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April

Nothing more completely baffles one who is full of tricks & duplicity than straight-forward &

About Me


FIRST & FOREMOST : If I know you PERSONALLY add my "friends only site" --
Http://www.myspace.com/NeverPeruseAprilsMind
UPDATE ON THINGS: I recently moved to Anchorage, Alaska -- it's fucking beautiful out here & you wouldn't believe the sceneries. To think, someone that is practically anemic & has low iron would love this freezing goodness. I'll be back to visit my good ol' Massachusetts at the end of December some time, so get ready! Chow for now.
I survived, despite you
[I survived -- despite you]
'Cause I lived in you
'Cause I lived in you
I survived despite you
DISCLAIMER: Find some better games to play, otherwise I will not be interested &/or amused. What's the point of playing a game in which you completely understand?...That's right there isn't any fun in that. Another thing...I have been keeping myself away from all of you because of you. Does that make sense? I have fallen off the face of Webster earth so that I can keep some sanity. All the drama involved with socializing out here is malarkey at a great extent nonetheless, I wont stand for it. So most likely...I'll want to meet someone nowhere near here. Hence moving out of state in approximately 2 months. C-ya! ::Waves:: Defeats the whole purpose eh? Not in my eyes. Originality seems to be very many states away & I'm okay with that, if that's what it takes to discover it.
I can't state enough, NO RELATIONSHITS, not with any of you, I am HAPPILY married [yes, I'm really married--papers, stamp & all] to a BEAUTIFUL man that I will enjoy the rest of my life with. See, the difference between you & I...I wont let something this great pass me by.
(= Your games are outplayed & boring, move the fuck on, thanks =)
I'm not going to lower my standards, develop a habit & become moronic like yourselves. How's that for a "high fucking horse". Come one come all, to witness someone you think you know. I am greatly saddened by your lack of courage to move on to the next step in your lives, really.
I don't know how you people can do this shit to animals.
Josh' characters make me =).
Friends don't exist they are merely a figmant of my imagination. Save yourself, fuck the rest. No matter what you do, people never seem to be satisfied. Take me the wrong way & think you have me figured out, I want to watch you gasp for your last breath. Just because someone doesn't bitch moan & complain constantly doesn't mean they haven't lived with their demons, so next time someone doesn't complain 24-7 take a gander & think to yourself for once, hey...maybe this person doesn't want to dwell & be fucking miserable, that's why their internal scars don't shine through. Sorry, but being in the spotlight for sympathy is overrated & poorly thought up. Fucking spermicides. You're weak & you have my sympathy for being completely moronic & pathetic, ignoramouses. Go fix yourself & stop blaming the world for your "fucked up" lives.
April, you're a Skydiver !
You're open minded, extroverted, free-spirited, and independent. Chances are you're pretty liberal. You're like a magnet for love and affection. People adore you. And, thanks to that healthy dose of self-confidence, you're super-flexible.
Chances are, you're a great leader at work. You're also a self-starter and will always volunteer to take on a job. You're also an excellent communicator and tend to spread your enthusiasm to others.
And that's just scratching the surface!
How You Approach Life
You, Skydiver, are a free-sprited mix of some of the best qualities around. Your drive to live an adventurous life compliments your penchant for abstract thinking and disdain for the conventional and routine aspects of life. Your unusually high self-esteem and desire to do the just and right thing contribute to your particularly high level of responsibility. With all this going on, it's amazing that you lead such a markedly balanced life.
Even though your thirst for adventure seems unquenchable, you know where the line is — which is ultimately why you're so reliable. Though admittedly, sometimes that line is harder to see than others.
You are independent, fun, interesting, and gung-ho about life. So much so that people tend to find you an irresistible presence to be around. You're open and extroverted, and willing to see issues from at least a couple of different sides.
Both professionally and amongst friends, you are a great leader. You're a self-starter and are conscious of picking up the slack when others don't. That's not terribly surprising, since you also are such a tremendous communicator who's looking to mix it up and stay away from routine. Your enthusiasm is contagious — and along with your sincere love of life — will take you far.
So charge ahead, Skydiver. It only gets better.
Your areas of greatest vulnerability
Your vulnerability is that your adventurous spirit may make the necessities of life seem mundane and make it hard for you to slow down and engage with the world you're presented with. Going for new experiences and searching for stimulation are all excellent qualities. But when you don't have alternative modes of being, they can become liabilities. Your need to satisfy your curiosity or experience a thrill can take on an almost addictive quality at times. You may have a tendency to feel trapped doing routine, familiar things others find comforting. Be your best: Finding ways to be patient in ordinary situations and living in the present moment are keys to a more manageable life. Many Skydivers find meditation or yoga to be of great help.
Section II — What makes you a Skydiver?
Your personality is actually determined by two personality sub-types — your primary, or dominant sub-type, and your secondary sub-type.
In your case, Skydiver, your two sub-types are Seeker and Golden. Your primary sub-type is defined by "Seeker" characteristics and your secondary sub-type is defined by "Golden" characteristics.
Your primary type is Seeker
Like other people with Seeker characteristics, you have a thirst for highly stimulating experiences. You gravitate towards unpredictable situations and then thrive once you find them. You would rather improvise than live by a strict calendar that adds structure to daily life. Also, you tend to find consistent routines absolutely strangling.
Intellectually, you're an explorer — which is why you tend to enjoy abstract thinking. In terms of entertainment, you veer toward media that is dark and edgy, flashy and loud, strange and intellectual. You tend to be interested in activities that get you out in the world including the performing arts and new age spirituality.
More than others, you are driven toward higher states of being — you are seeking something beyond the routines and appearances of ordinary existence. In short, you desire nothing more than complete transcendence. At times this quest can manifest as a fear of being tied down. You ultimately perceive confinement as a negative experience and may crave the unpredictable and unexpected because of this.
Your secondary type is Golden
People with Golden characteristics have unusually high self-esteem and are very conscientiousness. They are responsible, dependable, and dutiful — people others rely on. They are also efficient, and do not like to waste time. They tend to go about life with a positive attitude — both about themselves and the world around them.
Intellectually, Goldens are careful, deliberating thinkers. In terms of entertainment, Goldens enjoy media that is romantic, happy, and inspiring, and tend to avoid media that is dark, edgy, and sad. They are interested a wide variety of things including cooking, eating out, nutrition, travel, sports, recreation, fitness, health and traditional religion.
Section III — Your Four Personality Dimensions
Your primary and secondary personality sub-types determine your personality type. There are, however, additional elements that contribute to your complete personality profile.
Based on how you answered the questions on the Ultimate Personality Test, we have determined where you fall on four distinct personality scales: Relaxed/Apprehensive, Self-Doubt/Confidence, Safety-Seeking/ Risk-Taking, and Internal Experience/External Appearance. The scales are not dependent on one another. They are meant to show you whether you tend towards one or the other extreme, or are somewhere in the middle.
Here's the breakdown of your scores on the four personality dimension scales.
Relaxed, Apprehensive, Self-Doubt, Confidence, Safety-Seeking, Risk-Taking, Internal Experience, & External Appearance
Relaxed versus Apprehensive
Relaxed Apprehensive
Your scores place you in the moderately relaxed region of the relaxed/apprehensive scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, you have a calm disposition. It also indicates that you are extremely good at dealing with change and chaotic situations.
Since you scored just slightly more on the relaxed side of things, let's take a look at characteristics of people who scored more towards the extremes of the apprehensive/relaxed scale to gauge where you fall in between.
People who score high on the apprehensive side of this scale are likely to be drawn to situations that are less stimulating to their senses. Because they are easily affected by change, they try to stay away from environments that can over-stimulate them.
These people have strong reactions to what others would consider minor changes. That is why people who score high on the apprehensive side of the scale try to slow down the pace. When faced with chaotic situations, they will look for more calming places to be. Despite their talents, they are generally more self-critical and shy than others, even if it seems there's no reason for them to be.
People who score high on the relaxed side of this scale are likely to be stimulated by chaos. They approach life with a "the more the better" kind of attitude. They tend to have high energy levels because they are relaxed about problems that are out of their control. These people are relatively less inclined to react emotionally to things that happen — not because they don't feel the emotions, but because they don't let things get to them as easily as others.
Since you're someone who thrives on excitement, you need to take time to analyze different aspects of your life if you're feeling unhappy. Are you feeling stunted, bored or depressed about something you can't quite put a finger on? The answer could lie in uncovering an element of your routine that isn't challenging or stimulating enough. Is your job predictable or easy? Do have a hard time finding good entertainment in your town? Are your relationships falling into a rut?
Even if friends and family envy your life — your home, your mate, your job — remember it's ok if you're still not satisfied. It doesn't mean that you're not grateful, it simply means that you need a change to keep you from being bored. If you're not up for dramatic life changes, make sure you're vigilant about mixing things up a little: take a new class, plan a trip, learn a new skill, or start an art project.
Self-Doubt versus Confidence
Self-Doubt Confidence
Your scores place you in the moderately confident region of the self-doubt/confidence scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, you are more confident than most. It also indicates that you are generally more satisfied with yourself than are others. Even when your confidence slips, you're still more dependable than many.
Since you scored just slightly more on the confident side of things, let's take a look at characteristics of people who scored more towards the extremes of the scale to gauge where you fall in between.
People scoring high on the confidence side are extremely self-assured and responsible. Because of these traits, they are often the one friends and colleagues come to rely on — both on the job and in personal situations. These people are also known for having unusually high self-esteem and are natural leaders.
People who score high on the self-doubt side of the scale have a tendency to look to others to determine their self-worth. They seek calm environments and often focus their energies on jobs that have less responsibility and are therefore less stressful. They are sometimes prone to being overly-critical about themselves, but can work their way out of those thoughts because ultimately, others might point out their talents.
If you're feeling some unrest in your life it could be because you don't have as many responsibilities as you'd like to. Other people may be telling you to unload your burdens, that you do too much. But, for you, the opposite might actually be true. You are willing and capable, so maybe it's time to take on a few new projects.
Safety-Seeking versus Risk-Taking
Safety-Seeking Risk-Taking
Your scores place you in the moderately risk-taking region of the safety-seeking/risk-taking scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, you sometimes throw caution to the wind and leave things up to chance. Sometimes however, you prefer to play it safe and seek the security of predictable situations.
Since you scored just slightly more on the risk-taking side of things, let's take a look at characteristics of people who scored more towards the extremes of the scale to gauge where you fall in between.
People who score high on the risk-taking side combine a love of the new and unusual with a talent for inquisitive, abstract thinking. They seek out action and find structure and predictability to be strangling experiences.
People who score high on the safety-seeking side of the safety-seeking/risk-taking scale prefer their environments to remain stable. They feel that predictability has positive connotations and that stability is a comfort and an indication of safety.
Don't underestimate the power structure and routine can have on your emotional state. Take a look at areas in your life you feel restricted. Is there anything that can be done about them? Do you have to adhere to strict work hours, for example? If that is something you can't control, focus on the areas in which you do have control. Take a walk in the morning instead of the evening. Go out to dinner instead of making it. Even little things like that can have an impact you might not expect.
External Appearance versus Internal Experience
Internal Experience External Appearance
Your scores place you in the moderate internal experience region of the internal experience/external appearance scale. This means that relative to others who have taken the test, you're focused on the internal experience of a given situation. It also indicates that occasionally, you take more pride in how things appear to others.
Since you scored just slightly more on the internal experience side of things, let's take a look at characteristics of people who scored more towards the extremes of the scale to gauge where you fall in between.
People who score high on the internal experience side of the scale don't really believe that material possessions are a reflection of their success. In fact, they tend not to focus on how things appear to others at all. They feel that success comes from doing a good job, and knowing that they have positively influenced the world.
People who score high on the external appearance end of the scale tend to be motivated by a wish to be socially desirable. They want to move up and be seen in the world. For them, true success is important, and material possessions are the sign they have achieved it. Therefore, these people sometimes believe that happiness is directly a result of success and that the possessions they own are a reflection of that success.
You are someone who takes comfort in surrounding your things with nice things and there's nothing wrong with that. So the next time your parent's raise their eyebrows at your latest purchase, or your friends joke about your "habit" of acquiring the latest electronic gadgets, don't let it get to you.
There's nothing wrong with buying yourself a new outfit, a new car, or whatever it is you've had your eye on. Don't underestimate the power owning "stuff" can have on your emotional life. Just make sure it's within your means. Otherwise other parts of your life might suffer.
Section IV — The Skydiver and the World Around You
How Others See You
People see you as down to earth with a free spirit. You convey your genuineness to others with your ability to focus on what counts — you are not easily swayed by superficial things. You also don't act in fake ways to “get ahead” or to look better than others. People notice that about you and appreciate it. People intuitively trust you with their secrets. They can see that you are not judgmental, and that appeals to many. You are open and free, yet grounded in the things that really matter.
Communication Style
When communicating with others, you are both confident and calm — a powerfully appealing combination. Your even demeanor means it's rare for you to become upset or overwhelmed. In fact, you're likely to act as a neutralizing force when things get really intense. When you're approached aggressively, you're unlikely to react defensively. It is important for you to stay sensitive and realize that what might appear irrational in others may just be the manifestation of their own self-doubt. Use your strength to have compassion for others.
Your Romantic Life
You have high standards for love, believing in one love that outshines the others. To you, successful romance has two aspects: an emotional connection based on mutual care, and doing things together that you and your partner both love. You're happy with someone who enjoys the unexpected as much as you do. You'll both be excited at the prospect of situations with an unknown outcome. You and your well-suited mate enjoy high quality conversation and fulfilling experiences together. You are deep, sincere and willing to take emotional risks. You succeed in romance when you use your intuition and intelligence to choose someone whose compatibility with you goes deeper than the surface.
You At Your Best
You would love it if every day were full of play and freedom. When you can indulge your creativity, zest for fun and knack for expressing yourself, you're at most definitely at your best. For balance in your life, however, it's important for you to build in times of peace, quiet and recovery. Left to your own instincts, you can become overstimulated at times, and exhausted by exploring all of your interests. So give yourself the gift of some downtime. That'll set you up to be really present when you follow your passions for exploration and fun.
Achieving Success
You don't need possessions and status to prove your self-worth. So what does ambition mean to you? As long as you're pleased with what you are doing, there's no need to strive for more. With this combination of traits, you're beautifully suited to finding work that is personally fulfilling and of service to others. You're fortunate to not have self-esteem tied up with external success, so ask yourself what you want to accomplish with all that talent — and then enjoy the process.
What Really Motivates You
For you, the chase is the reward. You are motivated by challenge, excitement, the chance to test your obviously ample abilities — and to get that coveted adrenaline rush in the process. You love to use your mind, so you're always looking for your next learning opportunity. If you know that a challenge includes difficult, abstract thinking, you're intrigued and enticed. Motivation for you is inspiration. There's no end to the energy you'll find when given the latitude to pursue your dreams creatively.
Conflict
You value issues that go beneath the surface so you're not likely to get caught up in petty conflicts. When you do find yourself in conflict with people, it's likely to be people you're truly close to and with whom you're emotionally engaged. The topic of the conflict tends to be something fairly complex and definitely profound and challenging. Your insight and calm help you get through these situations with minimal drama. The only drawback there is that sometimes people mistake your cool demeanor for not caring about the issue. Your challenge is to communicate that getting upset isn't the only way to thoughtfully address a difficult issue.
Getting Unstuck in Your Life
For you, being stuck in your life is not likely to mean stuck in self-doubt or self-defeating patterns. You're more likely to get stuck on a whirring treadmill of activities, ideas and adventures. Although you're often admired for your energy and gusto for living, the downside is that you can exhaust yourself and miss out on some of life's subtler pleasures. Another possible pitfall is that those around you — your friends, your sweetheart, your friends and family — don't naturally run at the same non-stop pace. This means that sometimes you wind up dragging them along on your sprint through life. Your challenge is to slow down, take some time for reflection and recovery. Just remember that you can always step off that treadmill. And when you do, you'll see everything from a new perspective.
When you lie to the reflection
You're only letting yourself down.
Aren't there already enough people
Trying to drag, break, & hold you down --
Without you doing it to yourself?
"Anyone who has never made a mistake, has never tried anything new."
If you are demoralizing to yourself or obstinate, [other than in any complex sort of manner], then there's really no need to bother with me. Just throwing that out into the field of incompetence for you to snarl & bite at.
How are your briefs hanging? I'm April I have come far, as apposed to where I originated from. A dismantled hole, easily tweezed & picked apart...With a deformed looking heart on the tip of my sleeve. Gore & all, brought up, down, dragged through rain, snow, sleet, mud or any precipitation in general, rather. [Theoretically speaking of coarse]. So what do I do? I take the next step & continue to grow & learn from any mistakes I have made in the past & believe me there are more to come as time goes by. Who is to say that everyone lives their perfect life without working to retrieve it? Not I...nor you, or anyone else for that matter. I could take the easy way or struggle & let me say I prefer the competition. You may state your words to be meaningful or sympathetic. You can even post them up on the tippiest point of a specially made bulletin board specifically made just for you. Doesn't mean that I am going to sit & try to comprehend something that is completely frivolous & irrelevent...or out of reach when considering the lessons I have learned. No malarchy will be tolerated. Everyone has a choice in life...many at that, so use them for once & the outcome will be spectacular, I promise. I could sit here with intentions to make a good first impression, but truth is, if you NEED to make a good first real impresssion, then it isn't your FIRST...real...impression. Don't try so hard If they can't accept you for you then what's the point in getting to know the person? Pick it up, or leave it behind - either way I will not miss something I haven't had the chance to meet, so that I can indeed interpret on my own. That's what I do, it's how I am. I speak how I feel & act on impulse. Very many hate it, few others love it. My vulgarity shouldn't intimidate you, it's a way of expressing yourself with more intensity, even in an angry matter if you will. I know "fuck" has become the human population's english choice of word, but just think of what you couldn't elaborate on without it. Take a moment with me to find out why people tick...? Inform me as to how anger completely overrides a broken-heart. Defense? Yes, well I did it for the longest of time & I am going to see if it's possible to live without that tricky little "defense mechansim" as people love to label it dearly, in recent events. Every day you learn something new & everyday is a new chance to uncover something that has been hidden for ages...maybe even centuries. Take time out of your oh so busy life & live a little. Be spontaneous & have no regrets. Let someone help you instead of constantly being stubborn. I know it's hard, I've come to realize this...but it feels good to know someone gives a shit for once. You give respect, you get it -- & with me I pour that salt on your open wounds, just to stitch you back up & do it all over again. I will tell you the honest truth. If you look like shit, I'm going to tell you. If you sound like an idiot I am going to state this as well. Take me with a couple grains of salt & we should get along fine. You can't expect me to ever make a plan. I don't like to break promises at all. If there are no plans to make, then there are no promises to break. See what I'm getting at here? FYI: I dont live with mommy OR daddy, I live on my own. So when you come to me, realize this; you are talking to someone who has been on their own for years now. Just take that into consideration when you want to talk about meaningless bullshit. Don't get me wrong, I shoot the shit...as long as I have a shovel so I can later, pick that crap up. No need to act obnoxious & inconsiderate now kiddies.
Hold your head up high & love who you have become, because that right there is the sexiest thing someone can do to themself. You'll even benefit from it too.
It just so happens... that I was born in October. Which makes me a Scorpio. The date was marked exactly 3 days before the best season of all...which is in-fact, Halloween. Hopefully you passed math & can figure that one out. I love music & anything having to do with it. I enjoy exercising & swimming is spectubular. Black & white photography is quite intriguing, but pretty much any photo will do. I love taking pictures as well as being photographed. Yea, it's an uber amount. I HATE sleeping with socks on. My cat's my best-friend, keeps me company at night & is pretty much wonderful & comforting. I went to college for a bit taking up Psych. "Whoa, how could someone as fucked up as yourself find interest in something you should be visiting, not studying"? Well let's see. Usually you have a tendency to know more when you have experienced it. You want to know how I think?...Go read a JTHM comic. I don't wear my heart on my sleeve for anyone these days, except the person I Love , so if you break me, kudos to you. Takes a lot to open this book. I am a very indecisive person at times. I believe that you can't make someone until you break them. It's not until someone you know has been through heartache, that they can seek new & different areas in which they see fit. I love & hate, depending on which way you push me. If you deserve my company, then I'm there. If you don't then you wont see me around. Simple as that.
It's not on a conceited level, I just tend to stick around real people these days. I've already been down the drug road, back & down again. I've already experienced the drinking scene. If you're acting like a fool at 20-sum years, still running around with dirty diapers then kudos to you...I'm not watching your ass. I have myself to protect in the long run & sorry, but you are your own dependancy -- Or atleast you should be. What happens when the rest of who was there before, is gone? You're standing there with pants down to your ankles wondering who's going to wipe your ass next. It's just not a way anyone should want to live, but then again...we are all entitled to our own opinions & ways of living. That's why this world is so grand. You know the world has gone to shit when you can't even get the English language on fucking instructions. It's inevitable...I'm a fucking MASShole, but believe you & I, if I had the chance I would leave & never look back. Piece of knowledge for your brain-stem bud.
Vegetarian. Opinionated. Out-spoken. open-minded. Random. Spontaneous. Side-tracked very easily at times. Other times, I am so in tune with something ( like my guitar )...that I wont even blink or move a muscle. Depends on what it is that I'm doing & how intrigued I am by it. So on & so on. If you would like to talk & you're mature with a decent head on your shoulders (With the possibility of a good vocabulary)... IM me if need be: Suicide Driven. I mean shit, if I wanted to talk to someone with a first grade mentality about how the important things in their life consist of staying home all the time & beating new World OF Warcraft levels, I would get right on it, but I'm not typically interested easily enough, so that would be defeating my whole purpose of getting a decent topic to converse about. I'm rarely on anyway so no biggie. Oh & I'm NOT looking for a relationship, so as I stated above, just conversation.
I'm her new cool meat
She pops the trunk
And she removes me
And a machine that takes pictures of us
Now my jaw and my teeth hurt
I'm choking from gnawing on the ball
And just before I come to move to
The back of the car, she makes me
Touch the machine .
Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given...Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling...So bad
10 Years
30 Seconds to Mars
40 Below Summer
Alice In Chains
Atreyu
As I lay dying
A perfect Circle
AFI
Arch Enemy
Black Light Burns
Bile
Black Sabbath
Bush
Bullet for My Valentine
Chevelle
Corperate Avenger
Cannible Corpse
Citizen Cope
Cold
Cradle Of Filth
Crossbreed
The Cure
Damage Plan
Darkest Hour
Diecast
Dope
DogFight
Deftones
Dimmu Borgir
Double Drive
Disturbed
Earshot
The Faceless
Fort Minor
Faith No More
God Forbid
gODHEAD
Green Day[Old]
Hed P.E.
House Of Krazees
Incubus
Icon of Coil
Jackal & Hyde
KMFDM
Korn [old]
Kottonmouth Kingz
Kittie [old]
Killswitch Engage
Lamb Of God
Led Zepplin
Limp Bizkit [old]
Linkin Park
Marilyn Manson
Mudvayne
MushroomHead
Mindless Self Indulgence [old]
Ministry
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana
Necro[1/2 of it]
Nonpoint
Noones Kind
Nullset
The OFFspring
Oleander
Opeth
Orgy
Ozzy [old]
Pantera
Pink Floyd
Perpetual Groove
Porcelain Black
Rammstein
Rob Zombie
Rage Against the Machine
Rehab
RA
Slipknot
Spineshank
Saint Dog
Sepultura
Skinny Puppy
Shadows Fall
Slayer
Static-X
Staind [old]
System Of A Down
Still remains
Soundgarden
Smahing Pumpkins
Sublime
Taproot
Tech
Through The Eyes Of The Dead
Tool
Type-O-N
WHITE zombie
Wednesday 13
Bullet for My Valentine
"I just don't want to die without a few scars."
Army of darkness
GIA
Kids
Boys don't cry
What women Want
28 Days Later
Requiem For A Dream
The crow
Big Daddy
Billy Madison
Breakfast Club
Happy Gilmore
[Fun with] Dick & Jane
Click
Clockwork Orange
The ugly
Manic
Donnie Darko
Dogma
Dumb & Dumber
Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind
300
Bad Boys 1 & 2
Nightmare on Elm Street[s]
Rush hour 1 & 2
The Pest
Basketball Diaries
Carrie
Wedding Crashers
Hellraiser
SE7EN
Chuckie[s]
Jason [s]
Scarface
Crash
Clerks
Saw 1, 2, 3 topped ALL
Full Metal Jacket
2001 Maniacs
40 year old virgin
Get rich or die trying
House of 1000 Corpses
Halloween[s] -- That's obvious
The Machinist
Pulp Fiction
Departed
Evil Dead
Return of The Living Dead 3
Gremlins
The TMNT's
Fear & Loathing in LasVegas
WONKA
Half Baked
Jackass[1]&[2]
Dazed & Confuzed
Creepshows
Silence of the Lambs
The b&w Texas Chainsaws
Hustle & Flow
War of The worlds
Goonies
Day after Tomorrow
The break up

My Interests


Nothing more completely baffles one who is full of tricks & duplicity than straight-forward & simple integrity in another.

Everything I do is for you & one day everything will be better, I pinky swear. I fucking promise, I promise, I promise. I ♥ you to death.

Scorpios are blessed with an abundance of sex appeal, probably because of their complex and passionate nature. Part of a Scorpio’s complexity stems from being so emotional - while cool and relaxed on the outside, a Scorpio must placate their intense emotional energy on the inside. Intuitive and curious, the Scorpio person also loves to analyze and evaluate everything and around them, but ironically, doesn’t like to be probed for information about themselves.
Element: Water - Emotional and intuitive
Quality: Fixed, the quality that signifies a resistance to change
Scorpio Traits: Passionate, intense, jealous, volatile, determined, loyal

Don't ever make anyone your number one, when you'll always be their number two. That way the joke is never on you. Faces break, but hearts don't have to. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused, but even sorrier that it didn't hurt more. Interests of the mind seem so surreal when they are far to the naked eye. Words are spoken when you realize it's no longer warm to the touch. Trust no one & use your experience well, it guides you in the life you may own. Thus concluding the end of this chap--book. Moving on.

Know, before you assume some facts I wish to share:
I'll sit on a Swing forever.

Listen to music as loud as I can.

The outdoors will never get old.
People often give me reasons to be cynical--
But I'm an optimist to the fullest extent.
Beautiful scenaries tickle my G spot.

I tend to chew on my nails, burp & swear alot
Dislike tomatoes, but love Ketchup.
Put me in the water & I'll never get out.
The train going by my house soothes me deeply
Working out just makes me feel better.
I love the way snow looks, but hate how cold it is.

I am the key ingredient to procrastination.
Why eat animals?...try a Veggie burger.

Let's go walk in the rain for decades.
Better yet, walk on the beach during "after hours".

It's always more comfortable with Pillows.
Being awake is better than sleeping.
There hasn't been one song I didn't love from NIN or Deftones
GREEN TEA

Pop in a horror flick while we rest.
Movies in general are great to watch.
Black&white photographs

Your suspense is killing me, but I adore it.

I wish my family would keep in touch more often
Anything from an artistic [well deserved credit] point of view.

Sing to me as I fall asleep.
Falling in Love is a great feeling.
I have a VERY short fuse sometimes. If you can't handle then that's your deal.
The woods never cease to amaze.

Sometimes I'm so last minute, I'll pee & brush my teeth @ the same time.
CANDLES

Walking around aimlessly puts a smile on my face.
The streets during night-time are beautiful.

Dont ever forget the simple things.
A shot of Whiskey to go with that attitude? Don't mind if I do.
I have a deep-seated fear that I just might block everyone out emotionally -- for the rest of my years & that's the only way I know in life. Pushing people away is what makes it harder later on. I suppose it makes you stronger in the end, but it does get rather tiresome to have people look at you like you're completely oblivious to anyone's feelings, when you are genuinely a good person. Guess you can find that out yourself...if I let you.

Of coarse they're going to try & break me down, I'm stronger than they'll ever be. If they aren't happy, obviously they want to bring me along with them when they FALL .
Guess again. I've already been down the road you currently reside on.

Opportunity
You know there's always a way to get out of a sticky situation. You can talk people into getting your way easily and would probably make a very convincing lawyer.

What sick ridiculous puppets we are.
& what gross little stage we dance on.
What fun we have dancing & fucking.
Not a care in the world.
Not knowing that we are nothing.
We are not what was intended.

A cold winter shed, where the heart used to live.

In you I see dirty
In you I count stars
In you I feel so pretty
In you I taste god
In you I feel so hungry
In you I crash cars
We must never be apart

What one word best describes you?

You are Exhilarating
Breathtaking, Thrilling, Stimulating, Exciting - You are like electricity, WOW! Hanging out with you is for the brave and for thrill seekers, because your life is fast and adventurous. No one can ever be bored with you!

"I will wait for You there
far from the world and its violence
It left me broken & bare
I need to hear You in the silence now
I’m calling for You."

Something dirty's got you Dear
makes me want to be with you
Something painfuls' with you dear
Makes me want to be with you
You're better off saying nothing
Wish for a happy ending
You're better off saying nothing
Repent so that all's forgiven

I'd like to meet:



HowManyOfMe.com

There are
2
people with my name
in the U.S.A.
How many have your name?

Thoughtful minds discuss events;
Thoughtless minds discuss people
.

Walk on an endless highway filled with nothing more but barricades & yellow lines.
Close your eyes & lean in for the ride of your life
For it has only just begun.

People may not remember exactly WHAT you did, or what you SAID-
But they will remember how you made them feel
.

The love of my life, forever & a day. Eternity would never amount to enough time & this man remains completely infinite to myself.

I've watched them
Breath baited
Paid homage to jailers abroad
You've bound me by tantrum
The passive dismiss for the infidel scourge
Oh, & I'll do it so well
When its the children on fire that sells
Narcotic catharsis
A plot to conspire
a plague to endure.

Dane Cook on crying.

April, A Secret Agent is the man of your dreams

Mystery and intrigue — it's not just for action-adventure movies. It's what you are looking for in life and love. From spontaneous weekend getaways to notes stuck in your jean pockets, you love being surprised and appreciate the extra thought and effort that goes into making it happen.

That's why a secret agent could steal your heart — he's got what it takes to change the world, but he's not about to go around shouting about it. But don't worry, your secret's safe with us. Shhhh.


"You can accomplish anything you want as long as you put your mind to it. And that's the best advice you can give to anyone, as opposed to comforting them and hugging them"
- Chino Moreno -

Music:



Hello memory lover
You are mine
I gave everything
I need you
And someday
I'll be with her
I'll be with you
I will
I'm so dead
You're the first star
You're the one who sees it all
I know
I'm so tired
And sick

Movies:


" When I was growing up, they would say you could become cops or criminals. But what I'm saying is this. When you're facing a loaded gun, what's the difference? "

Television:



Books:



Dear book...
This is another day in my life.
A life is like a book.
A book is like a box.
A box has six sides. Inside and outside.
So, how do you get to what's inside?
How do you get what's inside, out?
Once upon a time, there lived a very pretty girl,
who lived in a beautiful box,
& everybody loved her.

Which Horror Movie Killer Are You?

Micheal Myers Um... Micheal...I love your theme song! But anyways, you hate your family, so you want to kill them all. Hey, sounds like fun. A butcher knife is your deal. Are you cooking or killing. Its hard to tell. But you are scary, just look at Jamie Lee Curtis and how she looked when she saw you. Your strong and witty. And also need to seek therapy. Hehee!

Myspace Quizzes

Heroes:

Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made & would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, & above.
This is life, not heaven.
You don't have to be perfect .
My breath.
My hero.
My blood.
My air.
My life.
My one & ONLY
LOVE
"I see the strongest and the smartest men who have ever lived... and these men are pumping gas & waiting tables."
If the problem can't be solved, worrying is unnecessary .
Talk To Me .
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To think, my ex's head was enlarged because he looked like Dave Navarro.
Boo for me.
Oh vegetarians are beautiful much .

My Blog

Hey drama queen, scream out to your inner whatevers.

Consider me a blasphemous work of art for wanting to regurgitate every last food particle left in my system on the rest of society -- & even myself sometimes, for associating with them. ...
Posted by April on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 11:56:00 PST

Continue trying to make my temperature squirm, youre tactics are still only lukewarm.

To defend the defended is not the topic here my gorgeous, beautiful people. See, right now...things are just beautiful so let's rewind for a moment & take it all in before it disappears. Oh it won...
Posted by April on Fri, 17 Aug 2007 09:33:00 PST

Some things just seem so surreal.

Power outage? Yea, literally. I've gotten your point now. I see why things are happening the way they are at the moment. It all makes sense. Someone has big plans for me -- just not right yet. This is...
Posted by April on Wed, 15 Aug 2007 07:42:00 PST

Exacto horoscope if you may.

Take a timeout today to think about your immediate needs and what you are willing to do in order to get what you want. When strong passions motivate your actions, you can be sure that there will be ev...
Posted by April on Wed, 08 Aug 2007 07:58:00 PST

That girl, she screams out in whispers.

Where to begin, when you have no other way to express?,... other than digging deep inside of someone who has already plunged to the bottom of their "bottomless pit". Life has its turns, but they have...
Posted by April on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 11:51:00 PST

You're not ugly, your personality is.

I'm pretty damn sure my apartment is utterly freezing right now, but it's cooltastic, I can cope, cause you know...it's all in your head, right? It's funny. You know...? The things you can block out ...
Posted by April on Wed, 13 Jun 2007 03:07:00 PST

Shit gets old, you know?

Tell me why is it that you favor what you cannot have?...Nor touch, hear, speak the name of & so forth.Tell me now, what it is that draws you to another piece of digestive waste; human, to seek c...
Posted by April on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 07:58:00 PST

The mirror stole my image.

I'm not what I used to be.I'm not what I used to be.I'm not what I used to be.SNAP.You ever just wake up one day & ask yourself where the fuck you went? How about loss of ability to enjoy yourself...
Posted by April on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 07:47:00 PST

Do you forgive to forget, or forget to forgive?

Maybe things do happen for a reason. Maybe there is someone out there for everyone, to kind of...not exactly give you the answer, but help guide you in life. Maybe there are dreams that I want to acco...
Posted by April on Thu, 15 Feb 2007 08:59:00 PST

How can you tell a junkie is lieing? Their lips are moving.

I'm almost positive that junkies are people too...somewhere inside, or atleast they used to be. Does that even count? Either way, it doesn't mean I have to be-friend them. Is it a bad thing to NOT fee...
Posted by April on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 09:01:00 PST