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About Me

i'm pretty laidback. the best and worst times of my life have happened under the influence of something. i play way too many video games. i'm a vegetarian. i'm going to culinary school for some reason. i have dreams. i drink too much and i do not yet know how to live.
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what is your name?
Pawel
how old are you?
22 (for a few more moments)
where do you live?
by the train tracks
where or how do you want to die?
shot with arrows
what is a secret about you?
i am a big fat liar
what do you want to do differently?
to be less worried and obsessive and to be have being kind as my natural response as opposed to having to remind myself
when do you think about your regrets the most often?
when i am awake
why did you do something mean?
my feelings were hurt and i was embarrassed to say
what is your most prized posession?
the cd jamie stewart personally gave me
what is your favorite bird? cat? sea creature? plant?
dodo, chester and ronso, urchin, every cactus
what is your favorite lie to tell?
that i have a secret
who do you live for?
haha

My Interests

drinking, gaming, sitting, moping, dancing, cooking, drugging, fucking, cuddling, laying, watching, reading

I'd like to meet:

people who prefer to see the dark side of things. the glass is always half-empty. and cracked. and i just chipped a tooth on it.

Music:

xiu xiu
ten in the swear jar
IBOPA
sunset rubdown
wolf parade
frog eyes
neko case
okkervil river
bat for lashes
this song is a mess but so am i
the paper chase
deerhunter
the robot at me
the magnetic fields
jay brannan
michele 29
animal collective
azure ray
blonde redhead
casiotone for the painfully alone
chris garneau
deerhoof
the fiery furnaces
mates of state
final fantasy
iron and wine
the unicorns
the moldy peaches
patrick wolf
the pixies
the smiths
we will eat rats to survive
a fine frenzy

anything sad

Movies:

i like queer cinema and zombie movies

Television:

i watch tv

Books:

nonfiction

My Blog

don’t make love so hard

You said you're a wreck, you get so upsetYou said that you'd ruin everythingthe first chance you getBut your chances come day after dayas I drunkenly slander your nameIs it possible you've become fond...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Tue, 17 Jun 2008 12:35:00 PST

we’re not supposed to be lovers

yes. i knew it from the moment you came in. that's the way it must be. that's the way we are, one-step men. i'm used to it and can take it. but i hoped that you above all would continue to be my broth...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Sat, 14 Jun 2008 01:37:00 PST

misery is a butterfly

we're souls imprisoned in bodies with base needs; if we don't yield to them, our souls grow sick, no matter how noble they might be. it's our doom: to struggle between body & soul.
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 01:11:00 PST

cemetery party

today is the day i was born but it is only the day and not the yearfor my birthday, in celebration of a life in ruin, a life in torment, a life in pursuit of wrong doings, a life on the brink of arres...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Mon, 28 Apr 2008 02:53:00 PST

november

So I'm waiting for this test to end So these lighter days can soon begin I'll be alone but maybe more carefree Like a kite that floats so effortlessly I was afraid to be alone Now I'm scared thats how...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Tue, 22 Apr 2008 03:25:00 PST

Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skinThe palm trees swaying in the windImagesYou sang me Spanish lullabiesThe sweetest sadness in your eyesClever trickWell, I never want to see you unhappyI thought you&rsquo...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 01:42:00 PST

don’t come back

but to imagine that you also know why you want what you do, do what youdo...what is it that he couldn’t do to you to make you change, what isit that he could do...kiss with someone else, find so...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 01:29:00 PST

too long

»Big Crunch Clock« (2005) is a digital clock that counts backwards the five billion years left before the sun explodes. It has 20 numbers: from the billions of years to the tenths of a second, and it ...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 12:38:00 PST

I’m going to the xiu xiu show march 15th!

We all live in pain. Maddening depression is as debilitating as cancer, it's just a question of which you're cursed to lose: Your mind or your body. Pain is relative, life is as meaningless as you mak...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Wed, 05 Mar 2008 03:26:00 PST

half-boyfriend

I don't know where we're goingbut I know we've gone too far andI hope it isn't showingbut I think I love you andI can't believe you're leavingjust when I let you in andwhen you had me believingI could...
Posted by shut up i am dreaming on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 08:59:00 PST