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La Reine Des Épées

Nothing lasts, but nothing is lost

About Me

And I wished for so long, cannot stay...

All the precious moments, cannot stay...

It's not like wings have fallen, cannot stay...

But I feel something's missing, cannot say...

Holding hands are daughters and sons

And their faiths just falling down, down, down, down...

I have wished for so long

How I wish for you today

We all walk the long road. Cannot stay...

There's no need to say goodbye...

All the friends and family

All the memories going round, round, round, round

I have wished for so long

How I wish for you today

And the wind keeps roaring

And the sky keeps turning gray

And the sun is set

The sun will rise another day...

We all walk the long road. Cannot stay...

There's no need to say goodbye...

All the friends and family

All the memories going round, round, round, round

I have wished for so long

How I wish for you today

How I've wished for so long

How I wish for you today

We all walk the long road

My Interests

"I have one thing to say, before I am drunk again... God Damn the Sun.."........
The Performance, The aftermath, Vaudeville, Dark Carnivals, the ephermeral, the unreachable, the beautiful and the hideous. Big beautiful eyes, brilliant minds, wanderers,weirdos, Weimar era Berlin, Tea Rose Perfume, Rose Petal flavored ice cream, Scary things. Holy things. Transcendental experiences. Taino Pride, Karma Yoga. The Supreme Reality. Spirals, mandalas, fractals. Puerto Rico, Naked Mole Rats and other hairless mammals. Loving and falling. Getting back up and doing it again. Following my heart to the bitter end. Being the girl you will never, ever forget. Allowances and forgetfulness. Non-Linear time. Constant daydreaming. Sitting on the edge of a pin with my heart on my sleeve. Remembering you. Always.

I'd like to meet:

I have an amazing, perfect, wonderful boyfriend, so I'm good in that department.

Boys and Girls Together by Neil Gaiman

Boys don't want to be princes.

Boys want to be shepherds who slay dragons,

maybe someone gives you half a kingdom and a princess,

but that's just what comes of being a shepherd boy

and slaying a dragon. Or a giant. And you don't really

even have to be a shepherd. Just not a prince.

In stories, even princes don't want to be princes,

disguising themselves as beggars or as shepherd boys,

leaving the kingdom for another kingdom,

princehood only of use once the ogre's dead, the tasks are done,

and the reluctant king, her father, needing to be convinced.

Boys do not dream of princesses who will come for them.

Boys would prefer not to be princes,

and many boys would happily kiss the village girls,

out on the sheep-moors, of an evening,

over the princess, if she didn't come with the territory.

Princesses sometimes disguise themselves as well,

to escape the kings' advances, make themselves ugly,

soot and cinders and donkey girls,

with only their dead mothers' ghosts to aid them,

a voice from a dried tree or from a pumpkin patch.

And then they undisguise, when their time is upon them,

gleam and shine in all their finery. Being princesses.

Girls are secretly princesses.

None of them know that one day, in their turn,

Boys and girls will find themselves become bad kings

or wicked stepmothers,

aged woodcutters, ancient shepherds, mad crones and wise-women,

to stand in shadows, see with cunning eyes:

The girl, still waiting calmly for her prince.

The boy, lost in the night, out on the moors

Music:

Where do I begin? .. Leonard Cohen,Brian Jonestown Massacre, Black Heart Procession,DJ Cheb I Sabbah, SNOG, Talvin Singh, Television, Trembling Blue Stars, Pixies,Warlocks, Sisters Of Mercy, Suede, Pulp, Interpol, The Makeup, Divine Comedy,Nick Cave,Infected Mushroom, Birthday Party, Church, SPK, Simon & Garfunkel, Dylan, Bowie, Nina Hagen, Krishna Das, Stone Roses, Primal Scream, Mogwai, Fields Of The Nephilim, Joy Division, Brian Eno, David Bowie, Crass, Fear, Rozz Williams Christian Death,Orb,Orbital, Black Sabbath,Replacements, Monaco, Placebo, Iggy, Bad Religion, Circle Jerks,Dead Milkmen, Skinny Puppy, Velvet Underground, Smiths, Lords Of The New Church, Current 93, Death In June,Pogues, Madelia, Scarling, TVOTR, Shpongle, Mum,Entheogenic, Sol Invictus, Ladytron, Decemberists, DJ Shadow

Movies:

Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind,Kundun, Monsoon Wedding, Gandhi, Amadeus, American Beauty, Wings Of Desire, Dark Crystal, Velvet Goldmine, Willy Wonka, Dangeous Liasons, Porn, Sunset Boulevard, Fight Club, Amelie, Fisher King, Donnie Darko, Closetland,DIG!, SLC Punk! When Harry Met Sally, City Of Joy, Party Monster, Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas... Any movie about drugs and drug addicts or rock stars or club scenes, actually..

Books:

The Snow Queen by Joan D. Vinge, Poisonwood Bible, Fight Club, Less Than Zero, Ender's Game, Neverwhere, American Gods, Stardust, DMT the Spirit Molecule, Bhagavad Gita, Upanishads, e.e cummings, William Blake, Fairytales of Oscar Wilde, Drugs Are Nice, The Green Mile, The Scar

Heroes:

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My Blog

Xiomara

mi madre asombrosaMy caribbean taino queenWhere would I be without youTe amo tan
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Sat, 21 Jun 2008 03:32:00 PST

Where ever you go, there you are...

I wanted to write something profound today, but I realized that my life hasn't really been populated by alot of profound revelations lately.A woman in Rainbow Grocery asked me, the other day, if I was...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Fri, 20 Jun 2008 02:00:00 PST

Optimist versus Pessimist

Now until neverThe pitch drip of penury desire never satiatesThe mechanism never relatesPerhaps I'm a little too cleverYou seeFar past me,My love can walk another roadPast the killing fields of m...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Fri, 20 Jun 2008 05:07:00 PST

To usher us through hell

And if this road has been made from memoryThen I have tread on the best of theseTo somehow remember without the peace of forgettingThe human mind is our most virulent diseaseAnd I've almost recalled j...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Tue, 17 Jun 2008 12:50:00 PST

We are never enough

How far have we  comeReallyWhen men still dictate our viability to usTell us in so many words, we are never enoughFrom the stripper poles to the submissive rolesTo the porn stars with breasts tha...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Sat, 31 May 2008 06:08:00 PST

The Power of Now

"I cannot tell you any spiritual truth that deep within you don't know already. All I can do is remind you of what you have forgotten" - Page 6  "The mind is a superb instrument if used...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Mon, 26 May 2008 03:15:00 PST

2003

Tonight, I went back and I read my livejournal blogs from March 2003 to December 2003.  The significance of this practice will be lost on most-- save for a few of my closer friends or people who ...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Wed, 21 May 2008 03:53:00 PST

You are Eternal

Many people ask, "Where did we come from?" and "Why are we here?"It is important to understand that we didn't come from anywhere, that we have always been right here right now.  Somewhere else do...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Sun, 18 May 2008 03:20:00 PST

Celebrate!

Congratulations to all of my homosexual friends for now being able to legally marry in the state of California!Let's have a party!  It's about fucking time this happened.
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Fri, 16 May 2008 06:04:00 PST

Unwritten Letter

For the past couple of days, I've been trying to talk myself out of something.  Of writing a letter I told myself in June of 2003 that I would write.There's no point really, and I'm not even sure...
Posted by La Reine Des Épées on Sun, 11 May 2008 02:19:00 PST