Drowning without the river around me.. Thoughts rain into my already suffocating mind... Seeing visions of broken lies.... Seeing visions of lose love in my eyes... Watching the world move on without me.... Locked in a mind of self destruction.... Searching for something that is not there... But finding what I don't want... Lost all the will that I had... Lost all the hope I ever gave.. Just so I can look back and smile to his shadow.. For I lost the wings I held to the wind... And the destiny I held so close was taken from me by a dark haired angel without wings of his own.. Thinking I am not enough even for him... I gave into my fears... I gave into my lies... And walked through the sky of shadows... ...nothing...
I watched this devil leave a cut on my face.
With the eyes of lost I saw his soul and wished it to walk away.
I was lost for days and weeks...
With no way to tell you what is in my heart and what is not really to leave it...
What can I do to let go of this pain?
To wish away the empty thought I had...
To know what will happen and do nothing to stop it...
To know that he will kill what I have left inside...
Nothing there to hold on to...
Not his hand...
Not even my own....-empty-