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~~Life Is Beautiful~~

My Interests

~DEAD JOURNAL~

I am confident. I am guarded. I'm a little bit Martha, a little bit Jenna. I LOVE music~rock'n'roll,indie,goth...pretty much anything but country. I am giving to a fault. I am quirky and dorky. FAKE, CADDY, LIARS REPULSE ME. I am drawn to the strange, dark, morbid, uniquely ecclectic things in life. Diane Arbus is amazing... I love old Hollywood glamour, and retro pinup girls. Bettie Page owns!! Things I enjoy doing when I am not with my children(who are my life) are; Going to Museums (History/Art), going out, old,magnificent structures, Photography, shopping, reading, writing, music, good concerts and plays, good wine, good company, HOT Jewish/Italian/dark haired men, Hard-core sex, pilates, anything cardio (good stress outlet) the net (of course), meeting cool people that know how to NOT take life too seriously (I'm serious enough for everyone)

I'd like to meet:

~Bettie Page, Dita Von Teese, Pickle, Tori Amos, Patrick Bateman, Tyler Durden, Ivan, Heilig, Philip~ http://www.flickr.com/people/merkley/ ~People that don't suck~

Music:

All kinds of music...depends on my mood- which changes when the wind blows :) FOR PHILIP

Movies:

Too many to name...

Books:

Currently reading :

..Betty Page Confidential..

by Stan Corwin Productions/Bunny Yeager

Heroes:

My Son Karter

My Blog

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STARVING TO FIND MYSELF. WANTING SOMETHING REAL. WANTING TO FEEL WHOLE. WANTING TO BE ME AND HAVE IT BE O.K. WANTING SOMEONE TO LOVE ME AS I AM. TIRED OF BEING DISCARDED. TIRED OF HAVING IN ME SO MUCH...
Posted by j on Fri, 02 May 2008 03:30:00 PST

It actually came to fruition...

I CONCEDE, I CONCEDE, I CONCEDE, I CONCEDE, I CONCEDE, I CONCEDE.....ON MY FACE IS A MAP OF THE WORLD.   I AM so HURTING INSIDE RIGHT NOW.
Posted by j on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 08:54:00 PST

STILL

Sometimes you drift through my mind and I smile. I’m so glad you are happy and found your one. I wish I hadn’t had to be discarded in the process. It hurt more than you will ever...
Posted by j on Tue, 08 Apr 2008 10:13:00 PST

life

~Life is not only one thing, but many different things combined into one.~
Posted by j on Tue, 01 Apr 2008 01:42:00 PST

about time

Finally we are going home from the hospital.  Eight days Karter was in the hospital with Klebsiella sepsis.  I took this photo in the hospital that pretty much sums up his movement disorder....
Posted by j on Sat, 22 Mar 2008 04:02:00 PST

Book

I had a dream last night that I put a copy of the book I wrote for him in my son’s casket.  It sounds morbid, but it is in my realm of reality that he will not be on this ea...
Posted by j on Fri, 14 Mar 2008 08:50:00 PST

I don’t like the drugs but the drugs like me,

Sometimes I just want to tell all of my son's doctors to fuck off. I mean how many hard-core drugs can they prescribe an almost three year old.  LATEST one is Klonopin.  My struggle is that ...
Posted by j on Sun, 02 Mar 2008 04:25:00 PST

The Madster

Me being annoying- Maddie being cute-lol:)...
Posted by j on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 02:01:00 PST

cool

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Posted by j on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 01:44:00 PST

IFEEL LIKE IM HIGH WHEN I WATCH THIS- lol!!!

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Posted by j on Tue, 19 Feb 2008 03:15:00 PST