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iJohn™

some will seek forgiveness, others escape

About Me

im 19 years old, i graduated Merced High School in 2005, my best friend is rachel,i was born in Hollywood, Ca and i moved here when i was about yay height i go to hollywood every year to see my other family, i live in Merced, Ca now and this town sucks im hoping to move back to Chicago when i become more finnicaclly up there, right now i work at yosemite national park as a ski lift attendant and a snowboard instructor, and i got a girlfriend who means the world to me click here
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My Interests

wakeboarding
working out
going to the gym
boxing
kickboxing
freestyle snowboarding
burton
my flow bindings
5150 boards
my dc boots
volcom
six eighty Six
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Underoath
Watch Me Die I lay as this sacrifice to this unholy altar The evil inside Satan; Satan sit and watch me die Demented screams, tortured beings, where's your hope, where's your smile, there was none Life of lies gone, gone no more So upset, so distraught, I'm sorry, I'm Sorry... I live for the Lord Watch me die no longer I am alive My purpose no more... I live for Christ Dead to sin, only begin, imagine what's for Soldier of Christ Changed with a new beginning, blood of the lamb, white washed sins Forgive me God for all of these years of my transgressions I cry renewed, I cry renewed This world means nothing to me My life changed I now see Crucified with Christ, the old self left with the rest of this world, rest of this world Kneel before his throne, home now from this journey I see my father in his arms finally found This path I have chosen is hard but I'll make it with my saviors help I survive this hell till the end I'll stand true Eternal life, ready for the fight that the evil brings No giving in... I'm free The fire burns engulfing all the victims in it's path, no where to run Over taken they give in to surrender to the Lord once, and for all No longer keeping quiet, no longer standing still, no longer giving in, no longer going back I stand strong praying for love always to be in my heart
Underoath
Cries Of the Past It happened all so fast, heavy with sleep, my eyes closed... The next thing I remember was crawling out from the car, And seeing you lying there Holding your head, kissing you for the last time The taste of blood on my lips... Your clothes torn apart, perfumed with gas It seems like it was yesterday when the rain poured down I can still hear your screams as if it was happening all over againSaturday, December 4th: That night would become a grave, That would crush my heart Joy and laughter exchanged for grief, and silence. Searching for so long to find you, And the moment I did, you were ripped from me... Laying here on this empty shelf never to be read again In these pages lies every memory of you The wind blew your heart over my eyes, And I slept for days praying not to awake, But these dreams can only last so long. Facing the day looking through these tears I'll always look back and remember that night... (... ? ...)Looking over that casket, seeing your face.. Times of past rushing by.. Touching your cold hand, wishing it would touch me back You look so pretty lying there, just like the first day we metIt feels so real; like old times, but it's nothing, it's nothing...I can taste the stale air on my tongue. And death lights up the sky. Hope finds itself it and it ends, stopping at my thoughts Pictures of you help bring back the tearsWalking in the present, but living in the past How much longer will I embrace sorrow?From the moment that you entered my life My whole outlook on love would changeYou brought out a happiness I didn't even know I had, And now you've gone, leaving without a goodbye...THAT GLASS HEART THAT RESTED IN MY CHEST HAS FALLEN AND SHATTEREDHere on, Lord, is the remains of a broken heart For I have faith you can give me joy and life againDeath has fallen, but love covers me Heaven is now home to my angel of love
Underoath
A Love So Pure Always did it on my own then one day I realized I was blind,, nothing I could do on my own Turn, we have found a way to see, look up... feel the Almighty Take control as we gaze into your eyes We're just the tool you use to bring this world to you Oh, Lord, how we love you With your grace, take away the hurt and the bruises inside, reach down let your glory reside The cross carried for all of us, paint the image in my mind So I will never think I am something, but nothing am I but you, you are something Lord you keep me alive, you give me rest at night When there seems no way to find calmness in the storm you come and take me in your arms and then the waves drown me no more With you I'll last this battle and many others Through the ages your name will reigh forever... never to be replaced In these trials I face, I pray you humble me Humble me I want to be like you Jesus more and more like you I was crucified on that day with Christ Nailing you there with sin, accepting you I nailed my soul to the cross and now my life begins This world so cold but your love keeps me warm My father holds me in his nailed scarred hands which I put there But for some reason he still loves me with all his heart Even through I betray him constantly He always keeps his arms open waiting, till I give up my old was God my father, you are the only one that can give me comfort You touch my heart in such a way that all I can do is cry your name Jesus Christ I love you My heart aches for your love

HEY JOHN!

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Music:


NEW IPOD!
old ipod,
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100 bucks
FAVORITE BANDS
NO PARTICULAR ORDER♠UNDEROATH♠
♣EMERY♣
*Thursday*
*Paramore*
*Adema*
*Kill Hannah*

*Aiden*
*Kill Your Ex*
*Alexisonfire*
*Escape the Fate*
*Bubba Sparxxx*
*Expose the Flaw*
*The Fray*
*Another Broken Promise
*Marilyn Manson*
*Thirty Seconds to Mars*
*Mike Jones*
*Missy Elliott*
*Nelly*
*Nine Inch Nails*
*Nirvana*
*The Fall of Troy*
*American Hi-Fi*
*As I Lay Dying*
*thrice*
*fall of troy*
*My American Heart*
*Insane Clown Posse*
*lil jon and the eastside boys*
*lil rob*
*lil kim*
*usher*
*2pac*
*snoop dog*
*bloc party*
*from autmn to ashes*
*halifax*
*armor for sleep*
*Dear Damien*
*Sutterfly*
*COOLHANDLUKE*
*Type O Negative*
*Crash Avenue*
*Something Corprorate*
*From First To Last*
*Aroarah*
*Another Dying Hero*
*NEON BLONDE*
*bleed the dream*
*yesterdays rising*
*Panic! at the disco*
*betrayal*
*amber sky*
*a lost sorrow*
*A midnight white*
*A Portrait to Remember*
*Ambulance! Ambulance!*
*Anemic*
*A Lesson Learned*
*Mortal Treason*
*Lifehouse*
*The Early November*
*The Starting Line*
*Bowling for Soup*
*Evergreen Terrace*
*Hidden in Plain View*
*Adison*
*Thrice*
*As Cities Burn*
*Story of the year*
*System of a down*
*Linkin Park*
*Bleed the dream*
*Trapt*
*New Found Glory*
*Lost Prophets*
*Korn*
*Blink 182*
*Yellowcard*
*Sugarcult*
*Switchfoot*
*Chimaira*
*The Ataris*
*AFI*
*Machine Head*
*Bleeding Through*
*The Blank Theory*
*Staind*
*Saliva*
*Seether*
*disturbed*
*deftones*
*taking back sunday*
*brand new*

*led Zepplin*
*acdc*
*evanessence*
*creed*
*rage against the machine*
*mushroom head*
*incubus*
*blood brothers*
*cross town rivals*
*still life projector*

*sum 41*
*modest mouse*
*the killers*
*the Ramones*
*THE USED*
*Senses Fail

*hawthrone heights*
*matchbook Romance*
*my chemical romance*
*tool*
*a perfect circle*
*the useless*
*metallica*
*mars volta*
*limp Bizkit*
*mudvayne*
*atreyu*
*fall out boy*
*a static lullaby*
*shadows fall*
*evaline*
*unsung hero*
*postal Service*
*the lonely side of murder*
*Haste the Day* Favorite Music Genres Screamo
Hardcore
Punk
Emo
metal
death metal
Metal
R&B
some rap
post hardcore
post punk
disco
Trance
Rave
Techno
surfing music





Movies:


Favorite movies(not all of them) Harry Potter Series
Boondock Saints
Final Destination 1,2,3
Donny Darko
Monster House
John Tucker Must Die
Accepted
Mean girls
When The Hills Have Eyes
Stealth
Cellular
Scarface
Mr. And Mrs Smith
Spiderman 1,2
Staying Alive
Mean Girls
The Benchwarmers
Power Ranger Movies
Nightmare on elm street series
Friday the 13th Series
Halloween Series
Willy wonka and the choclate factory
Charlie and the Chocloate Factory
Sleepy Hallow
One Flew over the cukoos Nest

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Television:


favorite shows(not all of them) South Park
Pimp My Ride
Jackass
Viva La Bam
Futurama
Family Guy
Weather Channel
Kim Possible
Laguna Beach
The OC!
Suite Life of Zach and Cody
Boy Meets World
Daria
Aqua Teen Hunger Force
Harry Birdman
Yo Momma

Books:



I LOVE
JESUS CHRIST

Heroes:



I HEART HER!!

MY SEXY KIKI!

MY HOME SKILLET BAILEY!


♥YE LOVE THEE GAL♥
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My Blog

fair 2006. YAH WHOO!

So this year it was me, rachel, my mom and my sister at the fair. I went on Sunday and there weren't many people there. Basically it was mexican city the day that we went. In the car on t...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 24 Jul 2006 02:06:00 PST

IM IN SOUTH CAL!

hey, im in south cal right now, for skills usa state competion, it is sooo awesome, im meeting alot of people including college chicks from around the area, we arrived here on thursday, and yesterday ...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

I WON SILVER!!!

remember i was all saying im going to the skills usa regional competition in lodi....yeah i went...i saw 2 very digusting, very ugly, very foul lesbians hahaha one had layers and layers of acne but i ...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

omg weird day today

wow what a weird day today, today in my government class we had those drug dogs come in class, and i got pulled out of class. the dog smelled something in my bag...so i went to the vice principals off...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

fill out

Fill this out :) 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked ...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

song i wrote(bout my breakup) kinda emo! lol

FATE by Jonathan Lucas You turned me down inside Why should I even go stop and hide You turned me down, You left me something more than a frown. (CHORUS 1x) But I can ma...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

depressed today

heh, im depressed today cause my dad is such an asshole...he is really abusive and i dont wanna live with him anymore....he is really negative towards me and he fucking kicked me when i told him i los...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

nothing to do today

there is nothing to do today i slept most of the day....lol im soooo bored today there is nothing to do my summer was fun i went to Las Vegas and i had fun =) my grandma's uncle just died yesterday an...
Posted by john.zilla™ on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST