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My husband and I are living in Nashville, TN. He works at an art store and I am employed with Vanderbilt Medical Group.We both love the outdoors and try to fish and camp as often as possible. I have 4 boys, a 7 year old orange tabby cat named Sasha and a 2 year old black and tan long haired dachshund named Angus and my twin boys Waylon & Jesse who are in my heart all the time.
I am a hippy at heart....I love to support my organic & family farmers. I like to know what I am eating is pure.The way I see it is if you like to eat then you should care about what you are putting into your body.
My husband and I experienced what will hopefully be our greatest loss. I was 22 1/2 weeks pregnant with twins when I delivered them. They were too young to survive and died due to complications with twin to twin transfusion. It is a rare condition w/identical twins where one twin gets too much blood and the other one does not get enough. We were lucky enough to have them with us for a few hours. We named them Waylon Thomas & Jesse Redden. They are my little cowboys.
You can view pictures of family, friends and other things here.... http://www.flickr.com/photos/kkirk78/. view my blog here: http://tobinkendrakirk.blogspot.com/
Below is a list that I found and really does fit how I feel so I thought I would share it with everyone...
20 Things Parents of Angels Wish People Would Remember
1. I wish you would not be afraid to mention my babies. The truth is just because you never saw my babies doesn't mean they don't deserve your recognition.
2.I wish that if we did talk about my babies and I cried you didn't think it was because you have hurt me by mentioning my babies. The truth is I need to cry and talk about my babies with you.
3. I wish that you could talk about my babies more than once. The truth is if you do, it reassures me that you haven't forgotten them and that you do care and understand.
4. I wish you wouldn't think that I don't want to talk about my babies. The truth is I love my babies and need to talk about them.
5. I wish you could tell me you are sorry my babies died and that you are thinking of me. The truth is that it tells me you care.
6. I wish you wouldn't think what has happened is one big bad memory for me. The truth is the memory of my babies, the love I feel for my babies, the dreams I had and the memories I have created for my babies are all loving memories. Yes there are bad memories too but please understand that it's not all like that.
7. I wish you wouldn't pretend that my babies never existed. The truth is we both know I had twins growing inside me.
8. I wish you wouldn't judge me because I am not acting the way you think I should be. The truth is grief is a very personal thing and we are all different people who deal with things differently.
9. I wish you wouldn't think if I have a good day I'm "over it" or if I have a bad day I am being unreasonable because you think I should be over it. The truth is there is no "normal" way for me to act.
10. I wish you wouldn't stay away from me. The truth is losing my babies doesn't mean I'm contagious. By staying away you make me feel isolated, confused and like it is my fault.
11. I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be "over and done with" in a few weeks, months, or years for that matter. The truth is it may get easier with time but I will never be "over" this.
12. I wish you wouldn't think that my babies weren't really babies and they were just blood and tissue or a fetus. The truth is my babies had a life. My babies had a soul, heart, body, legs, arms and a face. I have seen my baby's body and face. My babies were a real person - and they were alive.
13. My babies due date, Mothers Day, celebration times, the day my babie were born and the day I lost them are all important and sad days for me. The truth is I wish you could tell me by words or by letter you are thinking of me on these days.
14. I wish you understood that losing my babies has changed me. The truth is I am not the same person I was before and will never be that person again. If you keep waiting for me to get back to ""normal" you will stay frustrated. I am a new person with new thoughts, dreams, beliefs, and values. Please try to get to know the real me-maybe you'll still like me.
15. I wish you wouldn't tell me I could have another baby. The truth is I want the babies I lost and no other baby can replace them. Babies aren't interchangeable.
16. I wish you wouldn't feel awkward or uncomfortable talking about my babies or being near me. When you do, I can see it. The truth is it's not fair to make me feel uncomfortable just because you are.
17. I wish you wouldn't think that you'll keep away because all my friends and family will be there for me. The truth is, everyone thinks the same thing and I am often left with no one.
18. I wish you would understand that being around pregnant women is uncomfortable for me. The truth is I feel jealous.
19. I wish you wouldn't say that it's natures way of telling me something was wrong with my babies. The truth is my babies were perfect no matter what you think nature is saying.
20. I wish you would understand what you are really saying when you say "next time things will be okay". The truth is how do you know? What will you say if it happens to me again?