Alexis

"I got lost in the night, without the light of your eyelids, and when the night surrounded me I was born again: I was the owner of my own darkness." from Sonnet LVII--Pablo Neruda

"Awake, arise, or be forever fallen." -John Milton, Paradise Lost

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Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.
—Leo Tolstoy, Anna Karenina (1877; trans. Constance Garnett)

Ring Of Fire by Johnny Cash

Love Is A Burning Thing
And It Makes A Fiery Ring
Bound By Wild Desire
I Fell Into A Ring Of Fire

I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

The Taste Of Love Is Sweet
When Hearts Like Ours Meet
I Fell For You Like A Child
Oh, But The Fire Went Wild

I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher

And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

And It Burns, Burns, Burns

The Ring Of Fire

The Ring Of Fire

“Life is only a dream and we are the imagination of ourselves.” -Bill Hicks

“I'm tired of this back-slapping "Isn't humanity neat?" bullshit. We're a virus with shoes, okay? That's all we are.” -Bill Hicks

I like to stay away from the pretentious types...

Photos by Diane Arbus And Other Photographers

Black cherry soda, intuition, great journalism, GQ magazine, highways, empathy, MOMA, eyeshadow, music (because it carries me through everything), corn tortillas, the smell of home depot, my proposal story, arepas, the smell of libraries, traveling, the feeling of coming home after traveling, movie theater butter popcorn, E.T.

essay questions, stand-up comedy, humor in the mundane, the periodic table of elements, dewey decimal system, sun dials, Guiness, M.A.D., braille, red hair dye, kissing, Sundays in bed, absurdity, existentialists, flying foxes, hands, my mother who gave me her tendancy to be a smartass, my father for giving me his tendancy to overthink things and resisting convention, Ray and his ability to make me feel like the most beautiful woman everyday, the way it feels when he combs my hair, New Haven, Connecticut where I was born, a good cry, symphonies, ballet shoes, metaphors, play-doh, coloring, summer dresses, glasses, run-on sentences, french cuffs,

art, music, beer, smoking, late hours, different languages, different faces..driving fast, bar stools, clumsy people,
Image From Kitty imperfect teeth, people playing with my hair, muscle cars, being alone, irony, people who can listen and understand without judgement, tivo, not being a teenager anymore, corners, miso soup, meteor showers, cuban coffee, bare feet, sweaters,

cab drivers, punctuation, dark movie theaters, breathing, telescopes, gothic architecture, history channel, learning, good pens, driving around with my jeep top off,

winter, fall colors, mountains, gray skies, thunderstorms, natural disaters and the utter badass temperment of this planet, humility,

Scientific American Magazine, being a complete dork, waiting for god to come and strike me with many lightning bolts, being an open minded athiest who uses the term "god" loosely,

fickleness, stubborness, dark impulses,

People Envy Your Compassion
You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them. What Do People Envy About You?

“To die for a religion is easier than to live it absolutely.” -Jorge Luis Borges

the history of a stranger, the big bang, our ideas of heaven and hell prophets and spiritual wars we hold on to, so we do not feel lost in an existence of random uncertainty,my propensity to always admit my shortcomings and faults,

my bed, closing my eyes, reading novels, poetry (yes, poetry), writing......

plenty of blank spaces

I am 19% Idiot.
.. I am not annoying at all. In fact most people come to me for advice. Of course they annoy the hell out of me. But what can I do? I am smarter than most people. Take the
Idiot Test
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i am very much the misanthropist.

Mankind on the whole is often destructive and anxious; we are dispensible and one day this planet will rightfully kick us out. we are beautiful, flawed and nervous creatures.

i do like science fiction, muscle cars (67 mustang baby!!),I like my new black jeep wrangler.

I like photography books. but not photography shows. i like taco bell. but only with the sporks. I like poetry. But i dont like poets. I like christmas day. but only because i get a day off of work. I love LOVE driving. But i hate other drivers. i love cold weather. I love history. but i hate the whole neverending, repeating, human suffering part of it.

I like castles. but i hate the headless ghosts who roam the hallways. i like the english countryside. but the english people can be a bunch of pricks. i like thatched roof homes. but then its so easy for the village overlord to come and burn it down. I like dragons. but i don't like the kind who sound like Sean Connery.

Image From Kitty

“The worst kind of non-smokers are the ones that come up to you and cough. That's pretty fucking cruel isn't it? Do you go up to cripples and dance too?” -Bill Hicks

Fixations

"Humanity, you never had it to begin with."-Charles Bukowski

"I do not need the idea of God to explain the world I live in."--Salmon Rushdie

“It's possible to love a human being if you don't know them too well.”-Charles Bukowski

"It is almost impossible to state what one in fact believes, because it is almost impossible to hold a belief and to define it at the same time.”--William Carlos Williams

"If you're losing your soul and you know it, then you've still got a soul left to lose”--Charles Bukowski