IM me @ DragonflyChicago
It's new year...so I thought it was time for a new profile. Happy New Year's to EVERYBODY! I hope you have a great 2006!
2005 was actually a pretty decent year for me, but I'm hoping 2006 will be even better. I got some great friends, a great boyfriend and a great family. My New Year's resolution is to get closer to my siblings, spend more quality time with my friends and study about diabetes. Unfortunately, diabetes seems to run rampant in my family. :(
I know many people haven't seem me out lately. I apologize and just wanted to let you know it's coz I got a day job now (which I love) and I've decided...I hate liquor. It's gross, it stinks and I don't know how to control my consumption of it, so it makes me feel like shit. So, I hate it. :) So, when I run into my "party friends" here and there, I feel bad that I haven't seen them in months. But, now you know why...
I'm finally 30...unfortunately, I'll be 31 this March. It seems like every year I will start that sentence with "unfortunately..." They don't lie when they say you don't get any younger. I must say though, life does seem to get a little better as you get older. Sort of...you seem to get a better grip on your life and it seems to define itself a little better. However, I am still really confused with what my future holds. I know where I want to be career-wise and I know how to get there, but I am just stumped with my personal life. I don't feel like I'm growing personally...or at least as fast as I want to.
I realized this year that I have some great friends. I know...it's only 6 days into the year, but that's all it took for me to realize it. Let's just put it this way....I LOVE my TOP 8 (besides my fam...of course). I make new friends everyday, but I've learned that people aren't who they seem to be...you really don't find out if people are good or not unless they've been through the test of time and hardship. I will do ANYTHING for my closest friends...coz I know they would do the same for me! "That's what friends are for..."
I must say, however, I am very unhappy about my family situation. My family is just a "one-of-a-kind special family". Basically, they're not the greatest. Least to say...they're not even mediocre. Sometimes I wish I could just zap myself into another family. However, on the bright side...I have the best siblings...there's 4 more of us (besides me, of course)...there's Chi: my unfortunate obedient heart & soul whom I love to death and would give my life for, there's Chris: the most respectful sibling I've ever encountered who parties too much with not much help from me, there's K.C.; the "growing too fast" soon to-be sexy model (OMG...it's too fast), and there's Cheng-En: the one I don't get to spend too much time with, but miss tremendously...and he forever shocks the hell outta me. Well there's the rundown on my siblings. I must say...the ..1 most important thing in my life would be my family. They determine my mood, my life, my future...it's unfortunate, but it is the life I choose to live.
For all those of you who keep asking...what happened to you and Damien...let me me clarify...we just grew apart after 6 some years together. But I do want everyone to know...since they're always giving me this "oh, I'm so sorry" look, Damien is one of my best friends now. I love him to death and I talk to him everyday...and as the years go by, our friendship will definitely get stronger coz he's just such a great man.
On another note, I must let everyone know also, that I am madly in love with Gabriel. He has brought the sun into my dungeon. And I never noticed til recently...it was a dark, gloomy, cold dungeon. And for all the girls who read this, who are in the merry-go-round relationships...get out! There's ALWAYS better out there! NEVER settle...til you're MADLY in love. Not just "in love"..."MADLY IN LOVE!"
Well, thanks for taking time to read all this nonsense. Now I need to go do something with myself!
