First off I'm laid back and easy going, I like to laugh, and hang out. I'm thoughtful, but not in that caring kind of way, more of a get lost in thought type of way. Though I'm not absent minded. I find that unless I have constant stimulation I will get bored with the outside world and retreat into the wild adventures that are going on inside myself, the internal jihad if you will. I usually find it very difficult to ask for anything from people, so I usually don't. But I do like giving, though I won't go out of my way to do it unless you're a friend. I give money to homeless people, but I don't like them to know so I usually just drop it by them and let them find it on their own and bless their good fortune.
I love dreaming and exploring the landscapes of the mind when you alter your brainwave patterns.
My greatest fear is living forever.
"Every fantasy devours another fantasy: one thought feeds on another. You can't be delivered from fantasy or fall asleep to escape from it altogether. Your thoughts are like hornets, and your sleep is like the water in which you are plunged: when you awake, the hornets return, and many hornet-like fantasies fly in and draw you now this way and then that way. This mental fantasy is the least of the devourers: the Almighty knows how great the others are. Listen, flee from the hordes of devourers towards the One who has said, 'We are your protector' [their footnote: "Qur'an: Surah Al-Imran (The House of Imran), 3:150"]; or if you can't hasten towards the Protector Himself, towards the one who has gained that power of protection."29 6870136 (Masnavi V: 729-735)
