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Phenom 3:16

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About Me

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This is Nivek aka Sirus aka Vek. Coming str8 out of Flo-town. still repping SI NY to the fullest. I'm currently in a relationship with this beautiful woman named Tai (short for Tybreisha), i have a beautiful little daughter named Thaliah. So as of now i'm happy and i'm not looking for anyone else, nor do i plan to. My chilling spots are Village Creek, the Spotlight, the Savoeir, north florence, and a few others that i'll fail to mention. I like to party, go clubbing, chill with my ppl and have a good time. I'm a down to earth person who has a good head on his shoulders and knows what he wants out of life. if you respect that then i can respect you. If you want to get to know me then leave me a message and i'll hit you back up when i get the chance.Shout Outs to My wifey Tai My brother Eric My brother Hasaan My sister Cierra My homeboi Steven My homeboi Alauhn My homeboi FranklinTo rest of my ppl i ain't forgot about you.
My Personality
Neuroticism 32
Extraversion 82
Openness To Experience 67
Agreeableness 73
Conscientiousness 65
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My Interests

Computers, music, art, japanese anime, video games, poetry
What does your birth month reveal about you?


March
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody.
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I'd like to meet:

God, The Undertaker, Jessica Alba, Tom Cruise, 50 Cent, Linkin Park and a few other ppl that i don't feel like naming right now. to be hated and judged because of who you look like, to be alone in the world with no one to help guide you, to be afraid and not have comfort, to be in such a cruel world where it seems as though no one cares, through it all you've got to keep your head up and stay strong and fast, somewhere in this life is happiness, you've just got to fight hard for it.
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Nivek Timmons aka Sirus
Birthday: March 16, 1988
Birthplace: Staten Island NY
Current Location: Staten Island NY
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: black
Height: 5'8
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: african american
The Shoes You Wore Today: filas
Your Weakness: hmmm??? do you think that i have any?
Your Fears: lost em...
Your Perfect Pizza: supreme
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: don't really know, whatever happens happens
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: what am i going to do 2day
Your Best Physical Feature: lips.
Your Bedtime: don't have one.
Your Most Missed Memory: moms
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: doesn't matter. it's food
Single or Group Dates: both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: neither
Do you Smoke: ???? what do you think?
Do you Swear: everynow and then
Do you Sing: yeah sometimes
Do you Shower Daily: of course that's a definite
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: yes
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you belive in yourself: yes
Do you get Motion Sickness: no, when i'm drunk everynow and then, lol
Do you think you are Attractive: yes
Are you a Health Freak: no
Do you get along with your Parents: well???
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: ????
In the past month have you been on Drugs: ????
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: yes
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: well...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: yes
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: hmmm, doesn't really matter. i'll go someday
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: that's a hard question
What country would you most like to Visit: Germany
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: don't matter
Favourite Hair Color: don't matter
Short or Long Hair: don't matter
Height: don't matter
Weight: don't matter, just not to big or to small
Best Clothing Style: don't matter
Number of Drugs I have taken: ????
Number of CDs I own: to many.
Number of Piercings: 2
Number of Tattoos: 0
Number of things in my Past I Regret: don't know how many

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Movies:

What ifWhat if this never had a beginning Therefore there would be no need for an ending What if I swallowed my pride And left my pain behindWhat if things began to change Would I even care that nothing remained the same Who would I have to blame If everything ended up down the drainWhat if I left my past behind And quit hitting rewind Then could I leave you with this rhyme And finish on this line I am… I am a person without a cause Nothing left to be lost I am a man who is confused Wondering what’s next to doI am a person who is fueled by the fire All I need to do is fulfill my desires I am a person with so many needs That has yet to be pleasedI am a god in my own mind My story is almost out of time Before I drop the dime I think that I will leave you with this rhyme Different Paths So many different paths to choose There’s nothing here for me, what do I have to lose There’s nothing left for me to do here Only shed more useless tearsI have one path that leads me back to my beginning = A place that should have never had an ending A place for me to heal inside And forget about what I left behindThen there’s a path that I have never traveled before One that will open new mysteries behind close doors What it might have in store I do not know But I’m still curious to see what’s hidden behind this doorThen I could stay here and try to make things right Try new things and change my life When I think about it here’s not really so bad It’s just the shit that goes down makes me really madWhich path I will take I don’t really know as of late At this time I’m still wondering what is my place What will I do with my life And will I finally get things right What’s inside What is it that makes me who I am What is the reason to which I feel like I am already damned What is it that makes me tick Why is it that I’m sick of all this shitLet me start with what’s on the inside 18 years of unheard cries Pain inside that refuses to fade away and die Fears and cries that I cannot hideThere are so many markings on the wall It seems as though I’ve been here once before Staring through an empty doorway Nothing to look forward toNothing else left to do But wave goodbye to the past What I have inside I hate But it has kept me here to this date From the start I took a look at my life And now I realize that it’s not right I look into my soul But I’m staring into a deep black wholeI have a lot of love and hatred in my heart I am tormented and haunted by these thoughts Consumed by my insecurity and my faults I remember all of this from the startI am tortured with so many different feelings I am in need of some spiritual healing I have lived and I have died That is the reason why I hide what’s insideNo One Else Like You There’s no one else like you No one that I rather be close to No one that I would rather spend time No one else that I would truly missThere’s nothing I wouldn’t do To be there for you I’d be there when you were feeling blue To help you get throughYou would never have to struggle We would be there for each other And love one another To this day there should be no otherBeen Through I’ve been through so much So many different scrapes and cuts At times I hated my guts And wanted to leave behind my life in the dustI have shed so many tears Over the past seventeen and a half years I have sweated and I have bled At times I had nothing to look forward to, but dreadI have become strong I am naïve no longer I wasted days of my life in the past But I sweep those days away like broken glassUnforgiving I will never forgive you for what you put me through You and your crew left me there standing confused I always got the feeling that I was being used But now I’m sick and tired of being abusedI sat back and watched as you destroyed my life Hoping that one day you would change and become my wife I sat and watched as you bled me dry And how I cried at home every nightI sat back as you lied to my face Praying that someday I would be able to leave this place Now there’s nothing here except waste It’s to bad that my heart can’t be replacedThinking of youAs I sit here and stare at the sky I wonder if you could ever be mine If wanting you was a crime Then I would gladly do the timeI think of you and how you are As I wish towards the stars I think of you and your smile And how for you I would walk a thousand milesJust to see your face My feelings for you could never be replaced I feel you now and after this date I wonder if me and you meeting was designed by fateUntil my time My hate towards the world That I keep locked behind a closed door The rage that I keep locked inside Wants to escape and commit and unspeakable crimeMy heart is corrupt My hatred is beginning to erupt My pain is my pleasure These feelings no one could ever measureI have had this feeling for a very long time I speak of it in this eternal rhyme I have cried and I have asked God why But these questions will remain a mystery to me until it is my timeWhat Goes around comes around There`s always going to be someone there to put you down Someone here to push you around Someone who wants to see you in the ground Someone who doesn`t want you aroundThere will always be people who don`t want you to succeed Someone who wishes to see you blees Somone who wishes death upon you and cause harm to youAll these things people put against you but don`t worry God stands with you They may wish to see you in the ground and see you down don`t worry what goes around comes back aroundIn my Heart You were always the one i though of first And now that your gone I feel the worst you always tried to put on a smile I did my best to help you when you were downIalways like to be around you to touch your neck to make you tickle I remember you eyes and how they glowed the love that i had for you was different from othersYou were one of my greatest friends that i ever had Now without you in my life i am truly mad Last but not least i don`t know where you are, but to let you know you will always be a part of my heartDarkness The light in my heart has ceased to exist it has been replaced by a darkness i`m sick of this shit the constant ramblings about my fault The constant war in my mind and the terrible thoughtsThe hate i feel is dying to escape but the rage within me i keep locked away where i am today i do not want to stay but i find myself here anywayThe different thoughts they consume me but if god were to look upon me he would see right through me The darkness is what made me it`s who I am but when the light shine upon me i am damed once againDesire My desire to succeed is what drives me I want to be the best no one should have to look behind me I should be first in yours and everyone`s eye because i strive to be the best no one can denyMy will is what took me this far I refuse to turn back, nor shall i give in My will is strong as it`s ever been My life iswhat i choose it to bei choose my own path if you stand in my way then you will feel my wrath i refuse to be last Irefuse only to be part of the pastYou So beautiful and kind you are a dime your grace and beauty is like no otherit`s to bad you have another lover you have one of the greatest smiles I`d walk a thousand miles just to see your faceI wish that I never had to leave this place It`s an honor to know you I`m glad that I told you If only i had the chance to hold youTomorrow At night I watch you sleep your pretty eyes are closed to me I think of tomorrow Holding you in my arms I will sheild you from sorrowThe life that you gave me a brand of new the love that you felt for me I felt the same for youyour serenity and grace makes me never want to leave this place in my arms I`ll hold you until tomorrowSorrow The pain that i feel inside for the people who passed and died I want to cry and take the pain that the people have insideI want to take their pain as my own and help them to find a home and take them from a broken dome i wish that i could be of some help to themTo help mend their hearts and make ammends I think of you everyday and constant struggles and the troubles that you face in the future through all this look to the sky, beacuse God still loves youJust Like You I refuse to be like you someone who doesn`t have a clue a person who is full of anger and someone who is nothing more than a dangerI refuse to be just like you a person who is feeling blue someone who has no regards to the rules a person who has nothing to loseI refuse to be just like you a liar without any fire a person without any desire I refuse just to be like youBroken Song The love that i had for you is gone it is replaced by a broken song what there was between us i do not know you didn`t love me back that`s what i was toldI lived to see you smile each and everyday to see you happyeach and everyway and to be around you and hold you and to be there for you when no one else wouldBut what i hate most is that i was the one who made the mistake I should have stopped myself before it was to late but now i find myself writing this poem sitting here in the dark all alonethe love that i had for you is gone it is replaced by a broken song i want to bury it in the past and conceal myself behind a maskFree I want to be as free as the wind free to wander the earth free to ponder the thoughts of life to figure out what god considers rightI want to explore the world and find myself find out what i`m living for and discover the endless possiblities of lifeto be as free as the wind no one else to guide me to fly in the sky the wind behind me to be free nothing else beneath meLife I was a child without purpose I didn`t know what my life mattered i experienced a lot of loss and had a purpopse without a causeI was full of anger and to much of a danger I hated myself and wonder why i had to live this like that i hatedI was torn between myself right and wrong, wrong and right i didn`t feel as though i was up for this fight i remember trying to take my life one nightwith that huge silver knife i remember how the blade felt against my skin and the feeling of the sensation again and again the thoughts running through my headthe tears i have shed and the blood i have bled i remember that night as clear as today and the feeling of it will never go awayi remember drowning myself in pills to take away this horrbile pain i didn`t feel like playing this game of life but i was not strong enough to take my own lifeCry I remember being ridiculed and judged feeling that i was unloved i remember how you always put me down i felt as though i had drownedyou scarred me for life with your selfish acts and when you slapped me for saying something back i remember the brutal beatings and whythey heldso much meaningthe thought of going home use to scare me all i wanted to do was leave, and be i rememberfeeling as though i would die i was glad when i finally criedSick of it AllI`m sick of the pain wrapped up inside I want to scream away and pass and die I have so many mysteries locked away inside I stay here in the dark so that i can hideI sit here and think of the past and wonder why i felt as though i was considered last now i`m here staring at broken glass and now i see some consequences for wearing a maskI can`t blame the world for all my suffering I`m the one who gave them power over me they look upon me and judge me not knowing my needs they sit here and watch as i bleedi begin to wonder why i love the world and hate it the same the hell, i`m he only one to blame but now i`m sick of this game i no longer want to play I wish the pain and misery would just go awayRhymes I build you up you tare me down i watch you sleep you hope i drownI carry you around you slap me down i hold you as you cry you only want to see me diewhy i stay with you i don`t know you say that your sick of me time after time this poem is not just a bunch of lines what i say comes from the heart, that`s why i`ve got these rhymesTrue Love Like no other feeling being with you i am willing to give up bad waysand spend with you rest of my daysI look forward to seeing you everyday you are special to me in everyway with you here next to me i have nothing to fear because you are the one that i hold deari take time out of my day just for you so that i can be there the days your feeling blue I`ll hold you close to my heart we`ll never be apartI`d be there in your darkest hour to care and look out for you I`m glad that god blessed me he sent me and angel like you to take care of meExtacy this feeling of great pleasure i would take any measure to be close to you me being the only one that youcalled boothis feeling like no other the way i feel i can`t describe this divine happiness that`s never ending in this there would be no need for mendingthis fire and passion that i feel has helped stregthen my will it`s better than taking happy pill being in your arms then i could dealStayI`d like to change the hands of time start over, would someone hit rewind breakdown and build a new design start over and leave this all behindI sit here and watch as time fades away and wonder how i got back to this day why i decided to play I don`t know the answers to these questions anywaythe feelings of doubt consume me if god were to look he would see right through me i`m breaking down and fading away i no longer have a reason to stayNeed youLike the fire needs the air I won`t burn unless you are there I`ll be there, I`ll be near you can leave behind all of your fearsyou wipe away all of your tears you are the one that i will hold dear I`ll be there to help you when you are down I`ll do my best to be aroundwhen i`m coming through your town I`ll be there to hold you down I have no worries when you are near I think god that you are here

Television:


What makes you attractive? by eurudite
Name:
Gender:
Age:
Your Eyes: 11%

Your Smile: 42%

Your Body: 95%

Your Wit: 61%

Your Charm: 97%

Your Personality: 93%

What first attracts them: You smile all the time!
Why they stay: You are loyal to a fault.
What pushes them away: You don't take an interest in what they like.

Books:

John Grisham collection, Harry Potter Collection, the good stuff, lol.

Heroes:


How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
Name
...believe in true love?
Your hands say With me, you'll never be lost.
Your eyes say I can't dream anyone more beautiful.
Your hugs say I promise I will try to keep you safe.
Your kisses say I almost can't believe you love me.
Your body says I just want to hold you.
Your heart says Ich liebe dich.