zebrumera

I'd like to meet:

aliens

id tell all my friends but theyd never believe me - theyd think that id finally lost it completely..

:stanley donwood♥

the gap between you and me. the gap between you and me. in art class, the teacher would say to look at the spaces between objects. that was how you could see what the objects really looked like. well. well, i was fairly certain of your shape. id looked at it quite a lot. it was the shape of billowing wheat or sad violin music or a quiet discussion in the coat-room at a party, or something. i wasnt so clear on my own. i had looked at it, in mirrors, or in confused reflections from shop windows, and to me it looked unremarkable. just the shape of some girl or other. couldve been anyone, really. when i tried to remember my shape it was the silhouette of a murderer, a torturer, a rapist, or some kind of fiend. there was no end to how bad my shape could be, when i tried to think about it. our shapes, together? the gap between them was bigger every day. i couldnt see what we really looked like. the only thing i could think of was the sad violin music and the rapist; very far away, never any nearer.

you see i try not to speak of that i find it tends to poison the genial atmosphere at the dinner table it is veryVERY dull and largely irrelevant both to myself and to the people i know and away i can hardly keep my food down after some of the things people come out with.

EVERYTHING WAS NORMAL AND AS IT SHOULD BE UNTIL O1NE DAY I WOKE UP AND THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG. I DIDNT KNOW WHAT IT WAS BUT IT WAS A KIND OF PERSISTENT THING THAT I COULDNT QUITE IGNORE. SOMETHING WAS COLD AND IT WAS INSIDE NOT OUTSIDE. IT WAS LIKE A PLACE WHERE SOMEONE HAD POKED MEE WITH AN ICICLE. A SPLINTER OF WINTER. THE DAYS PASSED LIKE THEY DO &AND I JUST GOT COLDER. THE COLD SPREAD UNTIL I WAS LIKE A SCULPTURE OF ICE. I DIDNT SNEEZE ANYMORE A&ND I COULDNT CRY AND IF I TRIED TO COME IT WAS LIKE A TENDRIL OF PORCELAIN. I WAS A SOLID MAN. YOU COULD THROW ROCKS AT ME AND IT DIDNT HURT AT ALL. I JUST SPLINTERED A LITTLE. PERHAPS FORTUNATELY NO ONE NOTICED AND EVERYTHING CARRIED ON BEING NORMAL AND AS IT SHOULD BE ALL AROUND ME. BUT I WAS FROZEN.
f r o z e n .

you seem to think you are immune
HOW I WISH YOU WOULD TAKE YOUR MEDICINE.

i was a bit stupid not realising that zombies live amongst us. it wasnt obvious and no one had the fucking decency to tell me. so i wasnt blind; i was just ignorant. i mean i had suspicions feelings.. whatever. everyone has them. the main thing about zombies as i realised is that they arent very different from us. ive seen the films and well theyre not very accurate. zombies arent different from us at all. they dont eat people; thats just ridiculous. unless theyre desperate i guess and ive got to say: who wouldnt eat a human corpse if it really came to it? so thats the point. zombies are just like us. you cant tell whos a zombie. so it doesnt matter anyway. makes no difference.

: a g a i n s t d e m o n s . AGAINST DEMONS.

its all about a secret i have or kept or stole from you ♥

time all the long red lines that take control of all the smokelike streams that flow into yr dreams that big blue open sea that cant be crossed that cant be climbed just born between the t2wo white lines distant gods and faded signs of all those blinking lites you had to pick the o1ne tonite holes dug by little moles angry jealous spies got telephones for eyes come to you as friends all those endless ends that cant be tied oh they make me laugh &and always make me cry till they drop like flies & sink like polished stones of all the stones i throw how does that old song go bands those funny little plans that never work quite right.



well the suit got TIGHT and it split at the seams but i kept it out of habit and i kept it REALLYclean. but if its getting FADED if its runnin outta thread could you do this for me MY FRIEND?? would you justPLEASE bury me with it? PLEASE bury me with it!!

well SEE what you WANNA see [you should see it all] take what you want from mee [you deserve it all]

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:aMSGfor..
IF I COULD MAKE A LIST OF MY MISTAKES & REGRETS ID PUT YOUR NAME ON TOP AND EVERY LINE AFTER IT BECAUSE EVERY INCH OF HOPE BECOMES A WORLD OF SHAME IVE HAD TO WALK THROUGH EACH &EVERY DAY AND IF I SCREAMED YOU WERE WRONG AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS IT WOULD NEVER RETURN ALL THE FAITH THAT IVE LOST BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO SAY THAT HAS NOT BEEN SAID IF I SHOUTED WOULD YOU LISTEN I DONT THINK ITD EVEN SINK IN IF YOU FORGET HOW TO FEEL REACH INSIDE YOUR CHEST IS THERE A HEART BEATING IS THERE JUST EMPTINESS?
EVERYBODY KNOWS HIM HE IS a pLEASER NOTHING ELSE THaN JUST a TEaSERTEaSER OF HIS OWN FaINT SMILE YES & HOW HE IS SO aMUSING SMILING CaN BE SO CONSUMING & SO STRaNGE TO EXpLaIN OH I KNOW HOW I THINK I MIGHT HaVE KNOWN OF YOU SOMEHOW &aND WHaT YR NaME WaS LIKE aNY aNOTHER MaN IN MaNY WaYS HE IS NOTLIKE LIFE ITSELF a MYSTERY OR T2WO HEY MR pLEaSER WOULD YOU SMILE FOR MEE? YES & HOW MaNY TIMES HE HaSNT SpOKEN JUST TO pLEaSE NOT TO DISpLEaSE pLEaSE HER IF YOU pLEaSE OH I SEE HOW HIS LIFE RESEMBLES YOURS &YOU SOMEHOW aRE LIKE HIM I SEE I KNOW IVE BEEN TOO GOOD FOR YOU KNOW HE IS JUST LIKE ME pLEaSING YOU & NOW aLL U DO IS WISH I WaS MORE &MORE LIKE HIM IF SO WOULD YOU CONSIDER KEEpING ME CLOSER I KNOW HE TURNS HIS HEaD aND& DOESNT SEEE YOU BUT WHEN HE DOES HE LOOKS & GREETZ YOU HOW aRE YOU? GOOD LUCK! SO KNOW I CaLL MYSELF a pLEASER THIS TIME SITTING ON a SECRET O1NE SECRET EVERYBODY KNOWZ OH I SEE HOW HIS LIFE RESEMBLES YRS & YOU SOMEHOW R LIKE HIM I SEE I KNOW IVE BEEN TOOGOODFORYOU YOU KNOW YOU KNOW THaT HE IS JUST LIKE ME pLEaSING YOU aND NOW &NOW aLL YOU DO IS WISH I WaS MORE &MORE LIKE HIM IF SO WOULD YOU CONSIDER KEEpING ME CLOSER?

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now &and again it sEEms worse than it is but mostly theVIEW is acCurate and you are not really sure what youre doing this f4or but you need something to fill up the dayz a few more hours theres a DREAM in my brain that just wont go away its been STUCK there since it came a few months ago ..and& i hang like a *StAR fucking glow in the dark for all those starving eyes to sEE like the o1nes weve wished on now im confused i think it is more like a ghost that has been following us both something vague that we are NOTseeing something more like a feeling.



when things like THIS are going on it seems luxurious to consider myOWN responses to them. in the valley the flames are smudges of yellow but i still perambulate around my feelingz of HORROR and disbelief. i used to live there but now i DONT. now i dont live anywhere. are you worried? ARE YOU WORRIED? because im not.

FAKECANBEJUSTASGOOD

:eezeepeezeeeezeepeEEzee.

ive landed on an alien world.
life is a seedy, dirty, nasty thing, but it has to be covered. my life is pretty much covered with accidents, disasters, mistakes; all small, all inconsequential. nothing ive done would interest you. i buried my secrets.
my life was, you know, great and interesting and everything. and awful and unbelievable and terrible. and exciting. and boring. over.

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meet

meet my friendz .meet my friendz. friends m e e t m y f r i e n d s

friends.

Music:

:radiohead.

Movies:

:le fabuleux destin d' amelie poulain. chelsea walls. waking life. late night shopping. dogville.

Television:

:marquee moon.

Books:

:danil harms.

Heroes:

:astronauts.

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