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"In the chambers of my heart therein your name resides for a second in eternity before it rushes into my veins in pulsating whispers igniting my body with passion's fire"

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"In the chambers of my heart therein your name resides for a second in eternity before it rushes into my veins in pulsating whispers igniting my body with passion's fire"

Personal Message

To never dwell in the past, never dream of the future, just concentrate my mind on the present moment. Surfing is my conviction; waves are my shelter to live freely. Love is my life. And if someone misses out on love, they'll definitely miss out on life. (My message to you) "Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies."

Random Thoughts

Deep within ourselves lies the fear of rejection, the feeling of being unwanted. What is reality and what is mere surface appearance? Does the opinion of others matter to us? answer this honestly & truthfully. Feelings are real, they come from the abundance of the human heart. Pain cuts deep through the surface of our skin. The reality is this, you will never fully understand the true meaning of life, it's best to wait until it is revealed to you. Opinions do not matter, what matters is what is inside the soul of a person; words are just words but when they come from the abundance of someone's heart it's more than enough. Energy is the driving force of all changes, both physical and mental. Often the turbulent changes in our life can affect us deeply; yet we still are able to let go of these tragic events. Life is about to begin, for those who are worthy of it. There will always be obstacles that can and will stand in the way; things that we each have to get through... in order to grow; then life can begin. We may come to the realization that these obstacles are part of life itself. We've all seen suffering and many atrocity that humanity has been forced to endure these past years, yet we are all still longing for a better day; A day when all of humanity can find serenity in ourselves and our surroundings.

Music

Damien Rice, Dashboard Confessional, Five For Fighting, Hinder to name a few… I pretty much listen to everything especially songs/lyrics I can personally relate to "I think music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music. Music, the greatest good that mortals know, that gives us a glimpse of the parts of Heaven we may never know."

personal biography

Here's a little about me I'm 23 years old living in Costa Mesa/Newport Coast, with my girlfriend Krystal of almost 2 years. I have never meet anyone quite like her, she's my better half. She is by far the most amazing and intelligent woman I have ever dated, she's the first and only woman I can picture/see a life with. She brings out the best and worst in me. To wake up to her face every morning is such a delight and to fall asleep besides her takes my breath away. No words or expression can truly describe Krystal. (I apologize talking about her more than myself) anyways here are some basic information about me: I'm a college graduated from the university of southern California, currently working in a private medical practice and a rehabilitation center in L.A. I might end up back in school once my situation and career is moving forward. Personality wise I can come off a little to strong; not sure but that's what some people say… but to describe myself or my personality is a little too hard since I can't really say. I love to read books that are non fiction and a few novels, I'm really not a Harry Potter book lover but when it come to the movie I am a definite fan. :D I can best describe my feeling best on paper than saying them out loud. I love going for long drive on random occasions, only if I have a full tank of gas lol. I'm pretty sure it's clear that I love woman, I'm not a man hater or anything I just choose not to date one :D (so guys please don't bug me unless you have something better to say) I love to display my affection better know as (PDA) but only in surrounding gay areas. I don't mind the looks or stares sometimes but I rather do it in an area I feel safe. I'm still trying to get back on the surf board, just don't know when. My favorite color is green don't ask why it just is lol. I'm a really short girl I wish I can be taller but that's were the heels come in lol. I must admit this… there are times when I say stupid things it's not my fault I just don't think about it (blame it on the alcohol lol) well I guess that's all I can say for now. Oh yeah, my reason for being on myspace is this: to meet and potentially develop a new friendship with someone who shares possibly share the same views and similar interests. Also as far as location is concern hopefully you live in or around So. Cal but it really doesn't matter. Well that's all folks :D In My Own Words.
(c)-From The Abundance Of The Heart The Mouth Speaks.

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My Blog

Giving up, giving in.

I guess that's it. Giving up, giving in. I seem to think I can always win.   But I was wrong, replacing a dirty towel for a bed of sheets. I am here and it is now, no talk of futuristic k...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Thu, 16 Aug 2007 05:31:00 PST

The unconditional love between a mother and her daughter

Remember me when I am gone away,  gone far away into the silent land;  When you can no more hold me by the hand,  nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.  Remember me when no more...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Sun, 17 Jun 2007 08:09:00 PST

:.: : . . ....:::A Moment to Remember:::. . . : : :

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Posted by chaotic ™ on Mon, 12 Mar 2007 12:48:00 PST

these words...

when you are sad I will dry your tears when you are scared I will comfort your fears when you need love, my heart I will share when you are sick, I will be there and care you will feel my love when ev...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Fri, 26 Jan 2007 08:42:00 PST

The essence of time

They say time is precious,That time is of the essence,But what is this illusion?What is time?It goes by, they say,But I don't see anything.They even say,How time flies,Does it have wings?Never have I ...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 07:34:00 PST

Between These Verses Lies A Broken Heart

Someone I never had, I held inside my heart and loved with all my soul. How her name, which used to bring me immense joy, now causes me pain. I kissed her under every star in the bower of my dreams. ...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Sat, 25 Nov 2006 09:19:00 PST

Within You

You came into my life at a time when my heart was broken into a million tears and the leaves has all but faded into a beautiful memory my soul was lost wandering aimlessly into the night until you he...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Tue, 21 Nov 2006 04:58:00 PST

Because of you

Before you I was just a shell empty and hollow looking but never seeing everything around me with you I became a woman the other half of a whole a conscious transformation of thoughts and emotions I ...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 06:21:00 PST

In my mind

October 22, 2006     There never was a reasonwhyAlways lingeringas if a cloud in the skyI sit and think and nothing comesThrough miles and miles my mind does runOf memories sharedEverything ...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 05:32:00 PST

Innocent

What were the first words& I made and used in Paradise? Were they Peace, Beauty, and Love? Perhaps not, Because only when the Sun sets And Darkness comes, Can I feel the absence? Of what I have named ...
Posted by chaotic ™ on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 08:09:00 PST