"as the world fumbles around the truth, don't deny it we are all guilty of ingnorance at times.intelligence is learned, so in fact to be ignorant is the path to knowledge.Just what is it I seek?the reasoning behind a sense of sadness that never seems to go away?indentifying the fear that comes from the unplanned?
it is up to me to discover the layers upon layers I've instilled in myself.hiding away my awareness, living in denial I say!this brings up the thought of how life is formed around us.
is it chosen? do we choose?or simply role the dice to see what comes our way?a little too philosophical that may be, but what else is this if not the ramblings of a mind curious as to her fate on this map of life.the interior of my heart refuses to believe that this is all there is.an intricate path of dissapointments to walk upon.that we as a society plummet through life with our own gratification as the goal.the disrespect we treat ourselves with is humiliating.we whine and wish.stop wishing and start searching.the search will bring about a truth.at least for me, that is my hope.to live life love life.has the madness of our world got me down?well nothing will change from the view I have from my couch.smoking, creating an impenatrable haze in my head that I see as clarity.lamenting on about how wronged I was!blame will get me nowhere except where I am.staring out my window waiting for the world to come my way.creating a safe haven for myself.have I lost myself in the great space, lost my identity?is it because the world has become a riddle to me?everything has a question mark these days.maybe all it would take would be to stop and appreciate what life has in store.relish in the unknown, take up the challengefor fuck's sake get off the couch!"sally mcquaid, november 2004
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