liana_beth; needs a lucky star

About Me

i've got a touch for the kleptomania... i stole a rosary from a thrift store and wear it for the sheer irony of it all. it tickles my insides.
i'm the jewess who stole jesus. hate me for it
.i feel uncomfortable with even numbers.
i'm a broken toy. i think i hate myself sometimes. i get confused. i used to have trouble sleeping, i've gone days without it. i finally realized that it was because there was no one in bed next to me. i fixed that. my mind. it never stops buzzing. sometimes it moves so fast i can hardly breathe. other times it slows to a crawl and i can only allow myself to be lost as time ticks slowly away. i want to be the reason that you smile, despite the tears in your eyes.
i hate myspace. i probably hate you.i wasnt always a train wreck, it happened gradually. just as with anything, time is what alters perceptions of reality. i'm presently picking up the pieces of the world i once wished to destroy.
alex made me like the world i live in. he made me feel beautiful. so i guess i've been proven wrong for the first time; time does heal, there is someone out there who cares about you and... one's perception of oneself is always wrong.
i used to be the monster in my own nightmares
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My Interests

i was once called the princess of random and perhaps that suits me best.
A ir, ALEX; he is my world, my sun, moon and stars♥

B right colours, balloons, bubbles and his brown eyes
C upcakes! because they're most fun to make with friends
D ays that make you realize that you're actually alive..and that you like it and D rag queens
E yes and eyebrows.
F aeries i'd like to be a fairy when i grow up..
G ray...cause not everything can be black and white
H ugs and H air
I cecream. gosh..have you ever tried the kind that has cheesecake pieces in it?? *drools
J uice boxes
K isses and kites.
L ights. mhm.. like a moth
M ary janes. the shoes, not drugs.
N ighttime.
O wls for i am also nocturnal
P earls, P ears and the P lateau, where i now live!
Q. my favourite letter in the alphabet
R esting. because i feel as if i never do anymore
Serena; my sister, my hero, my friend Sunflowers and the S ky.
T rees and T ea
U mbrellas.
V anity..to an extent. we're all vain whether we admit it or not.
W indows.
X -rated. cause really, that's the story of my life
Y ellow. it's one of those happy things i'd like to see
Z zz....the sound of you sleeping next to me
and above all, anything that can be classified as

Odd

normalcy is such an insult

I'd like to meet:

i have already met the only other person i need in this world
my reason for waking up every morning alexananandedAnder

Music:

my lil serena and me! yea, we're hawt

copeland
alexisonfire
nick drake
the honorary title
the decemberists
tegan and sara
the unicorns
franz ferdinand
my bloody valentine
eisley
blood brothers
death from above 1979
bright eyes
the shins
mae
the concretes
rilo kiley
snow patrol
denali
the von bondies
the winks
yeah yeah yeahs
death cab for cutie
garden state soundtrack

Movies:

amelie
the rules of attraction
v for vendetta
ghost world
secretary
about schmidt
crash
death to smoochy
hitchcock
the nightmare before christmas
requiem for a dream
spun
fear and loathing in vegas
elephant
alladin
arsenic and old lace
black and white films from way back when
films features on ifc
the rocky horror picture show
fight club
garden state
psst. and yeah, i'm a dork. harry potter too
*Omaha does Reno*

Television:

independent film channel
shopping channel(best if watched at 5 a.m
jem
pee weeâ€™s playhouse

Books:

for some reason when i last entered this section, it dissapeared on me. i'll have to re-edit this laters

Heroes:

i dont know that i believe in heros anymore... but i do know that i believe in being saved...and that's what incredible charlie does for me not only that, but my life would not be what it is today without alex here with me.

My Blog

the reforming of a lost soul

all is changed in time.i suppose the same can be said about me. i started this myspace nonsense over three years ago now. i was a different person then. i never slept, i never smiled, i never wanted t...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Fri, 09 Mar 2007 12:36:00 PST

an update on illness. no complaints. just facts.

head: migraineouslungs: raspy, acheythroat and nose: blocked, chokingheart: happyi suppose the world has been changing and though it always has, the world closest to my surroundings seems to be taking...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 12:17:00 PST

who is to say

what is wrong, what is rightpainful thinking, painful breathingevery action a laboured sigh of painwhere will i turn when i stop this incessant spinning.what is integral?what is anything really?i long...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Tue, 26 Dec 2006 09:31:00 PST

feeling.thinking.breathing.

it's so sudden and so overwhelming. desire. passion. thought. dream.dressed up in the plain clothes of the real world, i lose myself just a little bit with the passing tides of pedestrian.a piece has ...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 06:17:00 PST

how doth the little crocodile improve his shining scales

how long has it been since i last felt this way? does anyone recall?most dreary and miserable, cold lonesome and in pain.though my eyes are clear and desperate to see, my mind is clouded and is playin...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 07:47:00 PST

for you

your face is like a poem; one i could never composewords falter in your absence just like a wilting rosei know that times are changing, i know i'm changing tooi just cant help thinking how i still get...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Sat, 26 Aug 2006 07:50:00 PST

invalid

who knows when i last sat down to write. my head is swimming with some many thoughts of anything and everything all mixed up together. it's hard to even see straight.there is a point out there, somewh...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Thu, 10 Aug 2006 11:29:00 PST

my own obituary

dear fellow myspacians, this is my own obituary of sorts as my parents are about to murder and massacre my bleeding carcass. today i did something more stoopid and more bold than i have ever done bef...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Wed, 31 Aug 2005 11:54:00 PST

apparently this is what the online specialists say

Disorder | Rating Paranoid: Low Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: High Antisocial: Moderate Borderline: Low Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: High Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

nostalgia, maybe

dont be gone, stay be my side, keep me warm. your skin is bitter sweet, keep it close to mine in your eyes i see all those tears that i shed i feel you touch me. it's such a rush. your skin is a ...
Posted by liana_beth; needs a lucky star on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST