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About Me

The only thing I can be sure of right now is change, and it takes time to get used to that idea. I have yet to procure the art of happy mediums. I live life in extremes; I prescribe to the all-or-nothing approach to life. I don't believe in doing something unless it is going to be done passionately. I pursue only the things I love, and follow through on my endeavors to the highest completion. Going halfway and then turning back takes as much time as finishing what you started.
Lately I have been having the uncontrollable feeling that my entire world is going to change overnight. Maybe it already has. I am rather enamored with the idea of being an explorer; I wander down quiet city streets and pretend I am the first to have walked them in ages. I never turn down an opportunity to try something new. All I really want to do is travel the world and meet as many amazing people as I can while I am doing it...
I am not an artist, everyone is a damn artist these days. I am a candle and a mirror; I illuminate and reflect what is already alive and present, so sadly all i can offer is a different point of view. I write about nothing important, every day.
I don't sleep, hardly ever, my favorite time of the day is that short ambiguous period once the night has ended and before the sun has risen when the world falls silent and I feel like I am the only one alive...
I constantly speak in superlatives. I am finding a lot of "best ever" material lately.
I currently love: reading constantly, writing paragraphs, painting on things i find in the dumpster, hoarding polaroid film, going to shows alone, drawing on just about anything, making music in bedrooms, cutting hair, hawaiian waves, phone conversations that last the entire life of my battery, watching skate videos and tv on dvd, traveling for cheap, cooking and baking, being Canadian, wearing dresses, riding my bike while singing at the top of my lungs, reading the dictionary, being a good hostess, road trips with the windows down the whole way, staying up too late all the time, and best friends.
When I grow up I want to do what makes me happy and be successful at it. At the moment that pursuit is somewhat open-ended, not because I don't know what I want to do, but because there are so many things that I love doing. For now I am on a journey where nothing is definite except for my heart and a strong will to find out exactly who I can be.

My Interests

reading, writing, and arithmetic.

my current projects:

I'd like to meet:

Someone who can rival me in SCRABBLE... or who wants to wash and fold my laundry and then put it all away for me.
Truthfully, I want to know more really genuine people.
I want to meet people who are passionate about something, whether it's art, music, writing, or just living life to its fullest expression.
I want to know more people who aren't afraid to be themselves, but don't take themselves too seriously.
I want more friends who don't wait for you to call them, and who would do anything for each other.
I want to know more people who can hang out on occasion without the company of drugs or alcohol.
I want to meet people who can sit and talk endlessly about everything and nothing without a pause in between.
I want to know more people who aren't opposed to walking around with a smile on their face.
I want to meet anyone who has said "yes," even once, while reading this...

Movies:

16 Years of Alcohol, Adaptation, The Adventures of Sebastian Cole, American Beauty, American History X, Big Fish, Boondock Saints, The Breakfast Club, Cruel Intentions, Dazed and Confused, Dogtown, Edward Scissorhands, Empire Records, Fast Times at Ridgemont High, Fifth Element, Fight Club, Garden State, Ghost World, Ghostbusters, Gleaming the Cube, Great Expectations, Heathers, I Heart Huckabees, Life Aquatic, LORD OF THE RINGS, Lost In Translation, Napoleon Dynamite, The Nightmare Before Christmas, The Neverending Story, Pleasantville, Pumpkin, Rad, Requiem for a Dream, Romeo & Juliet, Royal Tenenbaums, Rushmore, Serendipity, Sideways, Snatch, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Wet Hot American Summer

Television:

Books:

Heroes:

Claes Oldenburg, Marcel DuChamp, Andy Warhol, Morrissey, Iggy Pop, The Ramones, Henry Miller, TS Eliot, JR Tolkien, and any artist who takes strides to accomplish dreams not set out for them, but set by them in the face of mediocracy and adversity.

My Blog

revelation

In the coming yearsI foresee a great change;An unravelling and a revealingof something that has been bound upand hidden for so longthat no one remembers how great it was.Today marks the beginning of a...
Posted by emily is smiling on Wed, 05 Nov 2008 09:02:00 PST

black horse

black horse swingin'at the break of dawn,hangin' from an oakby a rope so strong.fire's been burnin'on the folk's front lawngot a pit and a spitso it won't be long.left banks callto the errant wave,but...
Posted by emily is smiling on Sun, 05 Oct 2008 12:26:00 PST

A lesson about procrastinating (That i cannot seem to learn).

There is a valuable lesson to be learned hereabout leaving serious things too longbefore giving them proper attention:So I have this tendency to throw caution to the wind,which very often results in m...
Posted by emily is smiling on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 11:03:00 PST

tonight something changed

i can't be certain of whether tonightsomething finally broke orjust wore through,but on the drive homei felt a changenot really worth articulating,except to say thati understood my placemore fully tha...
Posted by emily is smiling on Sat, 27 Sep 2008 03:19:00 PST

Opportunity Knocks

There had been momentswhen they were alonethat she had thought it was real;A sort of unforcasted chemistrythat lingered in the airand made their breath seem heavy.She had tried to fall in love with gi...
Posted by emily is smiling on Tue, 23 Sep 2008 08:01:00 PST

hope floats

He was grasping for meaningfrom the little things.Late afternoon light-rich and yellowed,poured through front windows;And the silhouettes of swaying branches and falling leavesdanced across the room.D...
Posted by emily is smiling on Sat, 20 Sep 2008 07:44:00 PST

Face

His fingertips were stainedwith ink and charcoaland whatever else he could findto blacken out her face.The portrait had already stood over the mantlea number of weeks longerthan he really felt comfort...
Posted by emily is smiling on Thu, 18 Sep 2008 10:27:00 PST

Lake McKay

The summer air had begun to thinand the mild wind felt crisp against their bare skin.Near the shorethe water behaved like glassand cast back the pale skywith perfect accuracy.Staring down from the doc...
Posted by emily is smiling on Thu, 18 Sep 2008 10:22:00 PST

A case of the murmurs and blurs

The room was crowded and dark,and as I stood sipping my drinkand leaning against the railing,the sounds of drunken banter and club hits from the 90's slurred together,and the lights on the dance floor...
Posted by emily is smiling on Thu, 18 Sep 2008 09:38:00 PST

huricane season

The trees were dripping and the air was damp,and the windows of my glassesfilled with condensationonce i pressed them against my face.I battled with the idea of whethertaking them off might actually p...
Posted by emily is smiling on Wed, 10 Sep 2008 02:27:00 PST