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Martyr(Mahr-Ter)
Meaning:
noun
A person who is put to death or endures great suffering on behalf of any belief, principle, or cause.

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Ain Soph Aur
MEANING:
The Limitless Light (Hebrew)

ORIGIN: In the beginning there was Ain, a complete void and vacuum. Not simply nothing, but not even the existence of nothing itself -- absolute, incomprehensible nada. Ain is God, the creator.

At some point Ain began to concentrate and created Ain Soph, which is infinity in existence, which is to say something forever. Ain is the idea of infinity, while Ain Soph is infinity. Ain Soph is the Waters, the most vast element.

Then Ain Soph moved and created Ain Soph Aur, the limitless light. This means the Spirit or Breath of God. Ain Soph Aur is the Light, the center of life itself.

Something to pass the Time What The Hell Have I... ..

My Own Summer

Pretty Noose

Death Blooms

46 And 2

Sweet Dreams ..

No One ..

All Apologies

Who Am I?
Which Tarot Card Are You?
You are the Lovers card. The Lovers card is about union. Each of us carries in our DNA the ability to be the opposite of what we think we are. Often our romantic attachments grow out of awe and respect as we see in another the characteristics we repress in ourselves. Society often presses us into molds of what it thinks masculinity and femininity should be. As a result, many of us associate with our gender certain positive characteristics and call others negative, when if these same qualities were held by a person of the opposite sex, our attitude towards them would be reversed. Getting in touch with our inner animus and anima, (Jung's terms for our inner male and female), allows us to see the whole of our personalities in a positive and constructive light. When you draw The Lovers card in a reading, you are working with balancing these forces. Depending on where the card is, you have either achieved balance or need to. The Lovers could indicate a romantic or even a platonic relationship. Ask yourself is this is a positive relationship that contributes to your growth as a complete human being, or if it fills an emotional craving within you that is actually detrimental to your personal growth. Image from: The Iranian artist Riza.

The Classic IQ Test My Result: 133
Visionary Philosopher Your mind's strengths allow you to think ahead of the game — to imagine or anticipate what should come next in just about any situation. Because you're equally skilled in the numerical and verbal universes of the brain, you can draw from multiple sources of information to come up with great ideas. The timelessness of your vision and the balance between your various skills are what make you a Visionary Philosopher.

In addition to your strengths in math and linguistics, you have a knack for matching and anticipating patterns. These skills and your uncanny ability to detect the underlying blueprint of most of life's situations add to your Visionary Philosopher mind.Two philosophers who share the same combination of skills you possess are Plato and Benedict Spinoza. Spinoza had insight into how things worked in the world. He could envision a future based on the patterns he saw in life, and used mathematical logic as a structure within which to present his philosophical arguments. With that base he was able to use logic to formulate his theories. Borrowing from his linguistic strengths he wrote eloquent texts and, therefore, was able to bring his philosophical ideas and structure to the rest of the world. His story exemplifies the talents that are present in the Visionary Philosopher intellectual type.

Whatever you decide to do in life, you've got a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a wide variety of ways. You can expand your mind to understand a situation. Your strong balance of math and verbal skills will help you explain things to others. For example, if you were on an archaeological dig and discovered an object, you could probably use your deductive powers to figure out not only what the object was but also how it was used. Given your ability to put things together, you are more than capable of inventing a life plan that is in synch with your perspective on how things were, how they are, and how they might be one day. Take this test

You Are 64% Abnormal
You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. How Abnormal Are You?

I'd like to meet:



Chad Gray (Mudvayne) (HellYeah)
Maynard Keenan (TooL) (A Perfect Circle)
Wayne Static (Static-X)
Corey Taylor (Slipknot) (Stone Sour)
Camillo 'Chino' Wong Moreno (Deftones)
Waylon Reavis-Jeffrey 'Nothing' Hatrix (Mushroomhead)
Johnathan Davis (Korn)
Marilyn Manson =================================== Ed Gein (1906-1984)
Jim Morrison (1943-1971)
Layne Stanley (1967-2002)
Kirt Cobain (1967-1994)
Hunter Thompson (1937-2005)

Metal

Rock

Left Brain Skinnyman (Static-X)
My little girl where are you?
My fucked up world destroyed you.

DAY AFTER DAY
DAY AFTER DAY
I GET IT NOW
I just go on without you.
Twisted inside,
Six miles high,
I REHEARSE HOW TO SAY GOODBYE TO YOU

Skinny Man...
TURNED INTO A MONSTER..IM A MUTHAFUCKER..

Wrap it up tight,
Emotions are distorted.
Its no surprise,
Nothing's alive,
All hope has been aborted.

DAY AFTER DAY
DAY AFTER DAY
I GET IT NOW
I just go on without you.
Twisted inside,
Six miles high,
I REHEARSE HOW TO SAY GOODBYE TO YOU!

Skinny Man...
TURNED INTO A MONSTER, IM A MUTHAFUCKER
Inside..Im dead..
ALL USED UP
GODDAMN I MISS HER!

....As my skin turns yellow, I forget this hell.
As the skies are bruised and the rain comes down.
As my face turns pale, I try to deal with these thoughts.
At the end of it all...I still miss you...


This Is Not(Static-X)
I HATE THIS!!!

Lines and the light stream...
Screaming by me, scream...
Burned down, Not Me...
You seen me suffer...

Haunted by your spirit...
Undead by your spit...
Taunted by...
YOUR SELF ALIVE!!!

Dazed and burning state...
Hazed and spinning fate...
DAZED AND BURNING!

I say I can't come...
You say this ain't home...
Hating this...
I MOUTH YOUR NAME!!!

This is not my life...
This is not my home... This is not me... I HATE THIS!!!

Your voice in my mind...
Come home it ain't time...
Burning down, Not me...
You see me suffer...

Solace to inspire...
Lowness to my fire...
Taunted by...
YOUR SELF ALIVE!!!

Dazed and burning state...
Hazed and spinning fate...
DAZED AND BURNING!

I say I can't come...
You say this ain't home...
Hating this...
I MOUTH YOUR NAME!!!

This is not my life...
This is not my home... This is not me... I HATE THIS!!!

I HATE THIS!!!


Third Eye (TooL)

Solitare Unraveling (Mushroomhead) ..locked away in a cage..my rage has got the best of me..time finds a way each day...its leaving less of me behind..I find this fight must be won inside my mind..so uptight and confined..often blinded by the light..taking its toll on my system...like some played out existance....TIME TICKS AWAY THESE LAST FEW MOMENTS..IS THERE ANYTHING WE'VE LEFT UNSAID...IM ON A QUEST FOR ATONEMENT..GOT TO FIND PEACE OF MIND AND A PLACE TO REST...condemned man, convicted man...could not save my life cutting strand by strand...passing it off like some kind of king, you don't know peace 'till you've had suffering...I'VE SUFFERED..all of your so called resolve, but you haven't tasted pain...have you ever been inside of the new masterpiece...

Blind (Korn) this place inside my mind...a place I like to hide...you don't know the chances...what if I should die...a place inside my brain...another kind of pain...you don't know the chances...Im so blind...another place I find, to escape the pain inside...you don't know the chances...what if I should die...a place inside my brain...another kind of pain...you don't know the chances....Im so blind..blind..blind....deeper and deeper and deeper inside burning to, living a life that seems to be...a lost reality that can never find...a way to reach my inner self...I stay here alone...how deep can I go...in the ground that I lay...if I don't find a way..to see through the grey that clouds my mind...its time I look to see what's between the lines...I can see..I can see Im going BLIND!!!

Sober (TooL) Theres a shadow just behind me, shrouding every step I take. Making every promise empty, pointing every finger at me. Waiting like a stalking butler, who upon the finger rests. Murder now the path of "must we", just because the sun has gone. Jesus won't you fucking whistle, something what the past has done. Jesus blow your fucking whistle, something what the past has done. Why can't we not be sober. I just want to start this over. Why can't we drink forever. I just want to start this over.....I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. Trust in me if all is well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave. I will work to elevate you. Just enough to bring you down. Mother Mary won't you whisper, something what the past has done. Mother Mary won't you whisper, something what the past has done. Why can't we not be sober. I just want to start this over. Why can't we sleep forever. I just want to start this over.

Alone I Break (Korn)
Pick me up..been bleeding too long..Right here..right now..I'll stop it some how ....I will make it go away..can't be here no more..Seems this is the only way..I will soon be gone..these feelings will be gone..these feelings will be gone....Now I see the times they change..leaving doesn't seems so strange..I am hoping I can find..where to leave my hurt behind..All this shit I seem to take..all alone I seem to break..I have lived the best I can..Does this make me not a man?....Shut me off..I am ready..heart stops..I stand alone..Can't be on my own....I will make it go away..can't be here no more..Seems this is the only way..I will soon be gone..these feelings will be gone..these feelings will be gone....Now I see the times they change..leaving doesn't seems so strange..I am hoping I can find..where to leave my hurt behind..All this shit I seem to take..all alone I seem to break..I have lived the best I can..Does this make me not a man?....Am I going to leave this place?..What is it I'm running from?..is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)..Is it always black in space?..am I going to take it's place?..Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)..I guess god's up in this place?..what is it that I've become?....is there something more to come? (more to come)..Now I see the times they change..leaving doesn't seems so strange..I am hoping I can find..where to leave my hurt behind..All this shit I seem to take..all alone I seem to break..I have lived the best I can..Does this make me not a man?

My Own Summer(Deftones) Hey you..big star..tell me...when its over (cloud)...Hey you...big mood...guide me...to shelter cause Im through...when the two...hits the six...and its summmer...cloud COME!!....SHOVE....THE SUN....ASIDE...SHOVE IT ASIDE...I think god is moving...its tounge....there's no crowds in the street and no sun...(in my own summer)...the shade...is a tool...a device...a savior...see I try...and look up...to the sky...but my eyes burn...cloud COME!!....SHOVE....THE SUN...ASIDE!!...I think god is moving...its tounge....there's no crowds in the street and no sun...in my...own...summer...

Im With Stupid (Static-X)

Kill Tomorrow (Mushroomhead)
Want to...we can if we want to...lead you from behind you...
Time will take its toll..re-evaluate...the leechers and the lepers start to salivate...truth is impaired..cannot moderate..tension escalates you cannot tolerate (make you wanna fly)...blind.. is the ambition that ..will navigate...default by design...the virus infiltrates corrupted and cohersed the silence penetrates echo in the void now disintegrate...
...if you feel sometimes we're falling, like we're falling away......i would not blame you while you....flow through my veins...well we pay the price we pay...kill tomorrow yesterday...
want to...we can if we want to...lead you from behind you...
leave it all behind...its time to walk away... a predator has a tendency to stalk the prey...with the drowning sun..always ends another day..desire is required to play another game (make you wanna fly)...they will point the finger...shed some light on fault...around...these memories we...will build a wall...install....instant karma...start restoring all...focus on the rise and ignore the fall...


Sweet Dreams (Marilyn Manson)
Sweet dreams are made of these,
Who am I to disagree.
Travel the world and the 7 seas,
Everybody is looking for something.


Tourniquet (Marilyn Manson)
She's made of hair and bone with little teeth, things I cannot speak. She comes out like a crippled plaything, spine is just a string. I wrapped our love in all this foil, silver tounged like spider legs. I never wanted it to ever spoil, but flies will lay thier eggs...
Take your hatred out on me...
Make your victim my head...
You'll never ever believe in me...
I am your tourniquet...
Prosthetic sysnthesis with butterflies, sealed up with virgin stitch. If it hurts baby please tell me, preserve the innocence. I never wanted it to end like this, BUT FLIES WILL LAY THIER EGGS!
Take your hatred out on me...
Make your victim my head...
You'll never ever believe in me...
I am your tourniquet...

Somewhere I Belong (Linkin Park)

(I was confused)
...nothing to gain...
...hollow and alone...
...and the fault is my own...

I wanna heal,
I wanna feel,
What I thought was never real.
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long.
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)

I wanna heal,
I wanna feel,
Like I’m close to something real.
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along.
Somewhere I belong.....


Music:



Right Brain Death Blooms (Mudvayne) Cold seems crippling,
Lame meander through corridors,
Aroma's thick with age,
Mark off the day.

REFLECTIONS OF MY LIFE ARE FADING
PULL ME OUT OF BODY
DONT WANT IT, DONT WANT IN
FEEBLE, FRAIL AND ROTTING, DECENDING
IM LOST IN A STRUCTURE THATS COLLAPSING
DONT WANT IT..CAST INTO
MAKER TAKE THE BODY
DONT WANT IT
IT WANTS ME!!

Past has found its place,
Salvation is no more,
Will god accept my peace,
Bleached will pardon me.

REFLECTIONS OF MY LIFE ARE FADING
PULL ME OUT OF BODY,
DONT WANT IT, DONT WANT IN
FEEBLE, FRAIL AND ROTTING, DECENDING
IM LOST IN A STRUCTURE THATS COLLAPSING
DONT WANT IT..CAST INTO
MAKER TAKE THE BODY
DONT WANT IT
IT WANTS ME!!

I just want to run..
Fly kites, wrestle, jump and play...
Swim through waves that crash to shore...
Memories in me...
Cocooned in misery...

(Lyrics that follow, written in [ ] is part of the L.D. 50 version but is excluded in the video)

[ IM SICK AND TIRED ]
[ OF EMBRACING REFLECTIONS OF PAST TIMES ]
[ RECIEVE ME OR CAST ME AWAY ]
[ GOD PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY ]

RESISTANCE, FUTILE!
SUICIDAL IDEAS
I WILL CRUCIFY MY OWN BEING
SATISFY SELFISH NEEDS
FUCK THE DEITIES
JUSTIFY MY OWN RIGHT
TO WHAT'S WAITING FOR ME

On the other side,
The time has come,
Lock and load...

Im coming (Im coming)
Im coming (Im coming)
Im coming...
IM COMING HOME!!!

Pull me out of body,
Don't want it,
Dont want in.

Pull me out of body,
Don't want it,
Dont want in.

PULL ME OUT OF BODY
DON'T WANT IT, DON'T WANT IN
FEEBLE, FRAIL AND ROTTING, DECENDING
IM LOST IN A STRUCTURE THAT'S COLLAPSING
DECENDING, DONT WANT IN
MAKER TAKE THE BODY
DON'T WANT IT
IT WANTS ME!!!

I just want to run..
Fly kites, wrestle, jump and play...
Swim through waves that crash to shore...
Memories in me...
Cocooned in misery...
The darkness overcomes...
Soul soars to the other plane..
Existance past the door..
I sail through purgatory's bay..

I asked a god for poison,
Cradle ME!
Sewn to my dreams
Soul searching
Death blossoms
Where clouds lie over ME!
Held in god's hands
Death blooming...

Dark for fear of failure...
An inner gloom as wide as an eye and formenting...
Broiling hate...
Death grip in my veins...
Unveiling rancid petals...
Flowering forth foul necture...
In the space between a blink and a tear...
Death Blooms.

Its Been A While(Staind)
And its been a while since I could
Hold my head up high...
And its been a while
Since I first saw you....
And its been a while
Since I could stand on my own two feet again...
And its been a while
Since I could call you....

And everything I can't remember...
As fucked up as it all may seem...
The consequenses that I've rendered...
I've stretched myself beyond my means...

And its been a while since I could say
That I wasn't addicted and...
Its been a while
Since I could say I loved myself as well and...
Its been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do...
And its been a while
But all the shit seems to disappear when I'm with you...

And everything I can't remember...
As fucked up as it all may seem...
The consequenses that I've rendered...
I've gone and fucked things up again...again...

Why must i feel this way...
Just make this go away...
Just one more peaceful day...

And its been a while
Since I could look at myself straight...
And its been a while
Since I said I'm sorry...
And its been a while
Since I seen the way the candles light your face...
And its been a while
But I can still remember just the way you taste...

And everything I can't remember...
As fucked up as it all may seem...
To be, I know its me...
I cannot blame this on my father...
He did the best he could for me...

And its been a while since I could
Hold my head up high...
And its been a while
Since I said Im sorry...


Slow Chemical (Finger Eleven)
The wonder of the world is gone I know for sure.
All the wonder that I want I found in her.
As the hole becomes a part I strike to burn,
And no flame returns...

Every intuition fails to find it's way.
One more table turned around I'm back again.
Finding I'm a lost and found when she's not around.
When she's not around, I feel it coming down...

Give me what I could never ask for.
Connect me and you could be my chemical now.
Give me the drug you know I'm after.
Connect me and you could be my chemical...

The chemical goes slow...when everybody wants you.


No One (Cold) I can't even really believe,
No one was sent to get me.
I feel like I'm being erased,
No one got left here...

Well I'm all alone...
No one was sent to get me...
I'm all alone...
No one got left here...

But I'm fine...
No one got left here...
Well I'm fine...
No one got left here...

I can't even breathe when I see...
The pictures sent without you...
I feel like I'm being erased...
No one got left here...

Well I'm all alone...
No one was sent to get me...
I'm all alone...
No one got left here...

But I'm fine...
No one got left here...
Well I'm fine...
No one got left here...

Im so sick of this terrible instinct...
Its so hard now,
Just to find you...


Sun Doesn't Rise (Mushroomhead)
Some kind of evidence,
Some kind of reason,
Why I can't find a way,
To be in my life...

Some where in this dying day,
If I could only find a way for my escape,
I find it hard to concentrate,
For my past mistakes...

To be in my life...

I can't feel my faith,
can't recall my crime.
I think I sealed my fate,
along the way I may have lost my mind.
I guess we're all damaged in our own way,
alone in our own way.
Distant headlights. Desolate highway...

Sun doesn't rise at all...
Who knows how far I'll fall
Sun doesn't rise at all...
Who knows how far I'll fall

With eyes wide open
(Can't recall my crime,
I think I sealed my fate.)
I can watch my world evolve
(Alone in our own way,
I think I sealed my fate.)
Nothing left to die for
(Can't recall my crime,
I think I sealed my fate.)
Thoughts inside can make me crawl
(Think I sealed my fate.)
Make me drop down on my knees,
Break me down until I question me.
Darkness can't destroy my drive...

Sun doesn't rise at all...
Who knows how far I'll fall
Sun doesn't rise at all...
Welcome my downfall...

(sun doesn't rise at all...)

Somewhere in this dying day,
as I plan my great escape.
I find it hard to concentrate
while you maintain control.
I fold and falter, empty alter.
All I gave up, pray it makes me whole.
I think a brinks around the corner,
there's an error in my soul!


-1 (Mudvayne)
Losses, Losers and more,
Gain of life's pleasures,
Cohorts listening behind the door...

To a life,
Sheltered in,
Less than 0 in me,
All my walls,
Fallin down,
Pain's aloft misery...

I'm sure that the lessons were learned,
I'm sure that the punishment went well deserved...

By the pawn in the plan..
taste of SHIT...bitterness...
walk from me...everything...
SYSTEMATICALLY!

COME ON
YOU'RE THE ONE
DREDGE UP
SHIT INSIDE OF ME
MY POINTLESS LIFE OF NOTHING

TELL ME what its suppose to be...
TELL ME who I'm suppose to be...
TELL ME what it takes to ascend...
TELL ME WHAT IT TAKES TO LIVE

Patience, pleasures and rewards,
Come in due time,
I stare at the sun,
Im bored...

In this life, meaningless
Soaking up all of me
Like the cross you worship,
Life is loss, look at me

Im sure that some day we'll wake up,
Im sure that some day we'll wake from the dream...

Of success and focus,
Tunnelling to the light,
Glowing deep inside of me,
Your taunting..I WAKE UP

COME ON
YOU'RE THE ONE
DREDGE UP
SHIT INSIDE OF ME
MY POINTLESS LIFE OF NOTHING

TELL ME what its suppose to be...
TELL ME who I'm suppose to be...
TELL ME what it takes to ascend...
TELL ME WHAT IT TAKES TO LIVE
TELL ME NOW!!!

PAIN...
MISERY...
DISLAW...(no where)
DISTRESSED...
NO WHERE...(to run)
DEPRESSED...
IDIOT...(or HIDE)
FAILURE...
LOSER! (in me)
LOSER! (who I am)
LOSER! (IN ME)

Don't feel sorry...
Don't feel sorry for me...

Don't need your sympathy or empathy...
Don't need your sympathy inside of me...

COME ON
I KNOW
YOU'RE THE ONE
NUMB TO FEELINGS INSIDE OF ME
WHY I'VE CEASED MY VISION!!!


Circle (Slipknot)
Give me the dust, of my father...
Stand on the face, of the ancient...
Veil the sacred flesh, and time itself...
Follow me...

I've come so far,
I'm behind again...follow me...
I've wished so hard,
I'm there again...follow me...

All that I've wanted are things I had before...
All that I needed, I never needed more...
All of my questions, were answers to my sins...
All my endings are waiting to begin...

Under the way that I falter...
I can't be afraid of my patience...
There's a sacred place where self keeps in...
Follow me...
I've seen so much Im blind again...
Follow me..
I feel so bad I'm alive again...
Follow me...

All that I've wanted are things I had before...
All that I needed, I never needed more...
All of my questions, were answers to my sins...
All my endings are waiting to begin...


Nothing To Gein (Mudvayne)
Cold and silent...
Soiled face, I will wash it all away...
With my love...
Its all she's ever needed...
From me...
Its my time...
To mother...
One of my own...
In my life..
I am so alone...
Left with no one...
In my life...
I'm so alone...

Life submissiveness...
Hypnotizing the ignorent...
A little boy's best friend is always is mother,
At least that's what she said...
Life of a simple man...
Taught that everyone else is dirty...
Thier love is meaningless...
IM JUST A SOILED DIRTY BOY!!!

Sheltered life...
Innocence...
Insulated memories...
Spark reflections in my head...
Duality in my conciousness...
I'm caught in the war of hemispheres...
Between loves lost in my head!!!

Mommy do you still live inside of me...
Im so lost in my life
Without any guiding...
Protected me
My whole life from everything...
Nailed shut the doors to the shrine
TO scReEn yOuR dEAd EyEs FrOm Me

AND MY SICKNESS
MUTILATE AND SEW MY NEW CLOTHES
FOR MASQUERADING
APRONS OF FLESH
CORPSE SCALPED HAIR
WITH SKIN UPON MY FACE!

Deliver the remains
From the womb of earth...
Prep the rack and tie up
For new love's rebirth...
Covert understanding
Of novice surgery...
I'll focus concentration
And only take just what I need

FOR THE SICKNESS
IM MASTICATING, DANCING
AND MASTERBATING
CELEBRATE IN FIELDS OF NIGHT
WITH SKIN UPON MY FACE!

Life submissiveness...
Hypnotizing the ignorent...
A little boy's best friend is always is mother,
At least that's what she said..
Life of a simple man...
Taught that everyone else is dirty...
Thier love is meaningless...

Life submissiveness...
Hypnotizing the ignorent...
A little boy's best friend is always is mother,
At least that's what she said..
Life of a simple man...
Taught that everyone else is dirty...
Thier love is meaningless...
IM SO SOILED!

IF I SOAK MY HANDS IN OTHER BLOOD
*AM I (SIC)
IF I DRENCH MYSELF IN OTHERS BLOOD
*AM I (SIC)
IF I BATHE MYSELF IN OTHERS BLOOD
*AM I (SIC)
IF I DROWN MYSELF IN OTHERS BLOOD

BLAME MOTHER FOR THE SICKNESS
MUTILATE AND SEW MY NEW CLOTHES
FOR MASQUERADING
APRONS OF FLESH
CORPSE SCALPED HAIR
WITH SKIN UPON MY FACE
DANCE AND MASTERBATE
IN NIGHT LIGHT BY MYSELF!

Nothing is left for me to gain, they're coming to take me far away!
Nothing is left for me to gain, they're coming to take me FAR!!!

Life submissiveness...
Hypnotizing the ignorent...
A little boy's best friend is always is mother,
At least that's what she said..
Life of a simple man...
Taught that everyone else is dirty...
Thier love is meaningless...
IM SO SOILED!!!

Soiled...Soiled...Soiled...Soiled...Soiled...SOILED...SOILED !!!


Eulogy (TooL)
He had a lot to say...
He had a lot of nothing to say...we'll miss him
We're gonna miss him...

..so long
...we wish you well
...told us how you weren't afraid to die
...well so long
...don't cry or feel too down
...not all martyrs see divinity
...but at least you tried

Standing above the crowd...
He had a voice that was strong and loud...we'll miss him
Ranting and pointing his finger...
At everything but his heart...we'll miss him
We're gonna miss him...

...no way
...to recall
...what it was that you had said to me
...like I care at all
...but it was so loud
...you sure could yell
...took a stand on every little thing
...and so loud

.you.could.be.the.one.
.to.save.me.from.
.my.own.existance.

..your hands..are so chilled..im chilled..around him too..

(I'm too smart when you're invisible by the bone and the symbol on you. So he bashes his skull through the window while over looking the sea. Twilight amber ego. We were amused by this)

Standing above the crowd...
He had a voice that was strong and loud...
And I swallowed his facade...
Cause I'm so eager to identify...
With someone above the ground...
Someone who seemed to feel the same...
Someone prepared to lead the way...
And someone who would die for me...

Will you?
Will you now?
Would you die for me?
Don't you fucking lie...
Don't you step out of line...
Don't you fucking lie...

You claimed all this time that you would die for me...
Why then are you so surprised when you hear your own eulogy...

He had a lot to say...
he had a lot of nothing to say...

Come down...
Get off your fucking cross...
We need the fuckin space...
To nail the next fool martyr!

To ascend you must die...
You must be crucified...
For our sins and our lies...
GOODBYE!


Tattered and Torn (Slipknot)
Something aches...
Bad things slither...
My floors are burning down...
And I can't find a window...

This is midevil...
This is cerebral...
Suffocated...
Melodramatic...

Drivin to the verge of...
I MAKE YOU MY ENEMY!!
THE NERVES YOU SEVER
WILL SERVE YOU BETTER

IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE
IN THE SPACE OF A SECOND
OPEN MY WRIST
GIVE ME MY LESSON!!

(Tearing myself apart)
FROM THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HURT!


Purity (Slipknot) Maze...Psychopathic daze...I create this waste...back away from tangents on the verge of drastic ways..can't escape this place...I deny your face..swept into my eyes I think Im slowly dieing...Put me in a home made cell...Put me in a hopeless shelter...someone hear me please..all I see is hate..I can hardly breathe and I CAN HARDLY TAKE IT!
HANDSONMYFACEOVERBEARING
ICANTGETOUT!!...Lost..run at my own cost..fearing laughter, scoffed...running from the rush, detatched from such and such..bleak...all around me weak...listening incomplete...I am not a dog but Im the one you dog...I am in a buried kennel...I have never felt so final...someone find me please...losing all reserve..I AM FUCKING GONE, I THINK IM FUCKING DYING..
HANDSONMYFACEOVERBEARING
ICANTGETOUT....
you all stare but you'll never see, there's something inside me...you all stare but you'll never see...there's something in me I despise....CUT ME, SHOW ME, ENTER..I AM WILLING AND ABLE AND NEVER ANY DANGER TO MYSELF, KNOWLEDGE OF MY PAIN, KNOWLEDGE OF MY FATE, OR WAS MY TOLERANCE A PHASE, EMPATHY OUT OF MY WAY...I CAN'T DIE..I CAN'T DIE!
..DESPISE...DESPISE...
PURITY..PURITY! .


Lateralus (TooL)
...over-thinking...over-analyzing... seperate the body from the mind...withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must...feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines...

Don't Fear The Reaper (Blue Oyster Cult)

Movies:



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Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

Natural Born Killers

Saw 1,2,3

Nightmare Before Christmas

Texas Chainsaw Massacre

Sleepy Hollow

13 Ghosts

9th Gate

Sin City
Little know fact:
Everyone knows that the Texas Chainsaw Massacre was based on a true story. What is not known is the story from which this movie is based. This movie, as well as many other aspects of "Pop" culture, was inspired by the tormented life of the
"Real American Psycho"
Edward Theodore Gein


Television:



Metalocalypse

Family Guy

The Simpsons

Books:



Night Magick
Necronomicon
Necronomicon
Book Of Spells


Heroes:



Ed Gein,
Hunter Thompson,
Chad Gray,
Maynard J. Keenan,
Layne Stanley,
Tim Burton,
Stephen King
Johnny Depp
...among many others.

Vamps&Tramps

Church
of the
Subgenius


The Truth Is Out ThereElaborate Hoax? You Decide.

Nasa Footage

Area 51 Autopsy
(Not for the feint of heart)

Chupacabra

WTF?!?

My Blog

|Drowning in a |Bath of /Acid

Venus Blue   Creeping like frostAs slow as grave mossLike drowning in dry oceans of bone dustI taste the wreckage of crumbling facesI know the pale thing in the darkest of placesI rem...
Posted by .Dull Boy. on Sun, 16 Mar 2008 05:47:00 PST

I Cant Make Her Real...

Vermillion (Slipknot)She seems dressed in all the rings Of past fatalaties So fragile yet so devious She continues to see it Climatic hands that press Her temples in my chest Enter the night...
Posted by .Dull Boy. on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 08:40:00 PST

Broken...

Broken (Seether) I wanted you to know, I love the way you laugh.I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away. I keep your photograph,Not know it serves me well.I wanna hold you high and ...
Posted by .Dull Boy. on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 11:48:00 PST

Seething...

Driven Under (Seether) Do you think I'm fakin,When I'm lyin next to you. Do you think that I am blind,there's nothing left for me to lose. Must be something on your mind,Something lost and...
Posted by .Dull Boy. on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 11:23:00 PST

Constantine

46N2 TooLMy shadow'sShedding skin andI've been pickingScabs again.I'm downDigging throughMy old musclesLooking for a clue.I've been crawling on my bellyClearing out what could've been.I've b...
Posted by .Dull Boy. on Sun, 03 Feb 2008 04:49:00 PST

Hypnotizing the Ignorent...

Nothing To Gein (Mudvayne (L.D.50)Cold and silenced, soiled face i will wash it all away. With my love, its all shes ever needed, from me. Its my time to mother. One of my own in my life. I ...
Posted by .Dull Boy. on Wed, 30 Jan 2008 01:24:00 PST

Ill Rot In My Head Alone...

Cradle (Mudvayne (L.D.50) Breathe....Breathe...BrEaThE PUSH...PUSH...PUSH! I lost you...You were my god...Thought "What do I do now?"You were never there for me...Never there to carry m...
Posted by .Dull Boy. on Wed, 30 Jan 2008 12:56:00 PST