the only constant

F U C K. everything that i see is not as it really is. so how is it then?
it is bigger than what i see. it involves everyone, not just the people called family or the people i call friends. it doesn t stop at the people that i see when i go to the bar, either. it is not limited to those who attract my attention and stir up my thoughts, like the people that i find in front of me in traffic and the pedestrian that i almost hit as i make a right turn. there are the people in the truck that just cut me off and the guy at the bus stop with the umbrella and pants that are too high.
that is all.
and also the lady buying the twin-pack of generic brand douche, and the guy behind the register with the frosted tips and no name tag. the man who left the still burning cigarette butt in front of the atm two minutes before i got there. the girl at the drive-thru window at taco bell is part of it. she is kind of cute, but she works at taco bell so she is not good enough for me. BIASED? yes. these are all things that i can speak about because i am familiar with them.
how can i really talk about EVERYTHING without mentioning all of the things that i hear are happening in places that cost 90,000 air miles and a $25 processing fee to reach...there are the people that live in sudan that i will never? meet and their children. i heard about some people that live on an island where the water level is rising so rapidly that they have to leave their homes. it involves them too.
IT S NOT JUST PEOPLE, THOUGH. you know that. i know that. i heard about some white bears with black skin that live in cold places that are getting warmer.
i am prejudiced and judgemental. i am a fucking vampire and i want blood. i don t have a problem, i just want blood right fucking now and i don t care who i hurt in the process.
i have been conditioned to compare myself to you and your neighbor and find things about you that make me superior. WHY. not a question, but a statement of concern. IS THIS THE WAY IT S SUPPOSED TO BE? a question. perhaps this is the question that follows all of the questions that we find ourselves asking ourselves. perhaps throwing away the cardboard packaging that your rollerblades came in is easier than finding a recycling bin to put it in.
check this shit out: convenience comes in pill form. i have ___________. there is a pill for that. or i have some packaging from my ____________ i just purchased with a credit card and i need to remove it from my area. there is a blue receptacle that looks just like the god damn trash can and is right next to the fucking gray trash can to put that _________ in
i curse your god because mine is better. my god would brutally rape your god if there was such a fucking contest in which the superiority of all gods was to be measured by the brutality of rape. it would be on fox if it was televised, but fox news would root for jesus s father and say that the other gods looked french and loved to murder babies while abusing the government assistance they received.
the bastards that think they are better than others are automatically worse than everyone, but they will not see it. they don t want to see it. i don t blame them. i can t see what i don t want to see. does that mean that what i see is the way it it supposed to be? is fuck really a bad word? to who? why? FUCK YOU IF YOU SAID YES. by fuck you i really mean fuck off. or go fuck yourself. pick one and do it. do it in front of your children and make up a stupid homogenized reason that what you are doing is ok because this is what grown ups do. then tell them never to do it and instruct the nanny to give them their behavior pill.
look to the past for guidance. question the reasons behind everything that you hate. look for similarities between you and the woman walking too slow in front of you at the mall. consider your place in the world compared to humans you have never met in places that you have never been. it is possible that your problems are rather insignificant when compared to the man who is gazing upon you now. you know what you think you see in him. what do you think he sees in you?
make choices on behalf of the greater good {HUMANITY}. analyze and accept this: just because this is the way it is doesn t mean it is the way that it should be.
don t do anything i have told you because you don t even know me and i have not offered you any monetary compensation.