my sister's weddingchildren make the best dance partnersmy beautiful cousin jessica.
i love you jess!...for everyone who keeps asking, yes i try to take all of my own photographs and create my own art...i am no professional by any means...i just have passions......the calm during the storm...still my favorite rainy day photo...helps me become calm...it's peace to me...we stand alone.
...few see through me...stuff i like?...fashion, art, photography, sex, music, reading, writing, yoga, and exercising, my son and doggy doo, and friends.....
chewing on fake plastic grapes, burping, blowing bubbles with gum and letting tekh try to bite them out of my mouth, putting my hands in coffee beans at the store, the smell of permanent markers and gasoline, chewing on my right cheek, painting on clothes, cutting things up, taking electronics apart, fashion magazine pics, fake dicks, talking of poop, vaginas, "penii" and other perversions, laughing when i shouldn't, not laughing when i should, not sitting still, cleaning out chapstick tops with q-tips, vegetables and fruit, organic things, fruit leather, things that are crunchy, things that are sour, going outside, losing electricity, phallacy, laughing at cheezy 70's porn, but interested in the background music, smelling things, picking scabs, popping zits on other people, peeling sunburned skin, weird shoes, cheap underwear, not wearing underwear, being cheap, nice eyebrows, unique faces=beautiful faces, animals, fabric, metal things, wires, dumpster diving, singing songs to my dog and son and hubby, chai tea with lowfat vanilla soy milk, cooking, black coffee, plain teas, learning who someone is, listening to people, talking to people, listening to people talking, dancing (that's something i miss more than anything), real people, ugly things, biting my nails, hammering nails, over the top personalities (esp overly flamboyant), old folks, pickle juice, spicy things, lights, pens with small tips, writing small, records at thrift stores, scratching itches, itching scratches, kisses on the neck and shoulder, touching, watching someone fall asleep (esp. aidyn), satisfaction, when my stomach growls, sleeping with a fan on, big blankets, too many pillows, my blankee, baths in the dark, reading in the bath, reading ingredients of things, reading the dictionary...frozen grapes..."pancakes!", snow crunching under my feet, thunderstorms and rain...love the rain more than most things...whiskey and the field on the side of my house before a storm, to stand in the middle of it..........
and be small and obsolete...
I'd like to meet:
someone i've never met.i found this on my back porch last weekend...life and death are quoted constantly "...death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives,
life gets under you skin, it's a habit that's hard to give up...
one puff of breath is never enough...you'll find you want to
take another...razors pain you, rivers are damp, acids stain
you, and drugs cause cramp, guns aren't lawful; nooses give;
gas smells awful; you might as well live...but rivers know
there is no hurry...it's not only fine feathers that make fine
birds...there are flowers everywhere for those who bother to
look..."
Music:
self-port.
music is one of the few things that makes me smile even when things are bad. (okay, i admit it. i still have the raver in me..and i love good beats that let me busta move....esp. drum n' bass, various types of house, break beats...etc. etc. i won't even start the dj name game...so i will just say i enjoy my electronic music, yea) .the pogues(shane macgowan). clock dva. .peaches. .cOs. .le
tigre. .miss kittin. .dresden dolls. .lamb. .rasputina. .telepopmuisk. .royksopp. .portishead. .massive attack. .tricky. .bjork. .sugarcubes. .mars volta. .red house painters. .the music. .fleetwood mac. .sun kil moon. .morcheeba. .sinead o'connor. .the sundays. stereolab. sonic youth. bad brains. nick cave and the bad seeds. the cramps. social distortion. the clash. dri. dead kennedys. vandals. nirvana. thievery corporation. bauhaus. joy division. scissor sisters. no doubt/gwen stefani. type o negative. the cranes. the smiths. thursday. slayer. pantera. guns n' roses(most 80's hair metal rules and other 80's music) kraftwerk. talking heads. human league. journey. pj harvey. johnny cash. norah jones. kinks. x-ray spex. mr.bungle. fantomas. faith no more. les rhythmes digitales. daft punk. the cure. bill withers. eurythmics. cafe del mar. technology scum (my husband). tori amos. echo and the bunnymen. infected mushroom. cocteau twins. this mortal coil. dr.dre. pharcyde. .run dmc. misfits. pearl jam. jeff buckley. pixies. hayden. u2. sade. outkast. abba. madonna. sparta. eat static. ozric tentacles. porcupine tree. pink floyd. fiona apple. lou reed. juno reactor. spice girls. cardigans. telepopmusik. ladytron. explosions in the sky. massive attack. L7. kruder and dorfmeister. ken ishii. dee-lite. B 52's. tricky. built to spill. (some) ani difranco. aphex twin. transam. autechre. squarepusher. oribital. boards of canada. sheep on drugs. future sound of london. sade. (some)haujobb. skinny puppy. the orb. ministry. birthday party. white zombie (older stuff). the cult. alice in chains. lacoste. billie holiday. ella fitzgerald. nina simone (and other great jazz). depeche mode. the cars. ladytron. moloko. the magnetic fields. zero 7. tosca. fiery furnaces. roni size. mark isham. eddie and the hot rods. buzzcocks. sham 69. burt backarach. dead meadow. sasha. hooverphonic. emiliana torrini. mazzy star. SIA (thanks kelly). dead milkmen. janes addiction. porno for pyros. roni size. danzig. rocket from the crypt. skinny puppy. medicine drum. juno reactor. brian jonestown massacre....continuous.
self-port.
Books:
running with scissors. siddhartha. goodnight moon. where the wild things are. catcher in the rye. andy warhol diaries. bell jar. any kind of photography/fashion/art/makeup/design books. wasted. and many other things that are depressing for some reason...
Heroes:
mitter man (my son)....and my son's angel...our angel...our lucas, the biggest hero i know.
you're missed and loved ungodly amounts.
