f_ck
(my apprehension, uncertainty and elation is everywhere) i chainsmoke that’s all. i don’t eat meat i don’t have ‘sex’ i barely sleep i care a great deal i care very little i care far too much i don’t care [at all] abrasion knives distressing affection and pain. [my RELIGION is love and damage
i
live
on
and
for
T E N D E R N E S S . O F . T H E . B R O K E N . G L A S S . K I N D
C R E A T I V I T Y . T H E . C O L O U R . O F . B L O O D
R E S I S T A N C E . W H E N . I T ‘ S . M E A N I N G L E S S
R E V O L U T I O N . W H E N . I T ‘ S . F U T I L E
A R T . W H E N . I T ‘ S . D E A D
M U S I C . W H E N . I T ‘ S . A L I V E
and [ D E S P A I R ] [ D E S P A I R ] [ D E S P A I R ] that sounds like, feels like...
s o u n d s l i k e.
f e e l s l i k e.
s o u n d s l i k e.
f e e l s l i k e.
N O W H E R E
the twenty images comprising the table above are [not] me but of a mannequin that has with a kind of alarming artistry + skill been constructed & fashioned to replicate me. a stunningly unanticipated gift and done so skillfully (and to such an eerily total extent) as to have literally stopped my heart upon original reception and consideration, a case. where an artist surpasses. to such unsettling degrees that the divisional separation between ART AGAINST LIFE is overcome... almost.
+++++++ CLICK AN IMAGE WITHIN THE TABLE ABOVE TO COME. CLOSER
A M A I ++ M I T S U ++ W O ++ A J I W A I T A I
Beware the bearers of FALSE gifts & their BROKEN PROMISES. Much PAIN but still time. BELIEVE. There is GOOD out there. We OPpose DECEPTION. COnduit CLOSING.
ANATA ++ WA ++ DAME ++ DESU
concerning my former profile
eventually i’ll get my profile properly up to speed, aka back to what it was, before the myspace admin fuckers unceremoniously DELETED MY ACCOUNT with no advance warning or even any kind of clearly stated or at all justifiable reason. i was in shock and disbelief and all versions of tacit indignation/fury for about two months or thereabouts and now. i guess i’m back. though with next to nothing in terms of any kind of ‘faith’ in this piece of shit pro-right wing pro-america pro-republican fasco-capitalist site anyway.
the bottom line is i lost nearly 5000 contacts (some of them actually significant to me) that were on my ‘friends list’ and i lost nearly twice that number in unanswered emails, messages, blog and picture comments and testimonials [some of which contained extreme sentimental value and all of which is now irretrievable]... long motherfucking story short: i’m starting over. because despite the undeniable fact that this site is shit, some beautiful things still managed to happen.
conclusion: if you never did hear from me at any point in say the last year or so right up to NOW then please resend whatever it was you had to say to me or had been waiting to hear from me in terms of a response. in other words, your collective assignment is: help me start again, against the strangeness, the numbness, the paradoxical irony. and rock darlings rock, despite everything.
PR-INCEST
pr-incest says
I RECEIVE HUNDREDS OF MESSAGES HERE EVERY WEEK AND I DO AND LOVE TO READ THEM ALL, HOWEVER. MY INBOX PROGRESSIVELY CHOKES AND STRANGLES. IT MIGHT THEREFORE TAKE ME AT TIMES WEEKS OR EVEN MONTHS TO REPLY. IF THAT FRUSTRATES YOU TOO RELENTLESSLY THEN DO NOT CONTACT ME AT ALL. THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRESUMED UNDERSTANDING.
[PS. IT MIGHT BE NICE TO DO SOMETHING THOUGHTFUL ATTENTIVE SELFLESS SPONTANEOUS DARING AND MAGNIFICENT FOR SOMEONE THAT YOU TRULY TRUTHFULLY LOVE. IT MIGHT ALSO BE NICE TO BE WHO YOU ARE WITHOUT IMPOSING YOURSELF EGOCENTRICALLY UPON OTHERS. IN OTHER WORDS BRILLIANCE OFFSET BY HUMILITY. I’M BEING ACTUALLY SERIOUS.
TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT THE AMERICAN GOVERNMENT (TAKE A GUESS AT WHAT I THINK). I DON’T AT ALL CARE FOR WHAT’S GOING DOWN BETWEEN PALESTINE AND ISRAEL. THE SHIT WITH CHINA AGAINST TIBET IS EQUALLY APPALLING AND INEXCUSABLE. I VEHEMENTLY DO NOT SUPPORT WHAT AMERICA AND BRITAIN HAVE DONE AND ARE DOING AGAINST AFGHANISTAN, IRAQ AND SOON IRAN. EVERY WAR PAST AND EVERY WAR SO FAR IS A FARCE AND A CHARADE AND AN AWFUL ONE
ARROGANCE DECEPTION DISHONESTY HATRED IGNORANCE IMITATION IMPASSIVITY INCOMPETENCE INSINCERITY INTOLERANCE NARROW-MINDEDNESS SEXISM RACISM SELF-CONGRATULATION INFIDELITY SELFISHNESS BIGOTRY AND REPUBLICANS ALL GREATLY AFFRONT AND DISPLEASE ME AND REMEMBER THIS: THE WORLD IS A SICK, SAD, LONELY, BEAUTIFUL PLACE SO MAKE A POINT OF LIVING PERILOUSLY WHILE CONCURRENTLY BEING EXCRUCIATING, EXQUISITE, PRODUCTIVE, RESOURCEFUL AND KIND.
WHAT I MIGHT MEAN IS: DON’T BE A COMMON IMITATOR OR SPECTATOR: DO SOMETHING SINGULAR, EXCEPTIONAL AND/OR PROFOUND. HELP SOMEBODY ESPECIALLY IF YOU THINK YOU CAN’T. BE BRAVE, BE SWEET AND BE ABNORMAL. THIS IS MY UNRESTRAINED ADVICE TO YOU, EVEN THOUGH I DON’T KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND EVEN THOUGH YOU NEVER ASKED. PEACE. HONESTLY].
NOW PLAYING
A R T I S T
world’s end girlfriend
S O N G
singing under the rainbow
A L B U M
dream’s end come true
L A B E L
noble records
Y E A R
2002
and:
are you a
R
O
B
O
T
.
are you suicidal, homosexual, fictional or dead.
come .
with .
me .
BRAINWASHED
PRAXIS
BUZZ FLASH
SLEPCY
COMMON DREAMS
IDROSCALO DISCHI
WHITEHOUSE.ORG
LOW ENTROPY
MIDNIGHT EYE
KLANGKRIEG
THE WAR OFFICE
ZOD
THE ADVOCATE
WIDERSTAND
ALTERNET
SKOPTIC SURGERY
CLASSICS
INFECT
MARX WORKS
LECTRR
THE MEMORY HOLE
ZHARK
THE TWILIGHT ZONE
CRITICALNOISE.NET
UNDERGROUND ACTION ALLIANCE
DEADLY SYSTEMS
COUNTERPUNCH
LOW RES
MY NEW FILING TECHNIQUE IS UNSTOPPABLE
ISOLATE
ANARCHIST ARCHIVES
THE HARD MAN OF HIP
IMMANENCE
ALL ABOUT BRUCE LEE
HISTORY LINK
PROFOUNDLY UNOFFICIAL
DISINFOPEDIA
NICHOLSON BAKER: A LIFE IN DETAIL
DISSENT MAGAZINE
ALAN WATTS
IN THESE TIMES
SAMURAI ARCHIVES
INTERNATIONAL SOCIALIST GROUP
LINUX ONLINE
KOMPAKTKISTE
YUKIO MISHIMA
FEEDBACK MONITOR
AKIRA KUROSAWA
OLD EUROPA CAFÉ
NWO
LIBERTY FOR THE PEOPLE
GRAVITY’S RAINBOW
THE NATION
STRANGE LOVE
SOCIALISM
CREASE PATTER
ASIA TIMES
SKINNY PUPPY DOT COM
ATTAC
SHIRLEY AND SPINOZA
BLACK PANTHER PARTY
SPACEMUMMY
THE ONION
HAROLD PENIS
ANIMAL RIGHTS WATCH
DOUGLAS ADAMS DOT COM
Z MAGAZINE
TIFF
SMERK ;^)
D’EUX
DROSS:TIK
ADC
HERE’S MY CARD
SONIC BELLIGERANZA
WORLD’S END GIRLFRIEND
BABYEATER
WONDERLAND FALLING YESTERDAY
WHITE MELLOW BEAN
BOING BOING
PEACE OFF
SLASHDOT
UNEARTHLY
INFOSHOP.ORG
SUBURBAN TRASH
AUTONOMY & SOLIDARITY
GEROYCHE
GREEN ANARCHY
CAVAGE
NEFAC
AMBUSH
PROFANE EXISTENCE
SOMATIC RESPONSES
RESIST!
SUBVERSION
C8
Home | Browse | Search | Invite | Film | Mail | Blog | Favorites | Forum | Groups | Events | Videos | Music | Comedy | Classifieds