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[cyanide girl.]

About Me



To what serves mortal beauty | - dangerous; does set dancing blood - the O-seal-that-so | feature, flung prouder form | Than Purcell tune lets tread to? | See: it does this: keeps warm | Men's wits to the things that are; | what good means - where a glance | Master more than gaze, | gaze out of countenance. |

<[i>to what serves mortal beauty? // gerard manley hopkins]

My Interests

the basics.
independent generating of things. late nights. local shows. low lights. phones ringing. words beautiful. sleeping on couches. awkward moments on doorsteps. anything to make your heart hurt === and for the head to go numb.
knowing that i am barely making it.
and that someday, i will be...

I'd like to meet:

the rest of my life. someone as intent on the mysterious and possibly as crazy as i am. other insomniacs; so i have someone to stay up all night with. midnight ghosts seeking the same sort of disjointed reality and adventures...
AIM... drawinwhitelines

..

Music:

An appeal to the ever changing dynamics of the world around me. You would be surprised.

Books:

Current: (on the road). jack kerouac. (I know I have been reading this book for almost a year now...)
(cat's cradle) kurt vonnegut.
(the crying of lot 49) thomas pynchon.
(the lovely bones) alice sebold.
(geek love) katherine dunn.
(fresh girls) evelyn lau.
(slaughter house-five) kurt vonnegut.
(fight club. invisible monsters. choke. survivor. lullaby. diary. stranger than fiction.) chuck palahunik.
(catcher in the rye) j.d. salinger
(the clothes they stood up in) alan bennett.
(the great gatsby) f. scott fitzgerald.
(god-shaped hole) tiffanie debartolo.
(fat land) greg critser.
(the zombie survival guide) max brooks.
(animal dreams) barbara kingsolver.
(the rules of attraction) bret easton ellis.
(high fidelity) nick hornby.
(wasted) marya hornbacher.
(the philosophy of punk: more than noise!) craig o'hara.
(a field guide to the urban hipster) josh aiello.
(alice in wonderland) lewis carroll.
(fear and loathing in las vegas) hunter s. thompson.
(animal farm. 1984.) george orwell.
(call of the wild. white fang.) jack london.
(Fahrenheit 451) ray bradbury.
(a clockwork orange) anthony burgess.
(a million little pieces) james frey.
(the perks of being a wallflower) stephen chbosky.
(carrie. christine. cujo. desperation. dream catcher. the eyes of the dragon. gerald's game. IT. misery. pet sematary. rose madder. the shining. the stand. the talisman.) stephen king.
(the long walk. thinner.) richard bachman.
(stargirl) jerry spinelli.

My Blog

Personal Reminder

The Deformities are breaking up: Last shows: SATURDAY MARCH 29TH @ THE WAITING ROOM  PUNK ROCK REUNION SHOW 8 OLD SCHOOL OMAHA PUNK BANDS for $5 (except for us as representative of new school...
Posted by [cyanide girl.] on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 06:37:00 PST

...with the wings of heaven on my shoes...

listening to lincoln, or at least nebraska bred ska, i booked tickets.two weeks prior i wrote a time off resquest at four a.m. for nine days.nine well deserved days.one week before, i viewed a complet...
Posted by [cyanide girl.] on Mon, 07 Jan 2008 08:33:00 PST

sometimes we stand on hilltops just to see what we can see.

this morning i woke with a medicated taste to my mouth, blurry thoughts over blurry dreams, and to wonder why i was propped up on three pillows. i rolled and hit my swollen jaw on the pillow. oh yes. ...
Posted by [cyanide girl.] on Wed, 18 Jul 2007 05:24:00 PST

.

I can't stand to think that living with my thoughts in the future will get me anywhere today. Why not live for today? I am old trailer trash in new shoes.  ...
Posted by [cyanide girl.] on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 02:49:00 PST

don't.

    don't hold your peace.
Posted by [cyanide girl.] on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 10:49:00 PST

oh, you've got radium eyes...

Merry is the man / with money in his hand / with grease between the wheels / and lamps in his latrine / and stacks of fresh towels for his wet hands.Counting up all his toys.Draining tent fire from th...
Posted by [cyanide girl.] on Sat, 13 Jan 2007 07:33:00 PST