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About Me

my life has completely changed since i moved to chicago in september. i love it here. i wouldn't change this for the world. i went from studying psychology, realizing it wasn't truly right for me, to taking almost a year break. now i am going back to school. i am proud of myself because i was accepted right away. within minutes of meeting me. i wish other things were that easy. i will be going to soma for clinical massage therapy. i will be done by the end of year with probably the opportunity to have a real job for the first time in my life. i've been working forever, but this would be something that would leave me living comfortably. heh it would be nice to not be struggling for once in my life. you would be amazed how strong i am. i will do anything for people, if they would just let me. my friends mean the world to me, well the few i have left. this adjustment has been really slow for me. i don't have much time to get out. but i have realized my love for music and good lyrics. i love writing, but that is something i don't share with people. i can handle being a joke, but not over something i am so serious about and something i love. i enjoy art. sightseeing. adventures. discovering things about life and myself. reading. movies. walking around just to think. sharing coffee with someone. redbull competitions, that i always lose. fashion, even though i can't afford to be stylish yet. hair. tattoos. piercings. good conversations. laughing. making people laugh. love. life. photography. beauty in the ugly parts of life. swearing a drunk people...kidding. i would never do that. causing a little trouble. standing up for what i believe in. knowledge. teaching someone, while at the same time being open to learn from them. opening up. letting go. staying who i am, just modifying along the way to become a better person.

My Interests

writing. music. photography. hair. tattoos. piercings. art. fashion. interior design. singing. psychology. people watching. driving around. going for walks. rollerblading. swimming. shopping. sewing. laughing. making people laugh. movies. musicals. shows. dancing. exploring. honesty. kindness. friends. conversations over coffee. life.

I'd like to meet:

whoever i meet on the path of my life. artists/writers/musicians/designers/dreamers/intellectuals. people who can bring something to my life, but will also let me share with them. people who are beautiful and unique in their own way, those who won't change for someone else. people who are honest and care about each others feelings, not someone who is going to lie, deceive, manipulate you to the point of making you feel like the piece of shit that they are. i don't need anymore bad people in my life. i just want those who are real to join my life.it would probably be easier for me to list who i would not like to meet. probably most of you. i'm not out to go get drunk with people. i'm not here just to have a good time. i actually have goals in my life, and drinking you under the table is not one of them. basically if you hit on me, don't expect me to talk to you. if you hail from planet look at me, fuck off. you're not that great. you are probably shallow and have no personality and buy most of your friends. if you can't speak/type a real english sentence, don't bother. saying wat up does not make me want to talk to you, how about you read a book instead. i hate assholes, and deal with too many on a regular basis, you are no special exception. if you don't like what i have to say jog on, i don't care what you think.P.S. !!!!!!!ATTENTION JACK OFFS!!!!!!!! leave me alone, SERIOUSLY. using lame pick up lines will only get you made fun of, if they work on actual women in real life, you know what, you deserve them. that bullshit does not work on me. if you tell me you like what you see, guess what look in the mirror, you are not the shit, you are shit. hit u bak....right, i'd PROBABLY rather take that literally. learn to spell, learn to use a little common sense.

Music:

ani difranco, fiona apple, the dresden dolls, circa survive, the devics..sara lov, john mayer, jimmy eat world, a fine frenzy, motion city soundtrack, collude, peter broderick, imogen heap, frou frou, cary brothers, pete yorn, afi, alkaline trio, a world on strike, the album leaf, armor for sleep, the ataris, the beatles, bjork, cake, coldplay, counting crows, dashboard, explosions in the sky, goo goo dolls, hellogoodbye, howie day (before he slutted and drugged it up with britney spears), incubus, garbage, joy division, joy drop, bloc party, the murmurs, postal service, regina spektor, rufus wainwright, save ferris, senses fail, spill canvas, third eye blind, thrice, tori amos, oldies!!, and so on, i'm pretty open to different music, just don't go christian or country on me and we're cool.

Movies:

SHAUN OF THE DEAD is probably my favorite, followed by hot fuzz. garden state, the last kiss, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, i am sam, pay it forward, sin city, donnie darko, disturbia, running with scissors, the zodiac, girl interrupted, waiting, saw, seven, rent, hairspray!!!, the royal tenenbaums, closer, love actually, what about bob, ghost busters, lost in translation, billy madison, happy gilmore, she's all that, 10 things i hate about you (RIP Heath), cruel intentions, van helsing, underworld, helsing, silent hill v for vendetta, and so on. basically i love scary/suspenseful movies, along with musicals, and dramas, some action ok, comedy is becoming a huge failure. i like funny movies just like the rest, but these damn over exaggerated spoof movies seem to be all that we have left, or it's just a bunch of actors being idiots and that is just sad.....prove me wrong hollywood!! put out a good comedy again...they just aren't what they used to be.

Television:

shear genius, what not to wear, will and grace, take home chef, top design, top chef, project runway, myth busters, strong medicine, grey's anatomy, ugly betty, scrubs, law and order SVU and CI, NCIS, CSI, family guy, foster's home for imaginary friends, a few other cartoons, heh i watch a lot of nick at nite to put me to sleep, intervention...pretty much anything on A&E and BRAVO. sometimes i do find myself watching mtv and lifetime...i know i hate myself for it lol.

Books:

i am in the process of reading many great books. always looking for a good read if you have any suggestions.

Heroes:

my mom (R.I.P. Nov. 2, 2000). ani difranco. bill murray. AND miss kitty may she rest in peace...she was the best cat in the world who was almost the only one that helped me through the roughest part of my life. and finally, last but not least, pam because she is an insanely strong person, and she has the next greatest cat ever....give it up for Pretty!

My Blog

a little bit of this.

so i have learned a lot in school already, pretty much the basics and would love to have people to practice on. tuesday we start anatomy, that scares me lol. i heard it's very difficult. then on thurs...
Posted by image of the invisible on Sun, 10 Feb 2008 11:15:00 PST

i don’t.....

have a mother to miss me. *sigh* i hope she could have been proud.
Posted by image of the invisible on Wed, 16 Jan 2008 10:42:00 PST

look ma, no hands....

sooooooo in under four months my life has changed completely. i'm living in the big city with my BESTEST friend in the whole wide world. i could not be happier here with him. this has been the best mo...
Posted by image of the invisible on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 10:45:00 PST

woooo

it's official...i start school in a month. it's still so unreal. i was soooo happy i almost started crying, overwhelmed with almost a calm humbleness. i don't think it's hit me yet. i'm not as excited...
Posted by image of the invisible on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 01:21:00 PST

hello helicopter

i'm feeling grinchy...there are two things i want. but i know each i will never have. i sort of even hate christmas. it's not what it used to be. since my mom passed holidays are weird. in fact they a...
Posted by image of the invisible on Sat, 22 Dec 2007 12:00:00 PST

blargh

i only have an ounce of hope left. it all has quickly diminished. i guess i matter too little to help. maybe this is a rude awakening of how badly people really think i've messed up. sometimes i wish ...
Posted by image of the invisible on Mon, 17 Dec 2007 01:12:00 PST

heres a real slap in the face. thank you g-unit.

courtesy of my dad's mom:Dear Vicky,Sounds like a good opportunity to train for a better job. I hope you like it a lot.Tell us more about it. What classes would you take? It seems like massage would ...
Posted by image of the invisible on Wed, 12 Dec 2007 10:56:00 PST

congratulations to me....thanks.

so since last tuesday i had been awaiting this morning. i got a call last week to meet with someone from the soma institute of massage therapy. it was scheduled for this morning. i barely slept at all...
Posted by image of the invisible on Wed, 12 Dec 2007 11:21:00 PST

no one has to know. play back, delete, and rewind.

i cannot say what i need to say. it makes me feel vile.
Posted by image of the invisible on Sat, 08 Dec 2007 12:41:00 PST

walk the plank

what the fuck? wake up again after 11 hours of sleep. who does this? am i getting sick or something? i have been sleeping so much lately. i sleep 11 hours of the day, work 9, and just have 4 to myself...
Posted by image of the invisible on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 11:01:00 PST