thought i'd let you know
Posted by cursed by reality on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 03:19:00 PST

im back!!

so i was out for awile but now im back on i will be checking my page from time to time now , and writing you all when i can . or reading your letters aswell and replying to you when i have the time. o...
Posted by cursed by reality on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 02:00:00 PST