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*Mandie*

I am here for Dating, Serious Relationships and Friends

About Me

This isn't who I am.


From confidence to self doubt in 60 seconds.


Storming stages and stereos from here to there,
trying to prove that I belong.


Trying to win approval from people that I don't know.

And I look so strong
when the weight of all the world
don't take its toll.


And I'd choose my sides
if I believed in what was right,
but I'm all wrong.

I'm not larger than life, I'm not taller than trees.


Do I mean what I say? Is it just this disease where I never go home.


Never telling the truth how this life eats away.


Not admitting I'm fake
and I'm questioning whether this whole thing was worth it to die poor and all alone?

And I look so strong
when the weight of all the world
don't take its toll.


And I'd choose my sides
if I believed in what was right,
but I'm all wrong.

Just don't tell me this doesn't mean the world,
'cause my ears would bleed and my heart would hit the floor.

And I look so strong
when the weight of all the world
don't take its toll.


And I'd choose my sides
if I believed in what was right,
but I'm all wrong.

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

*My name is Mandie my pictures all look the same Pandie*

I'm short and chubby.. but I'm pretty damn cute..

I smoke too much and I LOVE IT That's right I admit it.. I'm a smoker.. It's pretty funny actually considering how much I used to be against it.. I'm an ADULT so I'm allowed to do what ever I want.

I can't live without my cellphone, garlic flavored triscuits, and bayside.

I believe any feelings that I have at any point in time can flawlessly be expressed through bayside lyrics.

I am the most loyal person you will ever meet
You could prolly fall in love with me pretty easily..It's okay I won't hold it against you, it's happened before

I'm just a girl with something to prove Slightly bored and severely confused.

My new addiction is Arbor Mist Blackberry Merlot

I have an extensive collection of t-shirts. Mostly black.... When I do my laundry in a public laundry house I get very strange looks.
I get an irrational amount of satisfaction out of removing stains from clothing when I do laundry.

You will never be able to guess what cd I have playing in my car because I love ALL kinds of music.

I have a daughter that I love very much! She has helped to domesticate me, god lover her for accomplishing an impossible task such as that.

I live in St. Joseph Mo and I pretty much hate it here because it's so far away from my family and friend..s...

I love to watch horror films, anything with zombies in it pretty much gets my rocks off.

I love the smell after a rainstorm.I also love the smell of freshly cut grass.
I love how beautiful god made the earth we live in.

The most beautiful sight to see when the sun is setting

Those would be a few random fun facts about myself. .... and.. I'm done! That's all I needed

I'm not taking this site too seriously. Just having a good ol time.

My Interests

me gusta muerto seniors

I'd like to meet:



Someone that fits me...
Friends worth keeping around.
Someone who will come over to my shitty apartment with me and watch shitty horror movies.
Someone who wants to listen to music and talk about stupid things, but be happy they are doing it because it's with me, and lets face it, I am pretty damn cool.
I would like someone who wants to break me off a piece of their time. I will gladly do the same.


Someone like you.

Movies:

*Some of my favorite scary movies* Alice, Sweet Alice Alucarda American Psycho The Amityville Horror April Fool's Day Army of Darkness The Birds Bride of Chucky Bruiser Candyman Cannibal Carrie Carnival of Souls Cat People(1982) Child's Play City of the Living Dead Creepshow Cube Dawn of the Dead(1978) Dawn of the Dead(2004) Day of the Dead The Dead Next Door Death Becomes Her Dr. Giggles The Devils Rejects Ed Gein The Evil Dead The Exorcist The Eye The Fly Friday the 13th Fright Night Grindhouse Halloween(all of them) Hannibal Hard Candy Hell Night Hellraiser High Tension The Hills Have Eyes Hostel I Know What You Did Last Summer Idle Hands Inferno Invasion of the Body Snatchers Jacob's Ladder Jaws Jeepers Creepers Joy Ride The Grudge Land of the Dead Last House on the Left Leprechaun The Lost Boys May Mirror Mirror Motel Hell Night of the Living Dead A Nightmare on Elm Street The Omen The Others The People Under the Stairs Phantasm Poltergeist Prom Night Psycho Resident Evil(all of them) The Return of the Living Dead The Ring Rosemary's Bab Salem's Lot Saw Scream Secret Window The Sentinel Shaun of the Dead(although it's not scary) The Shining The Silence of the Lambs Silent Hill Silent Night, Deadly Night Silver Bullet The Sixth Sense Sleepaway Camp Sleepy Hollow The Surgeon Sweeney Todd Tales from the Crypt The Texas Chain Saw Massacre(1974) The Toolbox Murders(1978 and new) The Toxic Avenger Village of the Damned Waxwork(all of them) When a Stranger Calls When a Stranger Calls Back

Television:


I love the discovery Channel,TLC,The History Channel,Food Network
ATHF
Family Guy
Shin Chan
The Simpsons
Weeds
Will and Grace
King of Queens
I'm sure there is more I'm forgetting about.. oh well

Books:


You know its all a game.
That we play back and forth.
I leave. You chase.
And were back to square one.
We were not meant to be.
And I tried my best to work it through.
I asked my friends "what should I do?"
There only advice was leaving you.
But im glad I did.
Or at least thats what I tell myself.
I swear to god I never would of known
your face or your name.
If everyday is a constant reminder your a
whore,liar,ghost,harlet.
And its sad to say, that
I still cry to the Bayside CD everyday.
Dont you know that those songs are about you?
Check tracks 8 and 9.
Then call me back.
You ask me "when is it over?"
Over? This isnt over till I say its over.
Back to Square one.
Come On

Heroes:

My Blog

This song reminds me of you... [It’s not a good thing]

Trying to create something that's not there. A spark I saw as a bomb is just a means to an end. And I was just so happy to be out of my shell again, don't think that I really cared for who or what. So...
Posted by *Mandie* on Sat, 24 May 2008 05:39:00 PST

Cambria...

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Posted by *Mandie* on Sat, 24 May 2008 01:44:00 PST

Oh Tegan and Sara.. you just get it right.

You wait up for me I don't wake up for youWould you like the company or are you sick of meWhen your love lets you go you only want love moreEven when love wasn't what you were looking forSpeak slow, t...
Posted by *Mandie* on Sat, 17 May 2008 06:17:00 PST

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Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah!Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah?BLAH!BLAH?BLEH!!!
Posted by *Mandie* on Thu, 15 May 2008 10:32:00 PST

An angel got his wings and we'll hold our heads up, knowing that he's fine

Richie I can't believe you're gone.. When you moved to Kansas Charly and I were delighted to have a new friend. From the day we started hanging out it was like we always knew eachother. You were such ...
Posted by *Mandie* on Sat, 03 May 2008 12:38:00 PST

Hello, I’m your martyr, will you be my gangster?

..> hello, I'm your martyr, will you be my gangstercan you feel my trigger hand, moving further down your backwhen you hide, hide inside that bodybut just remember that when I touch youthe more you...
Posted by *Mandie* on Sat, 26 Jan 2008 03:17:00 PST