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Hmmm, profile time eh? This is where I get to sum myself as a person up in a few short simple lines of text, wheeee.
Paradox, simple and pure, thats me in a nutshell. A lunatic, but the most calm, sane, logical person when I have to be, a fairly vulgar jester, but a gentleman, an #######, but a sweet sincear nice guy. If you want to talk to me, be prepared to get offended, or annoyed, or to laugh your ass off (my prefered result)
I'm strong willed, gentle, kind, careing, sensative, sweet, steadfast, patient, poetic at times, and above all, passionate and honest. I grab life by the balls, live in the moment, relish what joy I can find, then allow the pain that comes after to tear me appart, so that I can be reborn stronger then before. Evolution through destruction, death and rebirth,
thats how I live my life.
Now of course I have bad traits, at times i'm too passionate, at times my strong will and firey personality make me quite obnoxious to be arround. Oh, and i'm a perverted bastard. But if you can look past all that, you'll find as loyal and true a friend as any in this world.
A protector, a lover, a warrior, a philosipher, someone whos not affraid to think for himself. Someone who can love deeply, without shying back in fear of the inevitable crushing pain. And yes, in spite of all i've been through in life, i'm still a romantic. I have no real morals, prefering to live by the general idea that if someone isn't hurting anyone else, they should be left the hell alone to do as they please. But I have a strong, perhaps overdeveloped sense of honor, and somewhat of a hero complex.
I live and will eventualy die by my sense of honor, because you see, I do what I feel is right, reguardless of conssequence. So eventualy, that will catch up with me. Sometimes I think I burn all the good karma I build, as fast as I build it, just to stay alive. I believe in respect for all life, no matter how small, I believe that to kill without reason is a sin against this plannet. I'll pick up a bug and put it outside then go wash my hands rather then step on it. Conversely, I can and will do whatever is nescisary to protect those I care for without remorse or regret.
Life and Death, two sides of the same coin. But I believe firmly that to live, to rally and fight against the odds, no matter how overwhelming, requires far more courage then giveing up and letting yourself die. Death should not be chased, or worshiped, or romantiscised. But it should not be feared either. We walk our path in life, and when that path ends, we must face that end without fear. Live and Die without regret. Take plesure where it comes, and embrace the pain. Supress no part of yourself, but embrace yourself as a whole person, even the parts you may not like.
And so you see a bit of the philosipher aspect that is the walking paradox of me. Just, don't try to "fix" yourself, the only way you can truely be happy is to love yourself. Accept yourself as you are. I see so much self loatheing in the world, self esteeme issues, pain, and it tears my heart out. But I allso know I can't force my beliefes on anyone. And I fully accept different beliefe structures, tho I do not have any respect for religious fanatics of -any- philosiphy.
Well, theres alot more to me then the long winded words above. But, if you want to know me, then talk to me. When you talk to me, remember, honesty is paramount, and never, ever be ashamed of yourself. Be who you are twords me and I will accept it, and welcome it.
This bit of advice well represents my beliefes on the subject of love. Enjoy.
"Love feels no burden, regards not labors, strives toward more than it attains, argues not of impossibility, since it believes that it may and can do all things. Therefore it avails for all things, and fulfils and accomplishes much where one not a lover falls and lies helpless"
"To truly love is to accept another as they are--to know a person deeply, with genuine concern for their welfare, without feeling the need to change him or her. It means giving of yourself out of the desire to bless another, not hoping for reciprocation. When we truly love, we don´t merely tolerate someone else´s differences, we celebrate them. We take the other fully into our heart and create a sacred shrine for him or her there, paying the due honor and respect of royalty
There´s an old saying - you like someone "because". "Because" they have blue eyes, or a pretty smile, or a cute nose. You love someone "even though." Even though he´s not rich, even though she´s not an excellent cook. Liking means you´re fond of their good traits. Love means you accept them fully even though they´re not perfect."
lestat
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WANDERER
You are the Wanderer, the
lonely, melancholy figure that haunts deserted
roads. Wanderers don't know their purpose in
life. They simply drift from place to place,
looking for something that they are missing,
but never quite finding the peace they seek so
desperately. A Wanderer is a restless spirit,
full of despair and melancholy, but will
nevertheless seek an adventure, just for the
sake of trying to give their hopeless lives
purpose.
Color: Grey
Animal:
Wolf
Gem: Sapphire
Symbol:
Staff
Image:
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Raver Bear
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How evil are you?
You're a natural born trouble-maker. You hate
authority and do everything you can to get
around the law, or in some cases, break it.
Naturally stubborn, you hardly ever sway once a
decision is made. Your nature is fiery and
courageous, and always out-going. You love
attention and usually have kinky ########
you're not afraid to explore. People either
love you or hate you.
What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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You are Peace.You are at peace with your self and the world
around you. You have balance in your life and
exude tranquility from every pore of your body.
People are constantly asking you "what is
your secret?"
What Emotion Are You?
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Protector
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You belong in the world of balance, where
everything has two sides and everything is not
always what it appears on the outside. Of
course, if you have a sense of humor, you may
find employment as a sarcastic comedian. If
not, enjoy the choices that are presented to
you through life, they will always have two
sides to them,one which leads you to the light,
and the other which entrenches you in darkness.
Walk on with hope, my friend.
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Drown and Burn
Life is just a foolish game
Filled with hopelessness
Permiated with pain
I'm sick of being used
I won't be thrown away
Like a childs toy steped on
In the mud on a rainy day
A snow white dove
By the side of the road
In the gutter, all alone
Such sorrow in my heart
But I won't give in to hate
And so this is my woefull fate
Lonelyness and bitter tears
Washed away by rain
Drowning my fears
I wake to nothing
An empty life
Filled with little more then strife
So I go on
An empty shell
Traped within a private hell
And in the flames
And all the pain
I find myself
And rise again
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.
Invictus
by William Ernest Henley; 1849-1903
My Creed
All life is about experience. Those that would deny you this seek to limit
you. Those that deny themselves are limited fools clinging to the fear that
they can not handle or deal with experience. It is a simple truth that which
does not kill us makes us stronger.
Pleasure exists for a reason. It is foolish to believe that we would have
evolved a pleasure response as a trap or a lie. Pleasure must be
embraced in all its forms. There is no greater gift to you than giving
yourself over to pleasure.
Violence is truth. Humans are predators and killers by our nature. This is
not something to be feared or hated. To fight our natures is to fight
enlightenment. Only by embracing our rage can we transcend it. Never
hesitate to defend yourself from the violence of others, but only unleash
your rage at those things that deserve it.
Good and Evil are lies there are only 1000 shades of grey. Only the weak
cling to certainty in a world where nothing can ever be certain. Be aware
that some shades of grey are darker than others but there is no black and
white.
Pain for pains sake means nothing it is an empty experience. Pain that is
endured for another has meaning. If you choose to endure suffering for
someone you care for you are both made stronger.
Any action is better than any inaction. The universe will not notice you if
you do nothing. Those that are static can not grow. A man that can help
another on his path and yet does nothing is the same as a man that tries
to hinder another on his journey.
There are worlds and experiences that lie beyond our perception. Our
reality is a box that restricts us. Look beyond yourself always and
expand your reality. Experience is the key that unlocks this box.
Fear is a tool to help us survive. As with any tool we should be its
masters not its slaves. Your fear is there for a reason, respect that but do
not let it rule you. Take the strength your fear offers and use it.
All humans are equal. Never judge another by the surface. Every man
and woman has value irrespective of race, religion, sexuality, politics, age
and appearance. Some will choose to walk a different path to you. It is
not your place to change that. Offer guidance when you feel you should
but never expect anyone to follow that guidance.
Ask yourself carefully if damaging another’s path to improve your own is
worth while. Do you stand to gain more than they stand to loose. Do you
care if not. There is nothing innately wrong with self-interest but you must
decide where your own limits lie.
Lust is a truth. If you feel a desire for something embrace that desire as
long as doing so will not damage other things your desire more.
Love is a form of madness but this does not alter its value. No one has
ever fallen sanely in love. To truly love is to give a someone or something
a greater value than you. There is nothing wrong with this even though
love will bring you pain and suffering in abundance.
All morality is false if given from without. The only rules that matter are
those that are personal to you. To obey the rules of another is to give into
fear. Question your morality did you choose it or did society choose it for
you. There is nothing wrong with listing to the rules and beliefs of others
but always question them as I now ask you to question everything I have
written.
This Creed was written by my friend and mentor Adrian.
